Cyledehysp
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This is a rapport from my mushroom trip that happend few months ago.
subst. : 80 dried psilocibe semilanceata
location: home alone
time: middle of the day
My past experience:
I have done mushrooms 7 times earlier, including once alone, few times acid, and few times MDxx. And cannabis if that matters
. My biggest dosage of shrooms before was something around 45 mushrooms...
Note about the dosage:
I used 80 dried, but picked by me only 1 week earlier, average medium to big sized psilocibe semilanceatas. The ammount needed to reach so called level one (for me) is about 15 mushrooms, 30 is enough to hallucinate, and 45 gives good mushroom trip. I expected to reach some unknown grounds with this dose, actually I was expecting to reach "complete (or partial) loss with reality" type of experience. Now I know that the dose wasn`t big enough, its not that big difference if you eat 50 or 80. I belive 150 or more would do the trick for sure... anyway - it doesn`t mean the trip was light or boring! Oh no.
Preparation:
I`v downloaded lots of music, some recomendations from psychedelics FAQs and other things and made a 6 hour winamp playlist, choosing carefully music to the current time of trip (I`v started winamp right after drinking my mushroom tea). I`v made myself a comfortable "floor bed" near the speakers, with water, fruit, something to write, note pad and several other things nearby.
Mindset:
I wanted to experience something new, stronger then ever, I wanted to see space and to find some answers to my current life questions. I was hoping for a pleasure time too. I was ready for unknown...
time - 00:00
It`s not that I like this taste, but I don`t have any problems either - I`v drunk my tea in few minutes, watching Underworld`s video Born Slippy, after that, I started the winamp and lied down on my "bed". Music include things like The Orb, Wiliam Orbitt or Aphex Twin, to name only few (not scary pieces of Aphex of course). I planned to lie down most of the time - possibly with eyes closed. Planning - haha.
After no more than 5 minutes I already started to feel something in my body. Just "something". 15 minutes afted drinking I felt wired - and things were changing fast - I was suprised it started so fast. 20 minutes - half hour, I was feeling it really strong on my body. I don`t know how to describe it, but it scared me in a way - I thought that if I feel it so strong so early - I have probably taken too much and it just may be TOO intense. And in my mind the journey already begin. I think around 45th minute I was hallucinating ( waving of things) and on the other side already. With my eyes closed i havn`t seen much, but after a while some sort of tentacle was getting closer and twisting near me so I`v opended eyes. I saw a hand lying under my head and realised it was my own.
At time 1:00 after drinking, I think strong and a bit negative feelings in my body stopped a bit. But my mind... I was somehow "far", and not as "one" as normally.. I felt a bit cold and a need to go to toilet, but I was still lying down, and not doing anything about it. I realised it, but still nothing. Not that I couldn`t move, I was just undecissive. I thought as if there is more of us, and some feel cold, others decide what to do and they are not connected well. Finally I went to toilet... Hallucinations were stronger, but nothing like morphing objects or cascades of light... Whet I looked at my face in the mirror, and "deconcentrate" my looking I was seeing my face changing. Also, another hallucination were rainbows in the air - very subtle but present. I went back to my tripping room.
I realised something wired is going on with my thoughts, but i just couldnt put my finger on it... I felt like something new happened im my mind but couldn`t figure it out. And I realised that I`m realising it again and again, but making progress every time. It`s like my thoughts were in some spiral, every turn thinking simillar thought but each time moving a little forward. And finally, I knew what happend. For the first time, I`v stopped to use words in thinking COMPLETLY. I could see in my mind something I can only describe as shadows of the words, but i couldn`t reach any of this words. I was thinking without them. I was amazed, bacause i was still thinking... with something else, not words. I wanted to see what is it if not words, I was trying to catch a thought while it was being created and see what is it. But I just couldn`t grab it, it was like trying to eat your own head. All the time I was still in the room, with my eyes opened, I was aware I have eaten shrooms, but on the other hand I was far away, like an observer, I was just looking at things so neutral... Like someone who just looks at this world but is not really a part of it. And all the time I was thinking without any words at all.
