Shadow People: Stories + Theories

[Meth novice 79]

My ex talks about the shadow people, I didn’t realise it was an actual ‘thing’ til this post tho

It only ever happens to him when he’s been awake longer than a week, and even though he knows he is hallucinating he STILL buys in every single time

Sometimes it’s a legitimate object like a tree branch blowing outside a window that triggers it and other times there’s literally no reason for it at all.

 

[katykattt]

My ex talks about the shadow people, I didn’t realise it was an actual ‘thing’ til this post tho

It only ever happens to him when he’s been awake longer than a week, and even though he knows he is hallucinating he STILL buys in every single time

Sometimes it’s a legitimate object like a tree branch blowing outside a window that triggers it and other times there’s literally no reason for it at all.

God that’s the worst.... when you KNOW you’re hallucinating hearing shit, but you’re like, “..............fuck it I’m just gonna check one more time just to make sure....” and you reassure yourself, only to not trust your judgement AGAIN, 2 minutes later. Lol. I hate when I start to do that shit lol

 

[Meth novice 79]

God that’s the worst.... when you KNOW you’re hallucinating hearing shit, but you’re like, “..............fuck it I’m just gonna check one more time just to make sure....” and you reassure yourself, only to not trust your judgement AGAIN, 2 minutes later. Lol. I hate when I start to do that shit lol

sounds like me when my body reacts weirdly to a hit.
I’ve been known to spend 9 hours checking and double checking my skin for signs of anaphylactic shock that only ever happened badly one time but now my anxiety about it causes various physical reactions that freak me out as bad as if it were happening again lol

A mate will be like ‘ man you’re fine, no there’s no swelling that’s your arm’
And I’m ‘yeah yeah you’re right, I’m just tripping balls’
2 minutes later ‘do you think my lips are swelling?’

 

[katykattt]

sounds like me when my body reacts weirdly to a hit.
I’ve been known to spend 9 hours checking and double checking my skin for signs of anaphylactic shock that only ever happened badly one time but now my anxiety about it causes various physical reactions that freak me out as bad as if it were happening again lol

A mate will be like ‘ man you’re fine, no there’s no swelling that’s your arm’
And I’m ‘yeah yeah you’re right, I’m just tripping balls’
2 minutes later ‘do you think my lips are swelling?’

God that’s hilarious. I went thru a period where my meth use was extremely high but I wasn’t eating or drinking water and staying up 4-5 days on end. At that point, your eyes are basically fuckin mush. They don’t work. They only lie. Lol. I started obsessing that I was going into liver failure because I thought my skin was yellow as fuck and it’s alllllllll I talked about while high. “Dude look at my fucking knees, my liver is straight up failing. Do I look yellow to you? No? Yeah maybe you’re right.................... you know what no honestly look at my stomach tho how yellow it is” lmaooooo

 

[Meth novice 79]

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God that’s hilarious. I went thru a period where my meth use was extremely high but I wasn’t eating or drinking water and staying up 4-5 days on end. At that point, your eyes are basically fuckin mush. They don’t work. They only lie. Lol. I started obsessing that I was going into liver failure because I thought my skin was yellow as fuck and it’s alllllllll I talked about while high. “Dude look at my fucking knees, my liver is straight up failing. Do I look yellow to you? No? Yeah maybe you’re right.................... you know what no honestly look at my stomach tho how yellow it is” lmaooooo

And here I was thinking I was the only one

 

[katykattt]

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And here I was thinking I was the only one

And don’t even get me started on blinds -___- shit is so embarrassing. Lol. I’m the cliche, stereotypical tweaker that checks the blinds every 2 minutes (and I’m being genuine on the time frame) lol. I also live with my ex and his mom who doesn’t know we do meth, so when she leaves for work in the morning, we’re high, and the whole time a good 15% of my brain is completely set and locked in on reminding me to check the blinds every couple of minutes just in case she forgot something, or comes home for lunch, or gets off early, etc. etc. etc.... that way I have time to put my sober face on lolol. The intentions are good but the delivery is just a twacked out mess and embarrassing lmao

 

[Meth novice 79]

