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Seriously not doing Meth anymore.

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Ozekat said:
Hello all, I am doing very good!!! I have not procured or done any methamphetamine in 30 days!!!!!!

I feel much better, and my sanity has mostly come back to me. I have a hyper sensitivity to coffee (but not mountain dew, I must be a real hick, lol) but who cares about coffee lol. I can smell things again and my nose finally feels (almost) normal!! (after snorting the shards too much)

I get cravings quite a bit but they can be controlled or ignored. I'm just so happy I haven't done the devil's drug of choice in this long.....and my heart is very satisfied with the break I'm allowing it away from METH.

On top of that I've only done dope once in the past month. So I'm doing really damn good! Realistically speaking I use weed to get by (for now) but being busy from work and taking time to be with my mom and sister has helped tremendously in the mental aspect. I bet a lot of drug addicts like me have huge family issues and all we really want is that level of closeness that is healthy and normal for all humans, between us and our family.

What else do I do? I sit a lot, but its not in an awful meth-induced and sleep deprived sort of way, where one's very eyes seem to mimic an endless abyss....now my sitting sessions are much more normal or at the worst reefer-infused. I've been drinking a bit too much but I know how to put the lid on that nonsense pretty well........here's to one more month not touching the dark combo or either H or Shards!!! (6 ~~~~~ \v/ ~~~~~~~~~~~ x \(W)/ + + + +
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>>>>~My brother! I see that you have developed that "PASSIONATE" brand of~<<<<
~{>-HATRED-<}~

that brand of HATRED will ultimately serve you in the final challenges of your....

***NOBEL ENCHANTED QUEST FOR THE "SACRED LIFESTYLE of HARDCORE CLEANLINESS" of NOBELITY & ENCHANTED-NESS***
or ( staying away from meth)
THAT YOU KNEW SO LONG AGO..........,,, ,,
// **~bout 6mos.ago~**\\

{{<your> "SABER of SALVATION" for the~SEVERANCE~from the*~SHITTY-REVERSE-SEDATION-CRAVINGS~* that comes with
*~MENTAL ADDICTION to the TOXIC SHARDS of SATAN!~*

{~Hey <brother>....(((the saber also does wonders for enhancing that innevedible masturbation session during your "crystal-crash")))
(((be sure to tell the ladies!...females masturbate too ya know!?))) lol lol lol lol lol !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Your'e *S.o.S* or, "HATRED" for METH should be one of your MOST-FREQUENTLY-surfaced emotion. Worn on your sleeve as much as you can stand. It should be held second ONLY to your SINCERE gratefulness for each day that you wake!
You are not alone. I also have developed a truly passionate *~HATRED~* for that very same "nerve rotting", "endorphin spoiling" toxic-cocktail" of destruction called METH. I cannot honestly say that I will steer clear of meth or amps in general. But I absolutely have to focus my MOST passionate hatred ever, on avoiding the "H", which (IMO) is, ten times as destructive and deadly as the strongest meth you'll find. What was I thinking when I chose to inject this dreaded poison. I am aware now of it's danger. H and meth both are like snakes in the grass. Silent and sneaky, merciless, killers that were obviously cleverly disguised by some Ill-willed Turn-Coat-Bastard, who was No-doubt, born of Corruption and raised on an excessive supply of Falsely inherited sense of Self-Righteousness. And these "stealth killers" -- Carelessly Strewn about this--Semi-innocent, confused society of human-beings, whose value of life is decided by their un-chosen leaders. Values that can fluctuate almost as rapidly as this f*d-up economy
I have also gained a long-awaited HIGH Confidence, Strength, and Courage and ever-growing Trust in Myself, at dealing with this "Psychotic Cycle of Synthetic Somber that betrays you and spirals into un-reasonable agony".......

These drugs are nothing but LITTLE LYING BITCHES!!!
~~~~~ "Disgusting yet passionate " ---and you seem to show a much higher level of confidence than before, I say!!!
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Wow, thats cool. Yep, still no meth....feels good.

Taking lesser amps is like a drop in the bucket now, waste of time and money because they are so weak compared to the big dog....Once we can steer clear for long enough to peek our heads out of the dark tunnel of self-absorbed behavior (aka drug addiction) then we feel true ease and joy again and now I wonder why I ever went so far down into that tunnel. I reflect on all the days wasted being so high, but its good to be able to see those days clearly now, and my memory is gradually returning to its normal function.

Hi, 80amped!
 
Ozekat said:
After buying a ticket late christmas night the 25th, I haven't touched this god awful drug. I'm pretty sure this has been my longest amount of time away from the shards in a couple months. I would usually do it once or twice a week, always taking 2-4 days to recover.

My connect is too good to be true. I often get free bags, and he used to come over and smoke with me and my now ex-roommate, so there was definitely no shortage of the shit around here.

I found that after awhile, all the good initial effects of Meth just disappear. I use, then get caught in a loop or isolating/ self-pleasure neurotic behavior and self-obsession. It is only good for instant gratification, and before you know it you have been up for 48-72 hours and cannot fucking sleep. By far, even including all the horrible reactions I've had to heroin, nothing compares to me crashing off Meth.

Anyway, I'm really glad to say I'm not using. I've had a talk with my dad concerning this stuff--- this latest crashing off it had me in bed for over 36 hours straight.....how people use this stuff and stay up for a solid week is something I never want to experience or even understand.

My body during the crash especially would feel like it was falling apart....mostly probably a byproduct of a huge lack of sleep, but Meth genuinely scares me. I just hope I can become strong enough to really say No when it matters most, because I know its easy to sit and type about how much I hate it here, but when it is staring me in the fact that is the true challenge.
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When you say meth, do you mean methadone or the other meth? Nonetheless well done n if you are worried about relaxing do what you need to do Whether that's Bluelight, meeting, keeping a certain contacts for 'emergencies' (to talk to if temptation gets too much). You also need to know that you are being strong by coming here n talking about all this; your fears etc.

Take care,
Evey xxxx
 
Man, I don't miss meth (well, I do a little bit) but it fucked me up for several years, messed my teeth up and got me kicked out of college and nearly living on the streets..... I have come to the conclusion that is a nasty drug on par with heroin. All of the people I hung out with either had no jobs or lost their kids or had missing teeth - it was pretty bad and sad. Good going, Oz. I found kicking meth (after I finally came down, which I resisted for a long time) easier that quitting drinking, which I now have 17 days!!
 
I've been clean of meth for six years this month.....and before that I was clean for two.....I did it once and I didn't like the way it made me feel so I called up those who had it and said cut me off and well I got hit with PURE O OCD which took up all my time and I had no more desires for that drug.
 
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