Rolling Every Week for 9 Months

[jamesd081792]

Hey guys. first time posting... trying to see how much damage you guys think ive done.

I rolled every week, atleast once a week off Molly for about 9 months, from last december to this august. throughout that time there was 4 or 5 times ive rolled for several days (approx 4) days straight. usually i would be at a club on every friday night and roll. there was almost no exceptions to the whole "every week" thing

recently ive started to realize that im simply not as sharp as i usd to be but i am by no means becomining an idiot..... i dont really know the scale here but generally speaking, how much damage would one do

some background
- i have a shitty diet, eat late at night all the time and do not regularly get enough sleep
- not particularly active
- drink no water, always soda/iced tea
- generally not the healthiest lifestyle but also not the worst by far
-i weigh about 150 pounds, white caucasian male
-drug abuse happens to be in the family but never E to the best of my knowledge

thanks guys

tries to be comprehensive but ask if any questions remain

 

[DOB]

way to go bra,shitty diet and roll every week....... so cool man,so YOLO


on serious note,what the fuck do you expect people to tell you?

rolling every week = is retarded and dont act like you dont know it

shitty diet = is going to kill you,and you know it

no particulary active = death,and you know it

drink only crap = again retarded and you know it


you are like kamikadze flying down from sky in plane packed with explosives aiming at giant aircraft carrier and your like
"hey guys,I think I may die in next few seconds,by impacting concrete runeway with half ton of tnt under my ass...still not sure better make a thread about it and ask if thats really fatal"

 

[Cornishman]

Learn to use drugs responsibly.

Sobriety is v important.
Nurture your equilibrium.

 

[jamesd081792]

Hahahahahaha I love the honesty.
Look I know it's an issue. That's why the fuck I'm here loll. Anyway so I haven't rolled in September, which is obviously a step in the right direction but admittedly it's only the first step.

So now what like what are the steps towards recovering some of the ground that has been lost

 

[jamesd081792]

And just to clarify I swear I'm not one of those yolo pussies. Guess it sorts just idk sneaks up on you I guess and before u know it, ur out there every week


Look I know what I did and what happened was wrong, but I need advice on the days going forward

 

[yanker]

way to go bra,shitty diet and roll every week....... so cool man,so YOLO


on serious note,what the fuck do you expect people to tell you?

rolling every week = is retarded and dont act like you dont know it

shitty diet = is going to kill you,and you know it

no particulary active = death,and you know it

drink only crap = again retarded and you know it


you are like kamikadze flying down from sky in plane packed with explosives aiming at giant aircraft carrier and your like
"hey guys,I think I may die in next few seconds,by impacting concrete runeway with half ton of tnt under my ass...still not sure better make a thread about it and ask if thats really fatal"

Haha yea pretty much this. U ain't the brightest crayon in the box huh bro? You'll be dead in 5 years u keep this shit up.

 

[Folley]

You sound almost exactly how I used to be...


I rolled every week or more for about 8 months, had a bad diet and just was overall unhealthy... 15 months after that I'm still fucked up and I'm dealing with a LOT of problems, emotional and physical, that won't go away for years. Get your shit straightened out.


My advice for you?
Stop rolling now. If you ever feel the urge, drop some acid once a month or something (DON'T abuse any more drugs however) but you cannot roll for at least 6-8 months after that kind of abuse... if you'll ever be able to again, that is.

Start eating healthy. Tuna, turkey, bananas and other foods high in L-Tryptophan are the most important.

Get outside. Sunlight plays a very important role in serotonin production, go out and start exercising. Working out has been proven to help fix serotonin downregulation

Get your shit in line. You have to take care of yourself, no one else is going to. If you keep living the way you are, you can be DAMN sure you'll find yourself in an early grave.

 

[jamesd081792]

Wow. I guess I wasnt expecting all that but I'm really gunna try and make a stand against it all


So I mean what is still okay to take and what is just straight off limits.
I know this is the ecstasy thread so I don't mean to make this go off topic but.....
Would anyone be able to give me a better run down of what's cool and what is really not
I semi regularly take adderall for school
I do K maybe once a month
Coke Maybe once every few months
Did acid a handful of times
Lorazepam (attivan) semi regularly to calm my shit down
Smoke weed everyday. Usually like twice a day


Is it just the molly that's really gunna fuck my shit up or I mean idk
U guys are the ones with the knowledge....please......educate

 

[epic11]

ok guys hes been bashed enough.

Stop rolling for about a year. Maybe even more. You've already done some serious work to your receptors.

Read about darksidesam's tryptophan rich diet blog post. Keep on that with SOMETHING ACTIVE everyday. You must excercise, get sunlight, and completely abstain from mdma for about a year before even thinking of touching it again.

