I guess I'm just always wrong, well fuck it then, I guess not allowing heroin or crack in my home is too much, let's just get a fucking ounce of boy and an ounce of girl and do it, fuck my life, I'll shoot the whole damn ounce and fucking OD, then I won't be too uptight, huh? Fuck you both for making me even feel fucking guilty, I could of kicked you out months ago for bringing dope into my home yet I'm still the dick, I don't get it... Speaking of dick, suck my fucking dick, you lied to me too many fucking times man! Fuck me, I'm so ready to kill myself, that's why I can't be around heroin because I'll use it or just be angry because I can't get high while on bupe and I just fiend, I just don't want it around, I'm trying to fix my own life, is that really too much to fucking ask? Fuck me man, last time I found a crack pipe and you know what, that led to me relapsing on rock, I don't blame you but I will say that without you bringing that pipe into my home, the relapse would of never happened and that's why I just don't want any of that shit around my home, if you're really my friend you'll show me that respect or move out if you can't stop or don't want to, all I know is that I am fucking done N., I can't keep doing this man...