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Happy 39 & happy 43!! <3 You guys rule.

Hope everyone else is doing well.
 
I'm doing well <3

going to talk to my doctor this week about tapering off Xanax and getting on something more long lasting. :)
 
That's awesome, that's what I did and it helped 100% from where I was before seeing my doctor. You won't regret it at all. <3 be strong and follow through and do it! <3
 
Thanks <3

I need to stop it with the etizolam too -- do you think I should mention that to my doctor or just the Xanax, which I am prescribed? I'm not fully dependent on etizolam, just something I'd use recreationally, but I don't know if it's a good idea to mention it or not.

I want to live my life with the least anxiety as possible, on the lowest dose benzo as possible.
 
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I think you should mention both, be honest, a good doctor will treat you, trust you/give you a chance to gain trust. You will need to provide them with an adequate dose of all the benzos you are taking combined both Xanax and etizolam so that they can give you an equivalent dose of a long acting benzo.

When I went I was currently using 6mgs of etizolam with no prior benzo prescription. With no prior history The doctor wanted to prescribe .5 of klonopin 2x/day and I told them it wouldn't be enough. They stayed firm and told me to pick either .5mgs or detox in a hospital I sat there defeated but agreed to the .5. I think they realized from my reaction that I wasn't lying about my dose amount and I really did need more to be equivalent to what I was taking, and since I was there specifically to taper they decided to trust me and give me a chance. I was prescribed a slightly lower but equivalent dose to what I was taking and it is working out very well for me.

I think having one long acting benzo prescribed (which equals all of what you are taking) will help you stabilize as you will only have to take it once in the morning and once t night (it will help not having doing on your mind throughout the day)

Jut be honest and if they tell you that you need to go to detox for that amount, just be honest and ask for help, explain to them that you can do it yourself with their help. I believe it works.
 
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Thanks so much star <3

I'll let you guys know how the appointment goes. I'm nervous about it, but hoping for the best.
 
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I'm really happy you are going for it. I went from completely unstable to normal after a full month. It took about a week for it to build up in my system and for me to get used to the changes.

Now It feels stable and as if I'm not taking anything(even though I am taking my prescribed dose)..which I think you can identify with because on short acting ones throughout the day I would have moments of WD/extreme anxiety/panic and not feel stable, but now I don't have those moments and I feel fine through the entire day, when I wake up and as I'm going to bed--which on short acting benzos and etiz I had continuous ups and downs..mostly downs.

Now since I'm on a long acting one I only take a dose when I wake up and when I'm going to bed and it completely stabilizes my mood throughout the entire day so I don't have to worry about my next dose (on etiz I would have to dose when I woke up, which I wouldn't stabilize until around noon because I was in WDs when I woke up), 12pm, 5pm, when I was about to fall asleep and more depending on the stress that day.

It really has turned my entire life around. It's no longer focused around ordering, taking my next dose, and stabilizing after each dose.

Just be as honest as you can and make it very clear that you want to get better, that you want to taper off and that you need help. That you handle taking your doses appropriately but you need the correct dose. If it seems as though it is going sour you really need to ask (beg) for help. A good doctor will help you.


I KNOW you can do it and it will change your life in a positive way significantly. You deserve it! Please do it, for yourself. It's been so positive for me I want anyone struggling with the same problem I had to seek help, because it really does help 100%. Keep us updated <3 I want to see you happy and stable I know how terrible the short acting benzo game is.
 
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I can see how much happier you've been and it really encourages me. I want that. I want to be happy and on a low dose of benzos to just make me feel happy. The ups and downs are not healthy.

She's a really understanding doctor and I've been with her for about 4 years; I was supposed to talk to her about it last time but I chickened out. Positive affirmations. I will do this, I can do this.

Thanks so much <3
 
You will do this and you can do it <3. Having a doctor you already have rapport with, who trusts you will help you so much more. I think a big obstacle for me was being a new patient asking for a large dose. It made them worried as they knew nothing about me.

On my 2nd visit I brought my remaining script to show the doctor I followed their plan and kept my promise and didn't take any more than I was prescribed(despite it being a lower dose than I was used to and the first week was dificult at times) and did not take any etizolam during that time either. I was very lucky she gave me a chance to prove I was dedicating to getting help and getting better. I even told her that I was trying to encourage some friends who were in a similar bind as myself to seek help, but that a lot of people don't trust doctors to understand or prescribe accurately. She told me that you need to find the right doctor. It's definitely true.

When is your appt? I'm going to make sure I encourage the night before and hold you to it! I'm very happy for you!
 
Tuesday as in tomorrow!? I am so excited for you!! So so happy <3 you are deciding to face your issue with benzos Addy, I know for a fact switching to a long acting benzo will make a huge difference. I am so happy you have a good relationship with your doctor. This was something I didn't have and it made the process a lot longer and harder, but I soldiered through the initial process and I made it to this point and I'm very happy with the progress I've made.

I am going to make sure I bug you all day tomorrow and Tuesday morning to get there. No backing out now love! <3 It's worth it.

Ending of my 39th Day. Hard to believe that I've made it this many days without etizolam but also sticking to the exact taper plan my doctor gave me. I did have some extra pills due to overlapping scripts (by like a day or two) but I didn't put any aside. I plan to stick to this to a T. I am happy I did. I know that if I decided to take one extra or a quarter (when I'm feeling anxiety at a specific time instead of addressing it) I wouldn't get better.

You need to do that too when you get your plan Addy. <3

How is everyone!? Come on, we need more numbers! <3
 
Yes, Tuesday as in tomorrow, October 1!! :)

And we do need more numbers!

I've been IV/opiate free since March 3, 2013 -- not sure how many days that is :D
 
Escape!! It feels like yesterday that you confessed you had a slip up. Look how fast 22 days came up. <3 Congrats man <3!

Addy your resistance to IV-opiates is ridiculously admirable you are doing amazing!
 
It makes me so happy to see you all being so strong, and with such positivity too!


(this laptop is configured in french and I cannot find certain characters to imagine this sentence to be a bunch of hearts, k?)
 
Two weeks off all opiates, all stimulants, and all psychedelics. I can't believe it =D
It's so nice to actually feel in control of my brain and body again. The setback in PAWS from my latest heroin relapse is finally starting to disappear and I think I might be able to beat PAWS once and for all this time around, and the stim cravings get easier with every day that goes by. Feels fucking awesome.
 
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