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Solitude is as big a part of my addiction as are the drugs. Your blindness to my internal struggle despite my numerous attempts to articulate it bother me. My resent for you is invisible to your marmalade eyes. When this bomb goes off, I am human enough to wish for you to be out of the range of impact. Consequently, that same humanity wishes to employ the power of Thanatos and give up all vision of my existentialist ideals.

I pity you for being weaker than me. Multiple times a day, I cut the string holding the kite which is my soul by way of stabbing my vein with the hollowed out dagger filled with heroin. I further reinforce my destructive ways by enlisting the aid of many other substances to escape my pain. Though somehow, you manage to reveal yourself as weaker than I - the individual who just proclaimed to be completely aware of my wretchedness & hatred yet unable to gather the strength to change it.

I treat you like shit by ignoring for you days on end. You see color where there's only a shapeless cloud of black. There's nothing wrong with you. You are not weak. I am. My temporary bouts of insanity mixed with what Poe would call moments of horrible sanity are enough to keep me in a constant state of imbalance. I will never change. Better to seem like an asshole than the pathetic worthless piece of shit that I really am.

I don't want you to hurt. I don't want anyone to hurt. I simply want to be relieved of having the power to hurt you.

To my beloved cat, Spunky.
 
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Solitude is as big a part of my addiction as are the drugs. Your blindness to my internal struggle despite my numerous attempts to articulate it bother me. My resent for you is invisible to your marmalade eyes. When this bomb goes off, I am human enough to wish for you to be out of the range of impact. Consequently, that same humanity wishes to employ the power of Thanatos and give up all vision of my existentialist ideals.

I pity you for being weaker than me. Multiple times a day, I cut the string holding the kite which is my soul by way of stabbing my vein with the hollowed out dagger filled with heroin. I further reinforce my destructive ways by enlisting the aid of many other substances to escape my pain. Though somehow, you manage to reveal yourself as weaker than I - the individual who just proclaimed to be completely aware of my wretchedness & hatred yet unable to gather the strength to change it.

I treat you like shit by ignoring for you days on end. You see color where there's only a shapeless cloud of black. There's nothing wrong with you. You are not weak. I am. My temporary bouts of insanity mixed with what Poe would call moments of horrible sanity are enough to keep me in a constant state of imbalance. I will never change. Better to seem like an asshole than the pathetic worthless piece of shit that I really am.

I don't want you to hurt. I don't want anyone to hurt. I simply want to be relieved of having the power to hurt you.

To my beloved cat, Spunky.
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Beautiful words. I resonate with this on several aspects... It was nice to see such a complex feeling articulated in a way I was never capable of doing.
 
What did I ever do to you? If you have a problem with me, be a fucking man about it and talk to me. Don't just follow me around and tear apart every word I write.
 
I know we have been split up for 3 months now but I fucked another girl the other day who is about 100x better looking than you and 100x better in bed and you probably have no idea but I hope you find out, I hope you find out that I came inside her, I hope you find out she was moaning and squirming while I fucked her amazing body, I hope you find out that she made me feel amazing and I hope you find out that that hour was better than our entire sexlife, you ungrateful, poisonous bitch.


Ah that was like purging toxins from my soul :)
 
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I'm only really interested in you when I'm high even then sometimes I find it hard to find you attractive enough to fuck you even tho your basically offering it on a plate making it so easy its not even exciting. your a good friend tho
 
I banged all of your friends and came inside all of them. The night I was sick, when you all visited me and brought me meds when I was sick in bed, I thought it was amazing to have all 3 of you in one place. I winked at Mariel behind your back as you both were leaving. She smiled flirtatiously. Actually everytime me and Mariel banged, she would ask "do I like it better than yours"... but this chick is your "friend". So devious and treacherous. .. but extremely hot. I'm actually a bit surprised that you 2 aren't pregnant by me.
 
Our time is short just as the sun rises so too must it set. The ocean waves drift between us but in my heart they carry us closer. The flower who receives light grows and honey you're a bed full of roses. Standing tall you wither to neither hail nor sleet. You've melted the friged ice that covers your heart with the warmth of the love you now wield. Day by day you've revealed to me what even you where not aware of. You my dear are the gate keeper to my heart bestowed with the grace of a goddess you hold my innermost love for thee. You're beauty is unsurpassed by a thousand moons and even then a thousand more pale in comparison. I long for one fond embrace to hold you tight but verily fate as it seems will not let it be. The sweet morning dew coupled with the air of a new dawn is no other than you and I. Hold still my heart for now it knows the bitter sweet once more. Faced with the torn and scorn of loves fiery passion condemned to the inner most pits of hell while also its raptures to the highest peaks of heaven. I long for you. A lover without his love am I. A lover without his love is indeed the most painful pain of them all.
 
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Your starting to put that weight on again. Be sure to keep an eye on that.

or

"Im getting fat again." I know
 
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