dsesesy
Bluelighter
Well hi. i just wanted to see some opinions on my personal pain. i was in a relationship a year ago and i put my everything into him. then he dumped me, because of something his friend said about me. it broke my heart and ultimately lead me to hardcore use of meth. (i was using before and with him but not much) anyway. it took me months to get over him. months of crying for him on and off. then on and off i'd have dreams about him, where id be happy but then wake up and the pain was just as fresh as before. he is now engaged and his girlfriend is pregnant. but last night (almost a year since we've broken up) i had a VERY intense dream where he had left his girlfriend and we were reunited and it was better than ever blah blah blah. so i woke up feeling pretty disappointed this morning. does my dream mean we might have a future together? or am i just a sad pathetic mofo? or is it just because of how it's approaching a year since we've been together? i don't know. i have other guys that like me and that i like. and one guy in my life who says he loves me, and i do care about him just not how i cared about my ex. i'm very good natured and pretty nice looking i guess. i just loved him so much i feel like my heart is still committed to him 
