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Im dick of this shit cameras on the roof and no one believe me. Ive tried everything to convince these doctors and psychiatrists that theres cameras but still they insist on handing me medications after medication.
Fuck all of you for.not believing.

I want to kill myself but dont.know how to tie the noose so i guess all of you cunts that call me a dog and stuff are lucky.
 
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Specified, I've edited your post to remove the last question. Recommending methods of suicide is against our rules in TDS, so the topic is nil.

I'm sorry about your paranoia. I know first hand what it's like to believe something happened and no one wants to believe you. It's even more difficult simply just to tell what's real and what isn't. What meds have they put you on?
 
but there used to be maybe 60% of the site had a picture of a dog as there display pic, and i know it was aimed at me because as soon as i brought it up everyone took them down and replaced them with something else.

Second of alll, it's not paranoia. oh I know what's real and what isn't.

i'm on seroquel, lorasodone abilify and there looking at putting me on the fucking depot of Abilify which means I won't be able to live a good life taking drugs because that's all I know like a lot of people on here.

I'm waiting til the second half life passes so I can take drugs again (I used to be on Zuclopenthixol depot, the half life is 19 days)
 
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but there used to be maybe 60% of the site had a picture of a dog as there display pic, and i know it was aimed at me because as soon as i brought it up everyone took them down and replaced them with something else.

Second of alll, it's not paranoia. oh I know what's real and what isn't.

i'm on seroquel, lorasodone abilify and there looking at putting me on the fucking depot of Abilify which means I won't be able to live a good life taking drugs because that's all I know like a lot of people on here.

I'm waiting til the second half life passes so I can take drugs again (I used to be on Zuclopenthixol depot, the half life is 19 days)
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I am not a fan of the antipsychotic depot injections in general however I do understand they have their place. But I have recently read of better results with lower doses of the depot, so it's doesn't completely zonk you out for months. Maybe talk to your psych about this.
 
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Im dick of this shit cameras on the roof and no one believe me. Ive tried everything to convince these doctors and psychiatrists that theres cameras but still they insist on handing me medications after medication.
Fuck all of you for.not believing.

I want to kill myself but dont.know how to tie the noose so i guess all of you cunts that call me a dog and stuff are lucky.
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Why would i call you a dog? You are a human being, and you should be respected as such. You have human rights and human value. And dogs are super cool, so if i would call you a dog, that would be a compliment.

Please do not get frustrated or angry, but i think that this is a paranoia case.

Second of alll, it's not paranoia. oh I know what's real and what isn't.
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So do i. And i did. I knew i was the reincarnation of Jesus Christ back in 2006. I knew that benevolent aliens are coming with UFO fleet to pick up all good humans from planet earth and take them to a nicer planet in 2009. I knew that shit for a fact. But those were psychotic episodes, and i know that now.

Don't kill yourself. This can be fixed. We are here for you, but you need real life social interaction also. Someone to keep you company.
 
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should i take some meth with a clot?

as the title says should i take with with a blood clot ive just had 10mg and nothings happened. maybe if i just keep it to 10-20-30mg ill be ok
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Read Zephyr's post. it's just one of many. I could try look for heaps of others but what's the point?
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I did. It is crystal clear. Zephyr attempted to mindfuck you up. Some twisted people get pleasure from doing that. Not your fault, and zephyr shit was not even true.
 
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