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Share something POSITIVE from your day vs. it's all around you

Put my scumbag dad in his place =D
Thinking he can come in and outta my life as he pleases.
Just started talking to him a month ago for the first time in 8 years..
Finally let him know how i feel.
Yeah im 25 and should be used to having a f'd family..i have lived my whole life without a dad and with a psycho mother.

That was the POSITIVE of my day! lol.. imagine the negative.
 
HdoubleODeezy said:
Put my scumbag dad in his place =D
Thinking he can come in and outta my life as he pleases.
Just started talking to him a month ago for the first time in 8 years..
Finally let him know how i feel.
Yeah im 25 and should be used to having a f'd family..i have lived my whole life without a dad and with a psycho mother.

That was the POSITIVE of my day! lol.. imagine the negative.
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Sorrt to hear that Sounds like my Dad cept he never saw me in 12 years and he lived down the road he made my mother nuts too leaving me to support the family when I was 14 so he could travel the world and spend his millions while his family who was kicked out on the streets suffers to get by everyday he's the most selfish man alive.

so my POSITIVE is that my bastard father is finally dead now burning in hell. Left me nothing in the will of course(he was even selfish from beyond the grave)but me and my sister are contesting the will. I live in a part of the world that has the most power to change a persons will so that's good my lawyer said the judge will see my financial situation and my dads girlfriends and since she is sitting pretty on lots of cash we should be getting half his millions plus we are his flesh and blood we grew up in the estate it was our childhood home . Hopefully easier times ahead for me my sister and my mother we deserve it.
 
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Wow, what a dick... sorry you had to go through that. :\ I don't get that, I'm not a parent but I am 100% positive that when I am, my children will be the most important things in my life.
 
Yep he was a dick he has looked right at me and never knew who the hell I was. I was at the gym and he was working out next to me and he just had no clue I was his son. I mean I don't have kids but if I did I would want to at least want to have a picture of them to see what the hell they look like. I mean I recognised him after 5 years still but he didn't know what I looked like.
 
don't have to waste half my day off(or my check!) reupping for the week because I'm sober for the first time in years
 
GettingClean said:
don't have to waste half my day off(or my check!) reupping for the week because I'm sober for the first time in years
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Good for you my friend that's so awesome. Good way to think about it remember all the bad stuff about addiction. I'm almost ready to make the jump off of suboxone soon I'm down to 2 mgs a day under the tounge not by I.V. anymore so that's good pretty soon I'll be taking a shot at being clean like you too but for now the sub's atr keeping me stable for the first time in almost a decade.
 
Trainspotter that's awesome <3 thanks for the response I needed it....feeling really fragile in my recovery ATM...
 
apaverium;12276676]This is awesome I wana try that treatment one day.....

Today is good because I can see more grass than snow finally!!!! *does the dance of the Winnipeg Spring* lol ^^

~Ms.P
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I've heard many good and bad things about ibogaine. I watched somebody on TV using ibogaine to come off heroin and he looked like he was going through hell throwing up everywhere and seeing tracers floating around the air it sounded scary not very pleasant. I don't think it is a miracle drug or anything. Its should really be done in a controlled environment with somebody like a nurse or doctor there every step of the way some people react very badly to the drug And its not something that should go into your body if you have any other drug already in your system such as heroin because it doesn't react well.

You live in Canada too eh? Lol I live in BC it's beautiful here no snow or rain just sunny skies.
 
GettingClean- its a hard long road in recovery but completely worth it when you get where you wanna be..
Trust me. Been clean of opiates almost 2 years.
The struggle is worth the outcome.
If I can do it anyone can.
 
I've only got about a week under my belt right now and to be perfectly honest if given the chance I'd get high today in a heartbeat. Someone please tell me this gets easier....
 
GettingClean said:
Trainspotter that's awesome <3 thanks for the response I needed it....feeling really fragile in my recovery ATM...
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No prob if you ever need anything you can let me know it sounds like your foing good but the voice in your head can come back anytime during recovery. I reccomend trying to help out others In recovery too it helps you in your recovery just as much as your helping them i go to A.A. meetings and look for new people who look scared and i come on here and help out too. Yea I know what you mean by feeling fragile its normal I know the feeling I've been in detox probably 10 times and I'm only 22 the first few months are the hardest but it gets easier as time goes on. You gotta be on guard for the rest of your life though to keep clean cause once that addict switch in your brain gets turned on then there is no cure you need to work at recovery your whole life but if you relapse it can put you right back at your worst state of dependency again even if 20 years have passed.
I was told this quote in one of the first A.A.meetings I went too and it really helped me understand addiction (of course I thought it didn't apply to me at first)

"Think of kicking an addiction as watching a big ship sail away, at first as its close to the dock its all you can focus on it looks overwhelmingly huge, as the ship sails away its gets smaller and smaller as the years go by. Coping starts to become easier and the cravings not as bad and not so mind consuming. But this ship no matter how many years go by never leaves your sight fully it only gets smaller and less overwhelming as the years go by. But if you relapse at any point during the ships voyage then it comes back in the snap of a finger and becomes overwhelming once again leaving you to have to restart the whole journey."
 
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