Seeking help kicking heroin for the first time! PLEASE HELP

[skitten9]

Hi, I'm new to this site and am seeking help in getting clean and staying clean (this is my first real attempt). I'm 26 old white female, I used to be a normal girl, completely naive to opiates and i really need to do this. I dont have anyone else to talk to and want my life back. below is my situation, please read and reply ASAP with helpful info only please


Here is my quick story if anyone can help:
Roughly in June 2012, me and my boyfriend started doing Perk 30's for fun. Anywhere from 1-3 a day. With hardly any breaks, maybe 1-5 days and when it got hard, used Suboxone.
About Sept/Oct we then went to brown heroin because of availability and cost, until now.
Lately its just been 1 bag a day all at once. (.3-.4 in a bag) snorted. Most i've done is 2 bags a day. With RARELY 1-3 days without but using Suboxone in between.
I usually go into light/moderate withdrawal in 24 hours. Experiencing aches/cold sweats/slight stomach aches/sometimes throwing up..and then few more hours usually experience runny nose and RLS. that's as far as I've gone into W/D (fixing with sub or more opiates)

I have 1.5 Suboxone strips left and am wondering, considering my story/drug history, should i quit cold turkey or do a quick taper? if so how shall i do it, any other things i should have to help me thru it..etc. And what should i expect for my suffering? how long could it last?. ANY tips/experience of any kind with my situation will be helpful, I have no one to talk to (my boyfriend is in jail for probation issues, and my family and friends don't know about my addiction and i'd like to keep it that way)

Please help if you can. Thank you in advance!

 

[mrflowers00]

it would probably make it easier to quit if you did a quick taper with the bupe

 

[SkagKush]

What size are the strips? 8mg?

You can get through the first few days with the Bupe to really help the withdrawls. If you really want to quit, and its for you, you can. Try to have an aftercare plan.

 

[RedLeader]

I am assuming that equals 12mg bupe (strips being the 8/2s). Buprenorphine is very powerful. And given that your habit isn't that big ans you haven't been going that long, you can do this without that much pain.

2mg at hour 24
2mg at hour 26
4mg at hour 36
2mg at hour 60
2mg at hour 84

That is pretty much how I would pace it. Days 5-10 will have you still a little cold, sneezy, unable to sleep and possibly depressed and lethargic. But you will medicate away the worst of it. Take Imodium if you need to during 5-10.

I gotta say...I worry about you after reading your story. Sounds like me years ago before things really spiraled. It sounds like you are quitting because you need to, not because you really want to. Heroin hasn't really fucked your life up enough so that its negative potential is transparent. Well to this all I will say good luck. When you get clean, your family is still gonna be like that and your boyfriend will still be in legal trouble. You need to figure out how to cope with it all without heroin. In a vacuum, it works great as a painkiller/anti-depressant, but we live in a prohibitionist's world and your life stands to get progressively worse if you keep using.

Your boyfriend will want to get high the second he gets out. Be ready to answer to that.

My advice: Don't look at this as getting clean for life. Look at it as learning how to do a rapid suboxone taper (a valuable skill). And then try and get to 30 days.