Spoke with my mom today, have been kind of avoiding her here lately. Really been distancing myself from my entire family.
So my mother was fighting back tears on the other line, telling me that she was looking at baby pictures of my brother,sister and of me. I can tell my mother is having it the worst because she took care of my older brother most of his life every single day,up until he was like 19 or something.
That phone call was hard on my end because i knew she was going to start crying, and it still hasn't hit me yet.
There's a botanical garden back home where i am from that my family has spoke with them about planting a tree to honor my brother, and i think that would be a wonderful idea.