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Share something POSITIVE from your day vs. it's all around you
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Mariposa
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This! I was so relieved at the end of this season.
Today's niceness: finalizing plans for an Easter break on the Oregon Coast with my dude's family. We're looking forward to getting away from city life for a weekend. My family does things very differently than his does, so let's hope they like me.
Maya
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I'm still feeling a bit itchy from my skin allergy but it has gone better. It's sensitive still though
First class for my other course tonight!! Super excited!!!
Oxy_Ghost
Bluelighter
Social services came and had a meeting with me this evening and said that my daughter can come home back in my care tomorrow!! I'm so excited! A couple weeks ago they said it would be months before she was able to come home, I never anticipated it to come this quickly. I'm happier than I've been in a while. I'm still going through some tough shit but for the moment I'm happy
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
Oh that's amazing, congrats to you!
herbavore
Bluelight Crew
Social services came and had a meeting with me this evening and said that my daughter can come home back in my care tomorrow!! I'm so excited! A couple weeks ago they said it would be months before she was able to come home, I never anticipated it to come this quickly. I'm happier than I've been in a while. I'm still going through some tough shit but for the moment I'm happy
Oxy, that is great news!! I can't believe it! :D
Oxy_Ghost
Bluelighter
Thanks everyone I'm very happy she's home now
I'm very happy she's home nowOG that is fantastic, children are truly a gift I love mine more than anything. I'm not a model father but they know how much I love them and for me that's what counts.
I've had the most positive day in quite sometime. I've been in contact with a substance abuse support organisation about my ongoing drug abuse issues, I've seen a counsellor there a couple of times mainly for assessment and didnt really feel comfortable with her approach but thought I should give her more of a chance.
She wanted me to attend a group induction session today, I normally refuse to attend group things but decided things needed to change and I have to stop making excuses. I turned up and was met by a guy a little younger than me, it turned out I was the only one that had showed.
We spent about an hour and half talking, he really helped me get some clarity about how to move forward and start dealing with my lack of fulfilment and unhappiness with my life. Not once did he judge me for my failings and we talked about my spiritual beliefs and some of my darker thoughts, he was clearly a very gifted person and suggested that I accept these dark thoughts rather than try and reject them,no one has ever made me feel that they understand how I feel and offer ways to start genuinely addressing my negative thinking and depression.
I'll be posting over in mental health about some of the things he suggested, I really feel there is real hope that I can break out of this cycle of depression and drug use and be a more contented person, I havent felt hope for a very long time.
I've had the most positive day in quite sometime. I've been in contact with a substance abuse support organisation about my ongoing drug abuse issues, I've seen a counsellor there a couple of times mainly for assessment and didnt really feel comfortable with her approach but thought I should give her more of a chance.
She wanted me to attend a group induction session today, I normally refuse to attend group things but decided things needed to change and I have to stop making excuses. I turned up and was met by a guy a little younger than me, it turned out I was the only one that had showed.
We spent about an hour and half talking, he really helped me get some clarity about how to move forward and start dealing with my lack of fulfilment and unhappiness with my life. Not once did he judge me for my failings and we talked about my spiritual beliefs and some of my darker thoughts, he was clearly a very gifted person and suggested that I accept these dark thoughts rather than try and reject them,no one has ever made me feel that they understand how I feel and offer ways to start genuinely addressing my negative thinking and depression.
I'll be posting over in mental health about some of the things he suggested, I really feel there is real hope that I can break out of this cycle of depression and drug use and be a more contented person, I havent felt hope for a very long time.
herbavore
Bluelight Crew
That's fantastic, Allein. Sounds like you got a good person there. Will you continue working with him or was he just doing the initial intake?
Just spent the week in Seattle with an old friend and roommate from college in NYC. Spent some time in the city, and some time hiking at the base of the Cascade mountains. It brought me back down to earth a bit after 3 weeks of feeling lost and afraid. I got home and immediately got a new tattoo on my back--a human brain, with the left side shaded in, in honor of my seizures and the left temporal lobe epilepsy diagnosis. It came out beautifully. Something good came out of all of that mess. (Including no relapse, which I was concerned about.)
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I'm really not sure, I may try and arrange something I am limited for time with work and travel but I would like to have further sessions with him, he seemed to understand me and didnt fall for my intellectual BS and wasnt distracted by my convincing 'understanding' of how best to move forward.
The saying and doing have little connection for me, I need to really face up to things not pretend to and maybe counselling is what I need to help me get focused, CBT helped in the past after I found a good counseller, but things have slipped over the last couple of years and I need to regroup.
I think one to one works better for me, I don't open up in groups and it's easy for me to hide behind a façade, I acknowledge I do this but that doesnt stop me from doing so, I'm not really sure I understand how that works and I'm not going to dwell on it. For now I'm making small commitments to actually do some of the positive things I feel bad for not doing, I need to start being the person I want to be and break this cycle of self loathing, depression and drug abuse.
I hope I maintain momentum
The saying and doing have little connection for me, I need to really face up to things not pretend to and maybe counselling is what I need to help me get focused, CBT helped in the past after I found a good counseller, but things have slipped over the last couple of years and I need to regroup.
I think one to one works better for me, I don't open up in groups and it's easy for me to hide behind a façade, I acknowledge I do this but that doesnt stop me from doing so, I'm not really sure I understand how that works and I'm not going to dwell on it. For now I'm making small commitments to actually do some of the positive things I feel bad for not doing, I need to start being the person I want to be and break this cycle of self loathing, depression and drug abuse.
I hope I maintain momentum
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
I think you will
Metalmatrix
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started a diary and wrote 6 pages. I've been wanting to do it for a while.
HdoubleODeezy
Bluelighter
Have the house to myself till monday afternoon.. party at my place!
PM for address! lol.
PM for address! lol.
I just read some amazing news
Papaverium
Bluelighter
Sunny day in Vancity and I'm window shopping/shopping with mom
Sunny Day in Pegcity!! Went to play ITG at the theatre with my roommate!
(For those of you who don't know what ITG is, it's called "In the Groove", a game almost exactly like Dance Dance Revolution but the step patterns are harder)
Great cardio workout, best concept of a video game ever, IMO
*hooray for natural endorphins!!* ^^
~Ms.P