The day is almost over - I hope tomorrow is better for you.
I've had a rough two weeks having to deal with pain from surgery and medications. The past two years of sobriety have been so easy, I was blindsided by how quickly my addiction reared its ugly head when dealing with pain killers. I ultimately opted to try Tramadol, it didn't trigger a dopamine response so no pleasure from it, but it gave me horrible anxiety and depression. I stopped taking it Saturday, and am finally getting back to even moods. I think everything together was too much as I hadn't anticipated any of it. This experience has taught me some valuable lessons regarding triggers with respect to my addiction, OCD, and anxiety.
I wish everyone the best!
I told most of my doctors so they are quite aware of my 'former' situation and the risks they have if they give me anything. Besides, coming off Methadone was for me much more painful than my femur surgery and it lasted much longer too.
I've gone through surgeries before and I did fall every time. In one occasion I had almost died because of excessive painkillers, I mean 2 days in coma, of course that was not simply just like. It took a while and I'm responsible for having gone so far. My point is, doctors will not want to risk losing their license over my pain. Now they don't give anything not even for acute toothache or gallstones.
At the moment I'm doing a root treatment which involves a local surgery, very different from your situation I know. I have done it without the mask and using local anesthetic only. By telling all my doctors they could be in trouble if they prescribe me anything that triggers my addiction, they manage to make me go through quite tough treatments without controlled substances, like gallstones surgery. Level of pain 11 out 10.
Literally, only tylenol and anti inflammatory. I'm glad they all of them know this. So does my entire family. The reason I did this was to share the burden with them so I did not have to deal with it by myself.
I guess they have written
'allergic to painkillers', 'history of abuse and OD' etc. Although my surgery is now done by a couple of dentists I not using the mask nor taking any controlled substance. But I have gone through a very large orthopedic surgery when they removed my femur and placed a huge titanic device inside, so I believe I know what you are going through.
In order to prevent me from being angry to myself I did this beforehand so I can't blame them for not prescribing. But of course I sometime feel I need something stronger.
he is almost 2yrs old.
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