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Are you even remotely fucking aware of how ill-placed that nursing home joke was?

Our grandmother is dying while you keep spitting kids out of your filthy snatch. Your uncle is beside himself taking care of our grandmother, who isn't doing well. How would you know this? Oh, wait, you wouldn't because you don't care. You are a selfish, immature brat, and there will be a day when no one gives a fuck about you.
 
I'm just trying to achieve something quite difficult. And it's not one of these things that you want to say 'put yourself in my position' because it would be impossible. Just let it be for some time, I need to get over this, really need to!
 
For all girls: Can you please wear a shirt listing all your "dealbreakers" on it so I have a chance in hell of not disobeying one of them and decapitating any chances you will grant me a second date?
 
Does your new partner know you're sending me pictures of you wearing the engagement ring I bought you?
No?

It'd be a shame if I accidentally forwarded the messages you keep sending me...

Also, it's pretty funny how you're going behind his back trying to meet your ex, never done that before... 8)
 
Lol..

Mine, in these past days: you really know how to totally destroy an accomplishment, my God. Such a pity..
Talk about disappointment...
 
I wish u would treat me like he does andwe could connect like me and him do them mmaybe I could love you like im supposed to and we could both be happy ...I wish I wanted you like I want him and didnt have to pretend...im not sure what my feelings for you are I only keep coming back cuz I know what you are even tho I no longer love you I can always count on u to be irresponsible and let me down.... I wish you would support my decisions and comfort me when I need u to not just to fuck me ... love me like I deserve to be loved.... fuc in me like I want to be fucked not just to get a nut.... stop throwing that u have never made me nut in the air and just please me....
 
It feels like you think I'm fucking stupid man, I let you move in with me, did what I could to find you a buprenorphine doctor and I helped you stay out of withdrawal until you got an appointment and you still keep shooting fucking dope.. I swear, you won't learn until you go to prison and I can't stand to see that, your basically my fucking family but I'm starting to think because I also do inject, maybe we just shouldn't live together cuz I can not stand being around heroin, I'm tired of even hearing that word! I'm starting to feel like a bitch because I say I'll kick you out but I just keep giving you another chance, I know that isn't helping you, it's me being selfish because I like living with you man but maybe you should move out cuz I can't seem to help you and you using does nothing but cause me stress because I worry about you then it also gives me cravings because even after not using heroin for over a year, I still want to get high and being around it is bad for me, I can't put my sobriety at risk for anybody, I'm already close enough to fucking up, I can't be living with a heroin user.
I want to kick you out but I'm so unsure about what to do, I already warned you and said it was the last chance, it's like you think I won't do it because I fucking will, I just really don't want to because I don't want to give up, you can do so fucking much better than being a 2 strike felon fucking doing dope, you're just playing with fire and you'll get burned man, I've seen it twice before and I refuse to enable you to fuck your life up any more, especially involving the law. Fuck, I feel bad because I understand addiction yet shit, I won't help you to get away with shooting dope, maybe I should call your buprenorphine doctor or your mom or your girlfriend, I don't want to because we all have secrets we keep for each other but I can't help you, maybe someone else can.
I love you man, you really can do so much fucking better than this bullshit, you need to start or something is going to change, I'm done bitching and telling you I'm worried, it's happened too many times and I'm not a real friend imo if I don't do whatever it takes to help you stay sober and stop enabling you by not either kicking you out or reporting the information to someone who maybe can make a change where I couldn't help you.

Fuck this shit and fuck opiates, between myself and my friends, I can't handle all this fucking never-ending chaos brought on by oxycodone, morphine and dope addiction!
 
zephyrhigh said:
^ youre doing the right thing man...
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Thank you for reading the post, I appreciate it and appreciate the feedback a lot. I know I'm doing the right thing but as an addict myself, I feel like a hypocrite. It's hard saying "don't shoot dope or I'm kicking you out" when I used to shoot dope too plus I still shoot buprenorphine but it's because I just can't stand being around heroin that gets me upset, I certainly don't think I'm any better than you, I just don't want to see dope or be around anyone that's high, it makes me sad to see someone I love playing such a dangerous game with a drug you've overdosed on, you almost died and you've been strung out on it really badly too! I also will still get cravings to use dope too and because I'm on buprenorphine and can't get high, I just get really stressed instead and start wishing that I had like a good gram to shoot to overpower the bupe.
Bottom line is that I can't be around heroin or have people using it while living at MY HOUSE, I put up with basically anything but crack or heroin, your last crack pipe that I found led to me relapsing with it.. I also don't allow just anybody over either, only people I trust then I also don't like having people over everyday but I'm not too restrictive imho, we've had plenty of conversations on the topic and you agreed that the rules here are fair. We're going to have a long talk about where we go from here when you get back and this is the last talk, anymore problems and I'm done.
Honestly, I've been done but you're like my brother so because of that I just express my concern and threaten to kick you out but I haven't yet because I want to see you make the right decisions, you haven't yet so maybe you'll need to go live with your girlfriend or your parents, they'll hold you more accountable for your decisions than I do, it's pretty obvious I just enable you by not sticking to my bottom line.
 
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I used to be member of this board back in the 90's and there was one Girl who posted so many inspirational things on here for many years. I knew her in person before I ever met her on bluelight. In person she seemed so happy and alive and on here so sad and lonely. I really felt connected to her because at times I felt the same way, but i never told her. She isn't a member anymore, but i wish she knew that I read all of her posts and understood.....
 
You need to wake up and start being a wife again, its been 3 months, last time it was six months, If you gone frigid tht's fine, but you need to let me to find some other options, I love you but little to none affection hurts more than you understand
 
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