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James707

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Well everybody i have been abusing ecstasy for about 3 years now, in this amount of time i believe i have about 300 pills under my belt(yep every friday roller).

All my connects have dissapeard and i cant find it anywhere and i gotta tell ya damn do i miss my sweet molly. But i have to say that i knew for the longest that one day this was bound to happen. Maybe its a sign from god that i have been abusing so much that he took it away from me. Alas its probably for my own good, i always wanted to get better control of my usage and i was not going to follow my better judgment when i have great pills right there for my taking.....

I feel almost depressed about it tho, almost like a good friend of mine is moving away. But i also feel like a wieght has been lifted off of me because let me tell you the honeymoon was over with but there is still the flame of love for this terrific drug that i have fell so deep in love with.

Cherish all the good times that you have on this substance because one day just like that it can be gone before you know it. I will always remember the fun and emotions and way of life that this beautiful chemical helped me embrace.....

PLUR....:(
 
I'm not gonna lie, I thought this was about a girl, not a drug. If that were the case I'd have butt loads of advice for you but now Im pretty unmotivated to post on the board the rest of the night.
Peace,
-N.O.T.
 
Yeah, I started reading it and thought it was about your girl leaving you because you abuse E so bad. Out of curiousity, how do you function at your job? Or have any money? I'm not trying to be mean, but if you're rolling every weekend, you must have a huge tolerance and be an emotional mess the rest of the week :S
 
James707 said:
Well everybody i have been abusing ecstasy for about 3 years now, in this amount of time i believe i have about 300 pills under my belt(yep every friday roller).

All my connects have dissapeard and i cant find it anywhere and i gotta tell ya damn do i miss my sweet molly. But i have to say that i knew for the longest that one day this was bound to happen. Maybe its a sign from god that i have been abusing so much that he took it away from me. Alas its probably for my own good, i always wanted to get better control of my usage and i was not going to follow my better judgment when i have great pills right there for my taking.....

I feel almost depressed about it tho, almost like a good friend of mine is moving away. But i also feel like a wieght has been lifted off of me because let me tell you the honeymoon was over with but there is still the flame of love for this terrific drug that i have fell so deep in love with.

Cherish all the good times that you have on this substance because one day just like that it can be gone before you know it. I will always remember the fun and emotions and way of life that this beautiful chemical helped me embrace.....

PLUR....:(
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Sounds like you needed to take a break anyway =) Use this as a chance to give your brain a rest and try some healthier lifestyle changes.
 
I would definitely like to know how you act at your job as well.

I have my own experience with rolling and work but would love to here yours which is much more numerous experiences than mine...
 
thescientist said:
I would definitely like to know how you act at your job as well.

I have my own experience with rolling and work but would love to here yours which is much more numerous experiences than mine...
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to anserw another question asked before yes i am most of the time a solo roller my wife kicks it with me she doesnt get down, but she gives me light shows and shit.

As for the job well i have always been gainfully employed and have been holding the same job for about 3 years now, I really have no problems with my E use and work other than i might stress a little but that just means ima smoke another ciggarette at lunch lol... My modo has alway been "if u cant pay, dont play".. I work mon-fri, so when i get off i pop 2 to the dome friday night then kick back at home sat and sun... then a new week...

E goes cheap here in the bay so even with my 2-4 pill every friday habit only cost me 2 metro pcs bills a month get it....

i have been clean for a little over a month now and feel great.... when i smoke weed i do however kinda freak out a lil bit i think anxiety from all the rolling i done
 
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