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REVELATION caused by DATURA

It's an extreme form of masturbation,you might have seen it in the pain olympics video,if you haven't,watch it now.
I'm not talking only about ejaculating on my cactus,that's just the way I end my daily sexual routine that I have with him.

It's one of my fetishes that I'm normally embarrassed of,but when I'm tripping,I'm proud to talk about it.
 
Oh yes ofc man, im down with bmezine. :D Who DOESN't know it?! Kudos for having the balls (you do still have them, right?) to talk about that here on this forum. Real shame you were met with such hostility btw, being ridiculed and attacked by most forum members. The only really sensible reply seemed to come from "Broseph Smith".

Anyway, I've been psychotic myself so I kinda felt for you there. Hope you are getting better now!! :)
 
^ This.
I was saddened to read most of the responses to this thread. They were unnecessarily harsh. It's not harm reduction to yell "TROLL" or "Bullshit" or "what an idiot." Most of the posts in this thread were completely unsupportive. I'm ashamed of PD, and I don't think it has always been this way. Reading that thread by Church from 2007 gave me some real insight as to the emotional candor of this forum 5 years ago--much better. I think the days of reddit and facebook have made us jaded, overly skeptical, and less amiable online.

Also, I have my own theory about how the new superfluous spacing between posts makes bluelight seem less like a tight-knit community (it's nice to see more than two messages at a time on my screen) but I guess that's another conversation.
 
The OP started this thread as a continuation of another which was closed by moderators. If you see the whole picture, it's clear that Grigore is pushing the boat out further and further in an attempt to provoke a reaction. Whether it's trolling or masochistic exhibitionism isn't clear but it's obvious that s/he either needs immediate medical attention or to be slapped down and shut up before inciting impressionable kids to follow suit.
 
Well well, I totally agree to what you are saying there RythmSpring. Back in 2008 when I blew up that DMT lab, the bluelighters were the ONLY community that were supportive towards me. On 3 other drug/dmt forums I got bashed like there was no tomorrow. That's how I've grown to love bluelight and this more offensive tone has been prevalent only in the past 2 years or so.

Even if he is exhibionistic about his sexual preferences, LET HIM! What's the big deal about that? He obviously has his issues, but he seems a LOT more coherent now that he is not intoxicated anymore. I don't see any of his behaviour being a reason for bashing him. If a thread is out of line, it gets closed and that's that. No need for 20 bluelighters to ridicule or insult the person, ESPECIALLY NOT WHEN HE IS IN THE MIDDLE OF A PSYCHOTIC EPISODE, drug induced or not!
 
Well, it should be noted that consuming that much Datura can lead to a shitload of problems, most prominently death. This has been pointed out before.

Other than that, I don't see much wrong with consuming datura if the individual is enjoying it. People don't go up to the many IV heroin users this forum has to tell them what they are doing is unhealthy, but that's porobably just because everyone can somehow relate better to the pleasures and addictive potential of iv heroin vs. a plain old delirium.

Please fix that edit function :/
 
Same with the "quote" function.

"..it's obvious that s/he either needs immediate medical attention or to be slapped down and shut up..."

You make me sick. Obvious that he needs immediate medical attention? So that what? He can get a catheter shoved up his dick and get pumped full of sedatives? The dude's fine, he's coming back to reality. Cool your jets.
 
I'm really glad that that some kind people understood the situation I've went through in the last week.It was clearly the hardest period of my life.

My message to the disbelievers/ignorants/assholes and other kinds of negative people that ''helped'' me go through my datura induced psychosis:
You are pathetic and you have no idea how you would have felt if you were me.
 