Sometimes I felt like I`m another creature, and I`m in some body, human body - I was touching my face like blind people who try to "see" someone... While in the tiolet, I looked in the mirror and thought without the words "so that`s this creature we are in..." but at a different level I knew I`m human being who have eaten shrooms this day... My hand looked wired too, like my fingers were too short, with claws, a bit devil like. I wasnt really hallucinating this - only seeing it different, if you know what I mean. While my winamp played Bjork`s "Oxygen" I didn`t know if she is singing in it in english or another language. Actually, I thought it must be Elf-ish... I don`t know if I could talk with words because I haven`t even tried - I wasn`t courious or something, I don`t know now. I guess I couldn`t. When I`v looked at a bottle of water, and the wrightings on it - the letters seem to be some wired unknown signs... When I took a magazine with some artwork I realised that I understand images very good, only letters were out of my reach at the time. About music in generall - It was affecting my mood from time to time, into "wired" or "beautifull, very positive" or others. I don`t know exactly, but all that must have taken another hour and a half, so...:
time - around 2:30
I belive I`v already reached peek some time earlier. I was still a creature exploring human world because some human have eaten mushrooms and let me in. When I was walking on the stairs I was making really huge steps, rising my legs high and far - like the creature that was part of me at this time was bigger than humans and wasn`t used to our small size. After some time I started to finally come down SLOWLY.
time - around 3:30
I remember exactly the moment, when in my thoughts the words came back. It was unexpected, like a swith - and I was again thinking words - it showed me even stronger that ealier I deffinitely was without em at all. A bit later I`v taken my pice of paper with questions, and started to think about some. Mainly I haven`t answered the questions but rather written something new, but connected to the questions, usefull. At about 4th hout of my trip I came to my computer, and started to record a wave with my thoughts. I`v experienced several interesting things including appearance of "stronger" part of my personality, and I belive it made it`s way to everyday life in a bit. But at this time I wasnt`t tripping any near my peak, I was comming back to reality. 5 hours after drinking, I`v smoked some very good hash, relaxed and think about everything that happended. I`v definitelly experienced things I`v never have before and it was a wired, but positive and amazing trip. One thing I missed the most were other trippers, so next time I`ll do it with friends.
Few days later, using notes from my trip and also thinking about new things I`v "invented" some nice things for my life- that were my questions answered.
subst. : 80 dried psilocibe semilanceata
location: home alone
time: middle of the day
My past experience:
I have done mushrooms 7 times earlier, including once alone, few times acid, and few times MDxx. And cannabis if that matters
. My biggest dosage of shrooms before was something around 45 mushrooms...Note about the dosage:
I used 80 dried, but picked by me only 1 week earlier, average medium to big sized psilocibe semilanceatas. The ammount needed to reach so called level one (for me) is about 15 mushrooms, 30 is enough to hallucinate, and 45 gives good mushroom trip. I expected to reach some unknown grounds with this dose, actually I was expecting to reach "complete (or partial) loss with reality" type of experience. Now I know that the dose wasn`t big enough, its not that big difference if you eat 50 or 80. I belive 150 or more would do the trick for sure... anyway - it doesn`t mean the trip was light or boring! Oh no.
Preparation:
I`v downloaded lots of music, some recomendations from psychedelics FAQs and other things and made a 6 hour winamp playlist, choosing carefully music to the current time of trip (I`v started winamp right after drinking my mushroom tea). I`v made myself a comfortable "floor bed" near the speakers, with water, fruit, something to write, note pad and several other things nearby.
Mindset:
I wanted to experience something new, stronger then ever, I wanted to see space and to find some answers to my current life questions. I was hoping for a pleasure time too. I was ready for unknown...
time - 00:00
It`s not that I like this taste, but I don`t have any problems either - I`v drunk my tea in few minutes, watching Underworld`s video Born Slippy, after that, I started the winamp and lied down on my "bed". Music include things like The Orb, Wiliam Orbitt or Aphex Twin, to name only few (not scary pieces of Aphex of course). I planned to lie down most of the time - possibly with eyes closed. Planning - haha.
After no more than 5 minutes I already started to feel something in my body. Just "something". 15 minutes afted drinking I felt wired - and things were changing fast - I was suprised it started so fast. 20 minutes - half hour, I was feeling it really strong on my body. I don`t know how to describe it, but it scared me in a way - I thought that if I feel it so strong so early - I have probably taken too much and it just may be TOO intense. And in my mind the journey already begin. I think around 45th minute I was hallucinating ( waving of things) and on the other side already. With my eyes closed i havn`t seen much, but after a while some sort of tentacle was getting closer and twisting near me so I`v opended eyes. I saw a hand lying under my head and realised it was my own.
