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RIP SpecialK

matt<3ketamine

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Im sorry to have to report that specialK, an old skool n.irish BLer and one my 2 best friends in life, has passed away and now, i have no more child hood friends left alive.
Some of you old skoolers know who this legend was or under another handle but if you know any of us northern irish crew, you knew his, this legend was one of my best friends
unfortunately, i learnt yesterday, he was found by his older brother face down in his bed unresponsive.
He had a very bad ketamine problem, was getting into pregabalin, once saying had finished a single strip of 15 overnight. i will update when toxicology is known of exactly what it was. He was trying to stop the ket but it had a very strong pull on him, i mean me n him were practically k-hole buddies whilst everyone else was obsessed with pre-ban meph.
I've lost most my friends now that had been there since i was a wee goth 12 y/o standing at city hall I met him from school and we knew mutual friends in town so when he got moved to sit beside me in history class, 2nd year - thats where we became psychonauts - learning about the chemistry behind them, and our chemistry classes were discussing the history of whatever it was, ironically, our history classes were 'what should we try get a hold of this weekend?'
He had been having organ problems for a while, caused by ket and was treating it...with ket. Us as a friend group got really concerned, me n my fella had been through scag addiction but this was a different beast it seemed, as it had him hooked in, psychologically addicted, with him.

He was an incredible friend to me for years and years, we both went through our ups n downs and were there trying to help the other - he had my back against my other 'friends' during my heroin addiction, as did my other, passed on, best friend - snowball. but he wasn't on here.
i don't have any childhood friends any more. only my memories are my proof. i didn't want to wake up this morning, knowing it wasn't an awful nightmare.
Atleast the two of my best friends may be raving away somewhere else and ill be there in a bit but specialK was a part of this community, during the pre-ban meph days - we met lots of other BLer's, esp the down south irish. bogman, mugz, red arrow, @Acid4Blood he told me you's spoke a bit. im sorry to have to tell ya this, here.

RIP SpecialK/Kyletek
 
Im sorry to have to report that specialK, an old skool n.irish BLer and one my 2 best friends in life, has passed away and now, i have no more child hood friends left alive.
Some of you old skoolers know who this legend was or under another handle but if you know any of us northern irish crew, you knew his, this legend was one of my best friends
unfortunately, i learnt yesterday, he was found by his older brother face down in his bed unresponsive.
He had a very bad ketamine problem, was getting into pregabalin, once saying had finished a single strip of 15 overnight. i will update when toxicology is known of exactly what it was. He was trying to stop the ket but it had a very strong pull on him, i mean me n him were practically k-hole buddies whilst everyone else was obsessed with pre-ban meph.
I've lost most my friends now that had been there since i was a wee goth 12 y/o standing at city hall I met him from school and we knew mutual friends in town so when he got moved to sit beside me in history class, 2nd year - thats where we became psychonauts - learning about the chemistry behind them, and our chemistry classes were discussing the history of whatever it was, ironically, our history classes were 'what should we try get a hold of this weekend?'
He had been having organ problems for a while, caused by ket and was treating it...with ket. Us as a friend group got really concerned, me n my fella had been through scag addiction but this was a different beast it seemed, as it had him hooked in, psychologically addicted, with him.

He was an incredible friend to me for years and years, we both went through our ups n downs and were there trying to help the other - he had my back against my other 'friends' during my heroin addiction, as did my other, passed on, best friend - snowball. but he wasn't on here.
i don't have any childhood friends any more. only my memories are my proof. i didn't want to wake up this morning, knowing it wasn't an awful nightmare.
Atleast the two of my best friends may be raving away somewhere else and ill be there in a bit but specialK was a part of this community, during the pre-ban meph days - we met lots of other BLer's, esp the down south irish. bogman, mugz, red arrow, @Acid4Blood he told me you's spoke a bit. im sorry to have to tell ya this, here.

RIP SpecialK/Kyletek
Losing a friend that is that close to you is not easy. I'm very sorry for your loss.

RIP specialK 💛🙏
 
toxicology - inconclusive. Was found face down in his bed, unresponsive.
my 2 bestest friends deaths, have been that. his mum said 'he just went to sleep', so that is what will be told to everyone.
i keep seeing 'signs', weird kinda superstitious stuff i wouldn't normally but the amount of it has been scary past few days, even before i was told, and to just totally rub salt in the wound, the drive back from the car, i stuck on the radio to drown the deafening silence and on comes his fave nirvana song on kerrang. i couldn't hold anything in.
i hate this, i've lost too many friends, good genuine friends, through my smack habit whilst others were gossiping behind my back and how awful i am, because = smack, they had my back, when kicked out of my house, had a sofa for me, the least i can do is make sure his funeral goes perfect, everyone is respectful and that none of the people who talked behind his back appear, as i know the feeling since he got the treatment i did, but cuz = IM ketamine. snorting - okay, IM/IV - smack junkie, in our old circles from others.
please just let tuesday go well, please no drama please
 
toxicology - inconclusive. Was found face down in his bed, unresponsive.
my 2 bestest friends deaths, have been that. his mum said 'he just went to sleep', so that is what will be told to everyone.
i keep seeing 'signs', weird kinda superstitious stuff i wouldn't normally but the amount of it has been scary past few days, even before i was told, and to just totally rub salt in the wound, the drive back from the car, i stuck on the radio to drown the deafening silence and on comes his fave nirvana song on kerrang. i couldn't hold anything in.
i hate this, i've lost too many friends, good genuine friends, through my smack habit whilst others were gossiping behind my back and how awful i am, because = smack, they had my back, when kicked out of my house, had a sofa for me, the least i can do is make sure his funeral goes perfect, everyone is respectful and that none of the people who talked behind his back appear, as i know the feeling since he got the treatment i did, but cuz = IM ketamine. snorting - okay, IM/IV - smack junkie, in our old circles from others.
please just let tuesday go well, please no drama please
These kinds of circumstances can feel mentally and emotionally very chaotic and charged, as you deal with them, and it's possible to feel some things that you might consider supernatural, or superstitious as you say. That's definitely a normal and common thing when losing someone or grieving.

I think you're being a good friend though, so hold on to that, because that is what's important. Whether he knows it or not, it still matters, and it will matter to his family that you are there to honor him and support them.

Feel free to reach out if you should ever need support or someone to vent to.
 
Had the pleasure of been in his company a few times and always had fun times.
I'm still in shock with the news.
R.I.P Kyle you really were SpecialK
 
Been many years since I've been on bluelight. Just signing in to share how sad this is and to honour Kyle's life.

We shared many years of good times and bad, trying our best to help each other out when we could. Sadly our friendship scattered over the past few years but I'll never forget the special times we got to spend together and wish I was able to make up for lost time.

We as psychonaugts explored the furtherest reaches and possibilities of consciousness itself and that alone will change how I see and interact with the world around me forever. ❤️

See you on the other side some day bro x
 
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