rohypnapology.

[Raz]

i'm sorry i chose you of all the girls
in all the bars
in all my world
i wish things could be different
and you could have the chance
to make that choice
but we both know
i'm not the choice
you'd chance

i'm sorry that you will catch my scent
on your skin
for days
and without knowing why
find tears on each cheek
trembling hands
and a revulsion
you cannot name

i'm sorry that you will fear many more things
than you should
from this moment on

i'm sorry that i can only tell you this
in the hurried prelude to my physical release
in the shattered epilogue
which leaves me heaving and panting
my brief minutes of satisfaction
partnered with your insensate form
and my guilt

i'm sorry that for months to come
you will wonder if you are whole
and you will wonder
why??

i'm sorry that i have no answers

i'm sorry that my weakness
makes victims of us both

i'm sorry that this is love

..

 

[Jabberwocky]

wow raz that is some intense subject matter. It was interesting to read but i am unable to critique it. Thanks for sharing.

 

[thujone]

is it love? i wonder why you feel that way about it. quite visceral. the fourth paragraph is a bit of a jumble though. you're telling her before? or after? or both? i don't get it

 

[the_ketaman]

Dorry, this is almost completely besides the point but has raz somehow become straight, or are you just bi? Or am I completely missing the point of your words?

 

[Raz]

Dorry, this is almost completely besides the point but has raz somehow become straight, or are you just bi? Or am I completely missing the point of your words?

lol...it is a character piece, it's not really me...I am not in the habit of drugging and raping boys or girls..

About the prelude/epilogue thing, it is meant to imply that he says it both before and after; maybe I could make those into two separate parts to make it more obvious? I will have a think about altering it....

 

[lostpunk5545]

That's fucking brilliant lad, I really enjoyed it.

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

I've been away far too long, Raz this is rather impressive!

 

[up all night]

Really interesting. I love that you often write things that are really dark but also have an almost empathetic quality. You seem to have an innate ability to get to the heart of humankind.