~roller coaster thoughts~

[neverwas]

i met you
i loved you
you confused me
i confuse you
you hurt me
i hurt you
you lied to me
i lied to you
we patched things up
now once again theyre fucked up

you question my reasons
i tell you they're all genuine
remember i said
"you may not like what i write"
if reading hurts you
then dont look at me tonight

you read on

push me and pull me
beat me emotionally
tear me
use me
this roller coaster was level
now its all over the place
up
down
round
and around

dont make me chose
because you know it wont happen
you have to adjust
to my life
which is now
in progression

circles are expanding
issues still remaining
they surface
then dissappear
i dont know what you want me to...

nothing...

i dont know...

a part of me wants to walk away
save ourselves the continuing hurt
you say its your ego
i say youre not replaced
yet you dont believe me

even when i say it
to your face.

"lets just be friends"
thats all we ever were
yet right now its prooving more hostile
its weird...

i want off this ride...

 

[Blue Footed Booby]

this would be a good piece to do at a spoken word little cafe place they do those things at....i would love to hear the anger, the hurt the confusion, disappointment....raw, i likes it raw!!!