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Room 101: what is , or was, your greatest fear.

My biggest fear is watching myself getting older, i can handle death as that will just happen one day but watching yourself get older and realising that you're slowly dying worries me slightly.
 
i fear everything... alot of people get confused and try to limit everything by calling it god, but i don't fear god... i fear everything.

i also live how everything enables me to feel, so it kinda gets me confused... maybe thats why my relationships always seem so fucked up.
 
Good question....

my own death scares me the most! When I was younger, starting when I was about 8 years old, the idea of laying in a casket would keep me up all night! It was like a thought that came into my brain like a virus, and it would stay there until I was too tired to think about it anymore.

Still keeps me awake on some nights, and I'm 23 years old now
 
my greatest fear (and kind of my only one, i guess) i failure. i will probably end my life if im not successful. my entire family (fucking all my aunts and uncles, everyone i know basically) are very successful at whatever they endevor to do. some of my cousins are going to fantastic unis, while i dicked around in highschool and ended up in a not so great one. and now im dicking around in uni! i feel like such a loser sometimes, like i know im fairly intelligent, can excell when i feel like it, but sometimes i just dont!

i used to (when i was a little kid) be afraid of dogs. but that doesnt count, me thinks, cause i was like bitten by one. and it was only big dogs that were bigger than me; this did not exten to cute little dogs.

how fitting, fleetwood mac, 'reflection' just came on. its like, i can see myself, this well adjusted, rich, nice family, two cars, nice house. then it all falls away.... fuck me
 
I used to be afraid of all sorts of things when I was young. I was afraid of monsters. I had to sleep on my back staring up at the ceiling because of an intense fear of seeing vampires or ghosts or decaying dead people standing by me, or coming in the window, or out of the closet, etc etc. I used to be afraid of the dark badly. I used to be afraid of heights. I used to be so fraid of spiders that when I saw one or thought I felt one on me, I would scream like a girl and literally lose my sight, and come to running as fast as possible the other way. It was totally uncontrollable. I used to spend a lot of time worrying about a lot of things.

Now, I have shed those through experiences started by psychedelics and/or marijuana, and because I have such a different view of the universe now and my spirituality. I am still afraid if spiders, not as much as I was though at all. I have some sort of physcial aversion to them. But I can deal with them calmly now. Really the only thing I'm afraid of is something happening to someone I love. I don't know if I could handle the death of my family or cats or fiance or best friends. I have no idea what I'd do and it terrifies me to think of. My own death I don't fear, but having to live with that loss would be horrendous.
 
My greatest fear is something happening to my daughter. I think my world will fall apart if anything ever happens to her. Its been my greatest fear since the day I became pregnant.

I have an irrational fear of the dark. I love the dark, but pitch black darkness scares me. I dont like not being able to see around me. I picture vampires and ghosts and robbers and stupid stuff around me... Its weird but I just hate being in the dark. If im home alone, I will usually have every light on in the house cause I get freaked out not being able to see.

I love camping, but hate, HATE walking into the trees and darkness at night. It makes my fear of the dark explode inside me... it scares the daylights out of me (its the reason I wont let anyone use my flashlight, I always have to have a light on me when camping.)

I have a fear of plane crashes... and not necessarily being in a plane crash, but when I hear a plane or jet or see one in the sky I think its going to come crashing down on me.

I have a fear of dying at a young age, and leaving my child motherless way too young :(
 
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I dread coming home to find my husband dead in his chair; I dread him having to go into a nursing home and the fees ending using up all our life savings that we've both so worked hard for and me ending up in poverty; I dread becoming senile and badly treated by social workers, nurses, my younger relatives, etc., forced into a nursing home when I'm in my late 60s or something.

I could imagine the scenario: I'm a widow in my late 60s/early 70s and neighbors start complaining about the state of my garden and then social workers get onto it and start trying to claim I'm unfit to look after myself and force me to sell my home and take over my finances, etc.

