It sounds as though if you
hadn't found solace in alcohol and marijuana, though, you would very likely had given in to the temptation to try something "novel" and "satisfying."
Ou may want to examine the reasons more deeply underlying this. For there will come a day when you cannot, for whatever reason, obtain cannabis and will instead get dunk. And after getting drunk, the idea of trying heroin will creep back into your mind. And this time, you may find yourself defenseless against the idea, and wind up making one of the worst decisions of your life.
What I'm driving at here is that the reasons behind using mind-altering chemicals at all - likely escapism, mixed with other things - are well and likely to end up damaging you beyond repair. My pattern of drug use prior to becoming highly involved with very addictive drugs, as well as an undeniable escalation in my use of alcohol, followed a remarkably similar behavioral course. If I can in any way even slightly derail that train from ever reaching its final destination, I want to make that effort.
After all, in TDS, one often isn't posing a drug-related question to a pool of casual, successfully-using group of individuals. For example, when I read your post, your words were being read and interpreted through the eyes of someone who has experienced a world of avoidable pain and turmoil due to these types of drugs and their deleterious effects on cognition and emotion.
Be careful, and be well.
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-~ Vaya