@buildersoftime The only reaction that I wanted to provoke was based on a feeling of regret that I could experience after overdosing and going through full-blown datura psychosis so I could later quit my tripping mission.
When I swore to myself that I'll kill myself if I will quit just because I want so,I also said that if something really bad happens to me and I can no longer continue,I will have to stop.
So,in order not to flood my subconscious with the feel of eternal guilt for not being able to do what I've always dreamed of,I decided that I have 1 solution to get out of this and that consisted in taking daily overdoses of datura.
In this way,I would either die or end up like I am now,gladly,I didn't die and I'm quite fine right now,except that I still can't pee and haven't peed for 3 days and I still see double and hear whispers.
 
But type remarkably well.

People I know who take datura generally go blind for a lot of it and don't really type. I may have missed something, like p2 of this thread, but I still think your BS'ing ...mmmm...just a little.

Carry on typing oh lucid one.
 
Well,I don't know about you but because of years of typing,I can do it blindfolded,I don't need to look at the keyboard in order to type the letters.I'm not bullshitting at all,I have no reason,no intention and no desire to do so.It's useless,trolling is nothing more than a waste of time.
I'm curious why some people are still blinded by their disbelief and think that I'm trolling.
They must be really close-minded,but,it's not my job to judge them..
 
The interesting thing about that first page is that while already delusional you did not become paranoid until people started bashing! You were obviously psychotic and while a medical treatment might've gotten rid of that, it might have also been accompanied by some pretty major discomfort. Treatment for whichever illness should always be optional.

Giving someone a prognosis for his own death in a public forum when he is acutely psychotic is pretty damn reckless in itself.

I personally had very positive experiences with treatment for my mania, but another friend got beaten on by the police, got his smart phone permanently removed from him and had high dosages of intramuscular neuroleptics given to him while strapped to a bed (think akathisia+fixation), without having doen anything wrong whatsoever (true story). I'm still letdown to see this little tolerance for a psychotic episode on bluelight, but to a large degree I attribute the reaction to the fact you said that you had taken a lot of datura.

@RhythmSpring
I saw that video the other day, that's just horrific. Police still handles the mentally ill very straight forward, but legally there can be seen very positive tendencies at least over here in Germany.
 
There is no HR in this thread outside of the people telling OP not to take Datura.

OP elicited a reaction and ran with it.

Jacking off on a cactus? Really?
 
Seeing my weird fetish getting mentioned over and over again is getting really annoying.
Do you think that I am proud of myself for doing that?
If I was sober,you wouldn't even know that I do that.

It's just a thing that makes me get a boner hard as rock much faster,I don't know why,but I'm glad I've discovered it.
Do you want to know more about my personal life...?
 
Welcome back!

You should post pictures of some of the art you've done while on Datura.

Truly happy you chose to take a break from the seeds! You remember much of the trip? Able to provide a trip report perhaps? I've read often people have no memory of what happened during trips but you seemed to remember some and I'm sure many of a would love to hear more.

Be careful mate, :)
 
Damn,you are clearly one of the nicest people around here,really,your kindness truly amazes me :)

I will write about my psychosis in my book that I'm going to finish in few weeks and then publish it.There is no reason to continue tripping right now,I'm in a desperate need of taking a break from drugs,especially deliriants.

About the art,well,I decided not to share my drawings,they are just too personal.
All of my datura influenced drawings have 1 thing in common: all of them are distorted representations of my family members.Apart from that,each drawing is touched by my sexual fantasies,my passion for occultism and my feeling of guilt that is caused by what I've done to my family.
 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ku42PPzYEqs

I wish more people had an understanding of empathy. Truly a serious event happened here and many people here were so cold that I truly could not believe what I was reading. I hope that in the future people error on believing someone needs help over believing they are lying. Better to me made a fool by a troll than to be someone who acts like those officers did in that video. And many people here were no better in their judgement of Grigore than those cops were in that beating.

Grigore, truly hope you stay on BlueLight and that you do find this is a place you can find help. I regret that you have experienced some of the comments you received. Please do share your experiences and thoughts any time.

Cheers.
 
Thank you once again man,your help means a lot to me!
..I think I love you. (no homo xD)
If you will ever need my help,message me :)
 
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