Could imagine being so senile that I am like a frightened bewildered infant and treated insentively by the nursing home staff or whatever. My father in law went like that and it was awful to see; he didn't even recognize his own wife, the mother of his children... the woman he had once made love to all those years ago...all that was gone completely. It was so depressing for me to see. :'(

I've heard of this happening to vulnerable older people who don't have children to vouch for them. The local councils will do anything to get money and they can pick on the vulnerable. I also worry that if I went into hospital that I might be despatched if I were over 75 or so. They may need the bed, etc. Older people can become expendible, plus the niece and nephews may want the inheritance, and thus want me out of the way, etc.

They'll think of me as the older dotty aunt, the eccentric one!

I almost fear this scenaro more than getting cancer or something.
 
9mmCensor said:
Change is annoying, but I don't fear it.
I welcome death, I fear what lies beyond it.
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Should have elaborated on it, I meant big changes like someone going out of your life, my mom dying, etc.

zophen said:
^ I must admit death isn't massively appealing to myself either rumpled.
In fact it was only 5 weeks ago I actually accepted the fact that I wouldn't live forever (in an emotional type sense, not inellectually, obviously)
Suffocation is another thing that I am afraid of.
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I fear death, I also fear what lies beyond it. Zoph, I want to live forever! It's painful, both physically and metaphorically. Physically no matter how you die, well, because you don't live to tell about it. Metaphorically because there're just so many things I don't want to leave behind but have to. Too many things I have yet to accomplish.. And I believe in the afterlife.
 
My biggest fear is being trapped somewhere i cant get out. In a room with no doors, no windows. Nothing in there to kill myself with, i would just have to live with only my mind, i would definatly turn insane & then i guess wait to die.
im claustrophobic which adds to this being my worst fear.

About this time last year i was trapped in an ensuite for over an hour, i had the biggest pannick attack ive ever had.. i cut myself open trying to hack at the door with tweezers before eventually kickig the door in to get out.
 
Number one absolute fear is small spaces. Surprised it hasn't been mentioned yet. When I was about 6 or 7 my brother locked me in a suitcase for a substantial amount of time. An experience which broke my fragile atheism into hysterical prayer.

..And losing my mind.
 
The phobia that I feared most was 'SPIDERS'.:(

This started at an early age ~ most probably due to my mother telling me that when I picked my nose & ate them I'd get spiders hatching out from under the skin on my arm(millions of them).8o

Up until I was about 19-20 and with my true love I would still awake at night screaming, opening my eyes I could see giant spiders climbing on to the bed and over me ~ they were real so real that I couldn't go back to sleep until my beloved searched the room at a ridiculous time of the morning. :( :( :(

He'd also find me stood up in bed scratching at the wall in fear NOT knowing why ~ but it was coz there were spiders in the room & that was my only escape.:( :( 8(

I'm well over this phobia now thank goodness!!:\

My no.1 room 101: Fearing that my husband dies before me & my children ~ the most ultimate of pains I can only guess at ~ and if I DO I become an uncontrollable blubberring mass!!!:( :( :( :(


LOVE M 'n' M xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
 
T&A thread really

greatest fear - not realising my full potential. making the wrong decisions to make those options slip through my fingers - or never come my way cos I chose the wrong path
 
Conquerred!!!

Pomplemous said:
T&A thread really

greatest fear - not realising my full potential. making the wrong decisions to make those options slip through my fingers - or never come my way cos I chose the wrong path
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:) :) Sounds like that fear is going to be conquered my love!!!=D =D =D

LOVE M 'n' M xxxxxxx;) ;)
 
Fearing that my husband dies before me & my children
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i hope i die before my kids definitely, and my wife also. i just want to make sure i leave them comfortable. when i pass, i dont want them to have to worry about money or anything, too often parents leave huge amounts of debt on houses, ect and their kids either pay for it or forfeit their inheritance.
 
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