D
decisionsdecisions
Guest
Hey guys, well I am a female virgin. I'm 18 yrs old. I've had a few opportunities to lose my virginity, but they have always been with people who I would never see again, or people I don't particularly like more than a friend, so i've always declined. The result is that I am very inexperienced with anything sexual, and every other person my age that I know has had sex with at least 1 or 2 people (and usually more).
I used to be really embarrassed about being a virgin, but recently I've come to peace with the idea. Because I realised that the underlying reason I was so keen to lose my virginity was because it's what society expects of me. If I lived in a society where nobody lost their virginity until they were, say, 25, I wouldn't feel weird about being a virgin at all.
That said, however, as you guys can imagine, I am getting to the point where I would like to lose my virginity for multiple reasons. However whenever the opportunity comes up I keep saying no no no because i'm forever waiting for somebody "special". By special, I just mean somebody who I'm in a relationship with. Or somebody I really like. However I've never been in a relationship, so if I keep waiting for that I could we waiting for years!
Pretty soon I'm visiting home for a week, and I have a friend up there, "G". Me and G used to canoodle a bit, i.e kissing, occasionally oral sex, etc. I have a feeling that when I go up there and stay the night, I might have an opportunity to have sex with him. However, he is not somebody "special". I am not physically attracted to him, I only like him as a friend, and because he lives far away I probably won't see him again for ages.
One side of me is thinking, "oh come on, its just sex, just get it over and done with, at least you trust him and know he's not a dickhead" but the other side of me is thinking that, when I do meet somebody special, I will regret having lost my virginity to somebody like G- somebody I don't like at all (not more than a friend anyway). I will have wanted to wait. Also I may feel bad about myself having given myself away to somebody I don't particularly care about, just because I didn't want to be a virgin anymore.
So, what do you guys think? Is sex really not a big thing, and it really doesnt matter who you lose your virginity to? Or should the first time be "special", with somebody you really like and care about?
I used to be really embarrassed about being a virgin, but recently I've come to peace with the idea. Because I realised that the underlying reason I was so keen to lose my virginity was because it's what society expects of me. If I lived in a society where nobody lost their virginity until they were, say, 25, I wouldn't feel weird about being a virgin at all.
That said, however, as you guys can imagine, I am getting to the point where I would like to lose my virginity for multiple reasons. However whenever the opportunity comes up I keep saying no no no because i'm forever waiting for somebody "special". By special, I just mean somebody who I'm in a relationship with. Or somebody I really like. However I've never been in a relationship, so if I keep waiting for that I could we waiting for years!
Pretty soon I'm visiting home for a week, and I have a friend up there, "G". Me and G used to canoodle a bit, i.e kissing, occasionally oral sex, etc. I have a feeling that when I go up there and stay the night, I might have an opportunity to have sex with him. However, he is not somebody "special". I am not physically attracted to him, I only like him as a friend, and because he lives far away I probably won't see him again for ages.
One side of me is thinking, "oh come on, its just sex, just get it over and done with, at least you trust him and know he's not a dickhead" but the other side of me is thinking that, when I do meet somebody special, I will regret having lost my virginity to somebody like G- somebody I don't like at all (not more than a friend anyway). I will have wanted to wait. Also I may feel bad about myself having given myself away to somebody I don't particularly care about, just because I didn't want to be a virgin anymore.
So, what do you guys think? Is sex really not a big thing, and it really doesnt matter who you lose your virginity to? Or should the first time be "special", with somebody you really like and care about?