At time 1:00 after drinking, I think strong and a bit negative feelings in my body stopped a bit. But my mind... I was somehow "far", and not as "one" as normally.. I felt a bit cold and a need to go to toilet, but I was still lying down, and not doing anything about it. I realised it, but still nothing. Not that I couldn`t move, I was just undecissive. I thought as if there is more of us, and some feel cold, others decide what to do and they are not connected well. Finally I went to toilet... Hallucinations were stronger, but nothing like morphing objects or cascades of light... Whet I looked at my face in the mirror, and "deconcentrate" my looking I was seeing my face changing. Also, another hallucination were rainbows in the air - very subtle but present. I went back to my tripping room.
I realised something wired is going on with my thoughts, but i just couldnt put my finger on it... I felt like something new happened im my mind but couldn`t figure it out. And I realised that I`m realising it again and again, but making progress every time. It`s like my thoughts were in some spiral, every turn thinking simillar thought but each time moving a little forward. And finally, I knew what happend. For the first time, I`v stopped to use words in thinking COMPLETLY. I could see in my mind something I can only describe as shadows of the words, but i couldn`t reach any of this words. I was thinking without them. I was amazed, bacause i was still thinking... with something else, not words. I wanted to see what is it if not words, I was trying to catch a thought while it was being created and see what is it. But I just couldn`t grab it, it was like trying to eat your own head. All the time I was still in the room, with my eyes opened, I was aware I have eaten shrooms, but on the other hand I was far away, like an observer, I was just looking at things so neutral... Like someone who just looks at this world but is not really a part of it. And all the time I was thinking without any words at all.
Sometimes I felt like I`m another creature, and I`m in some body, human body - I was touching my face like blind people who try to "see" someone... While in the tiolet, I looked in the mirror and thought without the words "so that`s this creature we are in..." but at a different level I knew I`m human being who have eaten shrooms this day... My hand looked wired too, like my fingers were too short, with claws, a bit devil like. I wasnt really hallucinating this - only seeing it different, if you know what I mean. While my winamp played Bjork`s "Oxygen" I didn`t know if she is singing in it in english or another language. Actually, I thought it must be Elf-ish... I don`t know if I could talk with words because I haven`t even tried - I wasn`t courious or something, I don`t know now. I guess I couldn`t. When I`v looked at a bottle of water, and the wrightings on it - the letters seem to be some wired unknown signs... When I took a magazine with some artwork I realised that I understand images very good, only letters were out of my reach at the time. About music in generall - It was affecting my mood from time to time, into "wired" or "beautifull, very positive" or others. I don`t know exactly, but all that must have taken another hour and a half, so...:
time - around 2:30
I belive I`v already reached peek some time earlier. I was still a creature exploring human world because some human have eaten mushrooms and let me in. When I was walking on the stairs I was making really huge steps, rising my legs high and far - like the creature that was part of me at this time was bigger than humans and wasn`t used to our small size. After some time I started to finally come down SLOWLY.
time - around 3:30
I remember exactly the moment, when in my thoughts the words came back. It was unexpected, like a swith - and I was again thinking words - it showed me even stronger that ealier I deffinitely was without em at all. A bit later I`v taken my pice of paper with questions, and started to think about some. Mainly I haven`t answered the questions but rather written something new, but connected to the questions, usefull. At about 4th hout of my trip I came to my computer, and started to record a wave with my thoughts. I`v experienced several interesting things including appearance of "stronger" part of my personality, and I belive it made it`s way to everyday life in a bit. But at this time I wasnt`t tripping any near my peak, I was comming back to reality. 5 hours after drinking, I`v smoked some very good hash, relaxed and think about everything that happended. I`v definitelly experienced things I`v never have before and it was a wired, but positive and amazing trip. One thing I missed the most were other trippers, so next time I`ll do it with friends.
Few days later, using notes from my trip and also thinking about new things I`v "invented" some nice things for my life- that were my questions answered.