Buy a test kit when you decide to try it again and you feel better from www.dancesafe.org <-- this is a lifesaver. Get the whole kit, 50bux. Never drop a pill without testing first.

 

[futura2012]

I semi regularly take adderall for school

This is amphetamine. Just cause its legal its by no means safe. The amount this med gets abused is amazing. A brief search for amphetamine abuse will reveal all.

I do K maybe once a month

I hear many people talking about K causing urinary issues.

Coke Maybe once every few months

Probabaly be okay with this depending on dose.

Did acid a handful of times

Should be okay. Frazzles some people just with a few.

Lorazepam (attivan)

Dont know much about this drug so cant coment.

Smoke weed everyday. Usually like twice a day

I have friends in their 40s who are completely frazzled from this. Weed is massively underestimated in terms of harm it causes.

Is it just the molly that's really gunna fuck my shit up

No a lot of the mentioned patterns above have some fucking up potential if you are not careful.


Keep all this up and you will have an awful future I can guarantee that.

If you can try and cut back some what. Otherwise you will have a whole lot of pain in later life.

 

[jamesd081792]

Thank you guys so much. Can't express how much I appreciate everyone's help.

If anyone has any further insight / other comments please....
I'd be more then happy to listen

 

[Folley]

Wow. I guess I wasnt expecting all that but I'm really gunna try and make a stand against it all


So I mean what is still okay to take and what is just straight off limits.
I know this is the ecstasy thread so I don't mean to make this go off topic but.....
Would anyone be able to give me a better run down of what's cool and what is really not
I semi regularly take adderall for school
I do K maybe once a month
Coke Maybe once every few months
Did acid a handful of times
Lorazepam (attivan) semi regularly to calm my shit down
Smoke weed everyday. Usually like twice a day


Is it just the molly that's really gunna fuck my shit up or I mean idk
U guys are the ones with the knowledge....please......educate

OK to use in small amounts, with plenty of time in between:
LSD
Mushrooms
2C-B (careful with that one)
Ketamine (RARELY, once a month is good)
Cocaine in very small amounts, under a half gram. Don't binge, it will fuck you up worse.. you might just want to skip it
Moderate alcohol use
Weed. I'd keep smoking if I was you... it's sure helped me deal with depression.


Things you CANNOT use:

MDMA, MDA, MBDB, MDAI or any other MDxx compound
Methylone, butylone, ethylone or any similar research chemicals
Mephedrone, buphedrone and similar chemicals
MDPV, a-PVP or any other chemical found in "bath salts"

Adderall, methamphetamine and any other forms of amphetamine (including 4-FA and other RCs) are NOT ok. They release dopamine, as well as other neurochemicals that are used up after MDMA abuse... stay away from them. Wait 2 months, then you can maybe continue to use them every month or so, but they will fuck you up just as bad as MDMA abuse does. Even worse when your already fucked from 5-HT depletion...

Cocaine, alcohol, ketamine and psychedelics will all fuck you up if you abuse them as well, but you can continue to use them if you practice EXTRA caution when using them.. especially coke.

Any serotonin, dopamine or norepinephrine releasing drug is not OK to use now. If your not sure what a drug does, look it up on google



The most important thing you can do right now is start living healthy... eat right, exercise and stop taking so many drug, and I'm sure you'll recover... eventually

 

[DOB]

So now what like what are the steps towards recovering some of the ground that has been lost

obviously it isnt drinking plenty of pure water,good diet,active lifestyle and year or two without mdma,it must be something else,good thing you made a thread about this mystery becose I dont know what it can be and have no idea who could answer question this hard

 

[DOB]

lol I think the OP is troll becose acording to my logic,if he is so smart to ask question like this,he is in fact so smart he probably needs help of social workers to wipe his ass,impossible to be able to use computer

 

[futura2012]

Thank you guys so much. Can't express how much I appreciate everyone's help.

If anyone has any further insight / other comments please....
I'd be more then happy to listen

This sounds non troll like to me. The guy just wants some opinions nothing more.

 

[mark881]

Well, the early 90s rave lifestyle was exactly this. A load of ravers on low income or unemployment benefit. Crap diet, no exercise and went raving every week taking E for months.

It's not good for you, but what inevitably happened was suicide Wednesdays appeared due to the huge drop in serotonin. Weed was and still is smoked every day by my old skool crew. Eventually everyone knocked it on the head, and stopped going every week - but that also coincided with the crap quality of pills from 96 onwards.

Some casualties included a guy I briefly knew who was throwin up blood, something to do with his stomach lining so he couldn't do E anymore, just snort speed.

A few people collapsed from too many pills and a few ended up heroin addicts (some people used H to come down off their E).

Now I speak to the old skool, they refuse to get back into E because they know it'll suck them in like a vortex. And they've got kids now, so money is a bit tighter.