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REVELATION caused by DATURA

I have realized that I no longer care about this,moderators can close this thread,do whatever they want.
If I risk my life,take incredibly big amounts of datura motivated by my passion and by the desire to write about something impressive in my book,struggle to sustain a logic,live reporting my tripping,publicly admitting one of my fetishes that I haven't told to anyone before,what do I FUCKING GET?
I get NOTHING,only ignorant people that think I'm trolling,others thinking that I'm craving for attention,others thinking that I'm a teenager and others that are quite unsure about what I've done.

Well,from now on,I won't risk my life for these kinds of people that will,MAYBE,read my book and still sustain that I'm a troll.
I thought people around here could do more than bashing,insulting and making fun of me,while feeling great for doing so.I've realized that I was EXTREMELY WRONG.
50%+ of the bluelight members that commented in my thread are afraid of taking datura,but they aren't afraid of insulting and judging me for doing something that they will never do,actually,they are proud for doing that.
My faith is completely lost.
 
If I risk my life,take incredibly big amounts of datura motivated by my passion and by the desire to write about something impressive in my book,struggle to sustain a logic,live reporting my tripping,publicly admitting one of my fetishes that I haven't told to anyone before,what do I FUCKING GET?
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what do you expect to get? we won't applaud a foolish decision that is potentially deadly. this is a harm reduction forum, we'd rather have you not risking your life.
Well,from now on,I won't risk my life for these kinds of people that will,MAYBE,read my book and still sustain that I'm a troll.
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to me that souds like you risked your life "for other people", who'd find your stories impressive. if that is so, then i guess we on bluelight are not these kind of people. we value your life and your health more than interesting trip reports.

if you read through this thread you will find many comments trying to convince you to do the best thing in that situation, namely getting medical help, and people trying to talk you out of taking more seeds (also some were discussing the ideas you had in that psychotic state)
also this is the internet so there are plenty of trolls out there (PD obviously has also had it's share, including stories of reckless consumption not unlike yours). it is in the nature of such things that no one on here can be sure if you're serious or not. i agree that it is not ideal if people voice their doubts when you're in the middle of a paranoid psychosis (if you were indeed), but i don't see anything wrong with sharing their opinion about it now.
 
I also take drugs with spiritual purposes,but my main goal was to take drugs in order to have some epic material for my book because,this,is my first established life-mission that I want to successfully finish.

I would expect to receive some appreciation for doing this so others won't need to try what I've tried in order to see what might happen.

I was a guinea-pig in this 2 year trip journey that I've had just because I wanted to share my story so others wouldn't need to go through what I've been through and make the same mistakes that I've made.

Why don't you understand this?
 
TL:;DR OP ejaculates on a cactus and thinks he has the super power of guessing numbers 10-100
 
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I think you have a martyr complex.

You seem to be inventing mistakes and then assuming that making them will discourage others from doing the same.
 
Explaining the truth to an arrogant person who is filled with disbelief is truly a waste of time.

So,the single thing that I want to tell you:
I fantasize about hitting you with a tuna.
 
Get over yourself, the only interest that your past experience could bring to anyone is the same kind of interest a train wreck has. Yea you want to watch the events unfold but it doesnt add anything to anyones lives. You are taking retarded amounts of datura, congratulations. You are not preaching any truth...
 
I've proven to myself something that I've always wanted to prove and that consists in the fact that I didn't die from taking 200+datura seeds once,and haven't died even after taking that amount for 2 years,twice a week.
This isn't a smart thing to do,but,this is all I wanted to since I've turned 18.
Please stop being so dramatic,I know that I wasn't wise at all for doing this,but as I mentioned before,I've always wanted to be known as ''that guy who tripped 6 days a week for 2 years''
As I think about it now,I realize that it was kind of stupid and very risky,but,I regret NOTHING.
 
OP have you noticed any chronic toxicity from ingesting such a high quantity of atropine alkaloids at such a high frequency? Or have you become so delusional and dissociated from concensus reality that you have no way to tell?
 
I've noticed that I have a headache every day,I have severe problems with urinating,my vision is always blurry,I'm much more anxious than I was 2 years ago,much more paranoid,many phobias,I frequently start shaking with no reason(this is really weird) and I've lost almost all of my friends.
All in all,my life is fucked but I'm trying to be an optimist.
 
If you read my thread or my other thread about datura you will see that I've mentioned my weekly tripping routine.
2 times-datura
2 times-dxm
1 time-A.muscaria
1 time-Salvia Divinorum
Theoretically,sunday is my ''sober'' day.
 
I get you grigore we definitely are all one and the same I've seen it on a salvia trip. Also if you want to hear my "sober, rational, logical" point of view that we're all one then consider the big bang was one point of everything mashed together so small it was just a single thing and then exploded into the universe right so that means we all came from the big bang as well as everything on earth so we're all one.
 
Grigore, why the weekly dissociative regimen? What are you looking for? Or are you trying to escape? (serious question)
 
I WAS trying to escape.
I've had 2 choices in my mind before beginning my tripping routine:
1.Trip as often as I can.
2.Commit suicide.
And I've decided that I should trip as often as I can because,sooner or later,I will die anyway and until then,at least I should do something.
 
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