And don’t even get me started on blinds -___- shit is so embarrassing. Lol. I’m the cliche, stereotypical tweaker that checks the blinds every 2 minutes (and I’m being genuine on the time frame) lol. I also live with my ex and his mom who doesn’t know we do meth, so when she leaves for work in the morning, we’re high, and the whole time a good 15% of my brain is completely set and locked in on reminding me to check the blinds every couple of minutes just in case she forgot something, or comes home for lunch, or gets off early, etc. etc. etc.... that way I have time to put my sober face on lolol. The intentions are good but the delivery is just a twacked out mess and embarrassing lmao

Embarrassing is the right word for it lol
I get sick to fucking death of myself and always end up wondering why the hell I keep doing it to myself. Only to forget that small detail a week later and go again

 

[katykattt]

Embarrassing is the right word for it lol
I get sick to fucking death of myself and always end up wondering why the hell I keep doing it to myself. Only to forget that small detail a week later and go again

It’s so frustrating. And the logic is there. It seriously is. I KNOW NOBODY IS THERE!!! Lol. I can sit here and tell my ex, “hey I know that your mom is not here...... but I gotta let go of this tv that we’re setting up, so I can go check the blinds. Like NOW. Cause I will be anxious until I do. Even tho I know she’s not here. I’m annoyed with myself too, don’t worry. You know what, I’m just gonna crack the blinds so I don’t have to move and can check the blinds from anywhere in the room okay, that’s better.” Lmao

 

[Meth novice 79]

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It’s so frustrating. And the logic is there. It seriously is. I KNOW NOBODY IS THERE!!! Lol. I can sit here and tell my ex, “hey I know that your mom is not here...... but I gotta let go of this tv that we’re setting up, so I can go check the blinds. Like NOW. Cause I will be anxious until I do. Even tho I know she’s not here. I’m annoyed with myself too, don’t worry. You know what, I’m just gonna crack the blinds so I don’t have to move and can check the blinds from anywhere in the room okay, that’s better.” Lmao

Oh right ahah
Or. ‘No I am NOT looking at my arms again I swear’
*secretly looks at my hands under the table for 11 minutes thinking I’m sly

 

[katykattt]

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Oh right ahah
Or. ‘No I am NOT looking at my arms again I swear’
*secretly looks at my hands under the table for 11 minutes thinking I’m sly

Lmao me trying to resist the urge to look at the blinds so ppl don’t judge me lmao. So I just side-eye the blinds “discreetly”

 

[Meth novice 79]

Lmao me trying to resist the urge to look at the blinds so ppl don’t judge me lmao. So I just side-eye the blinds “discreetly”

Ok which country are you in?
I’m coming for a rage

 

[katykattt]

Ok which country are you in?
I’m coming for a rage

The US! You?!

 

[Meth novice 79]

Bummer. Australia.

 

[katykattt]

Is meth a pretty big thing in australia?! Sorry if that’s a dumb question lol, but I feel like I’ve seen a lot of posts coming from australia about ice!

 

[Meth novice 79]

Is meth a pretty big thing in australia?! Sorry if that’s a dumb question lol, but I feel like I’ve seen a lot of posts coming from australia about ice!

I’d say about as much as anywhere really.

The biggest problem we face is the backyard shit idiots attempt because importing is the only way to get anything of quality here and that’s no easy task on an island like this with customs worse than the SS.

The backyard variety may as well not even BE meth tbh, if I blood tested after a night on it there’d likely be fuck all actual meth in my blood and an OD of freaking pool cleaner lol

 

[katykattt]

Yikes!!!!! Sounds like a headache

 

[Meth novice 79]

Yikes!!!!! Sounds like a headache

It is for some.
I’ve watched so many mates fry themselves on the dirty shit.

 

[Tubbs]

Ahhh sweet paranoia, she's been my mistress for many a dark night..... jumped out a window and hid in the woods on some property i rented once..... was sure the feds were about to raid my house..... they weren't..... i was under investigation once upon a time tho, so maybe some paranoia was well placed....

 

[katykattt]

Ahhh sweet paranoia, she's been my mistress for many a dark night..... jumped out a window and hid in the woods on some property i rented once..... was sure the feds were about to raid my house..... they weren't..... i was under investigation once upon a time tho, so maybe some paranoia was well placed....

Stuff like that will definitely flip the switch!!

 

[Tubbs]

The switch was flipped long before that lol, the paranoia probably the only reason I'm not rotting in a federal prison.... I've sniffed out a good few CI's in my day..... glad that life is behind me....