cronicEtard said:
I..... roll (were im from we call it "dose or kick") about 4-5 times every week. And i drop about 8 pills each time.
First of all, if this isn't abuse, then nothing is. For a newbie, 100mg is more than enough. In a more experienced user (say a once-a-month-for-a-year type person) it might take 200, possibly up to 300. If I had to use more than that, though, I'd be questioning exactly what the hell I was doing to myself. Of course, that's just me, and my goal is to use only infrequently, when it won't interfere with my studies... and I'm a fairly light person (6ft tall, but weiging only around 60kg) so I wouldn't need as much anyway. By the way, I dont intend to sound judgemental, sorry if I do, but I'm just a little shocked - this seems a bit excessive.
Secondly, most people who take E also take other drugs - I've only done it once and, aside from alcohol one night on weed I've never taken drugs (I've never even smoked tobacco). However, the friends I have who do drugs do all the others as well - amphetamines, benzo's, LSD, etc. Often in combination - speed before heading out keeps you going for longer before you take the pill. We KNOW that speed causes serious damage, and I'm certain the others do some damage too (including E). But if you take a range of drugs, how can you possibly single out one of them to blame all your problems on?
Next, consider again the placebo effect. We're told all this stuff that E causes this sort of damage, or it destroys these neurons, or whatever. This damage leads to feelings of depression and causes memory loss and so forth... well, we then take E and all of a sudden we begin to notice that we're starting to lose our memories, feeling depressed, stammerring more than normal, rambling on unable to keep track of where the sentence we are trying to tell is going. I noticed these things the day or so after my roll, and wondered if this would be long term if I ever took enough E. But then I got to thinking, and realised that I'm like that normally, I was just paying more attention to it because I EXPECTED that sort of thing to happen to me. I'm not saying those effects were purely placebo, but I think for the most part they were. And the more we experience that, the more likely we are to develop larger psychosomatic effects latter on. I'm all good, of course, but it was kinda fun to notice and pay attention to just how weird I am normally, instead of thinking I'm acting like a normal person :D
Also, to back this up, the power of suggestion and the placebo effect can be amazing. A study demonstrated just how powerful. A group of people were taken and divided in two. One half was explicitly told "you are going to be given alcohol"; the other half told "you are NOT going to be given alcohol". Unbeknownst to the participants (here's where the double-blind bit comes into play), each group had further been halved, so that one half of each group actually got alcohol (enough to get them reasonably drunk) and the other half didnt, irrespective of what they had been told (they used something strong enough to disguise the taste of the alcohol so that they wouldnt know if it was there or not). So, what happened? Well, the people who were told they had alcohol acted drunk - including the poeple who didnt get any alcohol. The people who had been told they were getting no alcohol acted sober - including those who were given alcohol. They acted like they had been told to. Of course, in ability tests they tested impaired or not as expected for whether they were given alcohol or not. But the way they acted was as they were told, not as they were dosed.
Another thing to consider... E is an interesting drug, in that it seems to attract people with a certain type of personality, more so than other drugs, I would think. Of course I can't back that up, but it does seem that the people who tend to make the choice to use E - USE, not ABUSE - are reasonably intelligent, and also slightly insane to start with (hey, I know if I ever went to a psychiatrist he'd give me drugs! Same for most of the people I know). If this generalisation is true (and it's only based on my fairly small field of experience, so it could be wildly wrong), then it seems likely that people who use E are going to exacerbate the problems they had when they started... thus studies would be automatically biased because of the difference in demographics between users and non-users.
LOL - here's an idea... I'll submit myself to my Uni's physiology department - since I've only used once, my brain should be more or less unchanged. Do all the tests, scans, etc. Could be kinda fun, and useful work experience, too, for later on (my major is pharmacology

). Then, in a few years, after more experience, I'll come back and do it all again to see the effects. And, of course, since the experiement would need to be controlled, we wouldn't want me getting something that isn't MDMA, so we'd have to make sure I was taking only pharmaceutical grade MDMA, or at least some MDMA that we got the Chem department to make for us, so we knew what it was... sounds like a good deal to me

(although I'm not sure the ethics committee would approve...).