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I ran out of gabapentin 5 days ago and started experiencing somekind of withdrawals. I have been taking low doses of Xanax to eliminate them. I will get the gabapentin refilled tomorrow and see if I am addicted to benzos and gabapentin or just gabapentin. I am scared. I know I am walking a fine line with the benzos. If the it is just gabapentin withdrawal then I am going to take a good long break from benzos. fuck me. Even when I am trying to do right I en up fucking up. Pray to the drug gods that it is not a benzo addiction please.
 
Update. Got my gabapentin refilled today and I feel 90 percent better. I think I am having minor benzo withdrawl but I am going to ride it out and take a good long break from those magic pills.
 
Glad you got your refill. I had a nasty benzo withdrawal in college. I didnt realize that's what it was -- I I was desparate and a few shots of vodka fixed me up and got me through it until I could get more benzos to taper off them. I was afraid to suggest alcohol because I don't know if it can make things worse.
 
If I hadn't have had a few Xanax I would have been in for a really bad time I think. It was the gabapentin not the benzos causing a problem. I have to admit that I have been slipping from sobriety with the pills lately.

Man I think I got a little taste of what benzo withdrawal will be like and yeah that must have really sucked. If I hadn't known what was happening it would have been so much worse thinking I was losing my mind.
 
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