RecoveringDude
Bluelighter
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- May 24, 2017
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So I would consider myself a border line Dextromethorphan addict, I've used for the last 3 years, college is coming up and the side effects have been clearly visible, memory loss, development of a constant essential hand tremor, feeling emotionless (I was diagonosed with ASD as a kid but current pysch says I don't have it.) intelligence loss, common side effects of heavy DXM use, etc..
So with access to "safer," or rather less neurotoxic drugs, is it wise to become addicted or dependent on something else, I need benzos for hand tremors and body shakes any case, but I don't want to end up as a daily 4mg Xanax addict, I've tried herbs with little results as well as working out. When I do cardio my hand tremors worsen for about 30 mins and my body shakes.
I think I'm physically dependent on DXM, when I use my tremors lessen and the next few days they're not as severe but return gradually and worsen..It's fucking bullshit. Doctors in VA won't prescribe benzos to people my age without a very very very severe/good reason. I'm on gapapentin and ambien for sleep and thinking of taking it throughout the day instead ontop of my vyvanse to lessen the shakes. I'm thinking about trying to obtain suboxone as I've heard wonder stories about it for quitting DXM, and in VA it seems rather easy to obtain Suboxone as long as you have opiates in your urine/blood test and present physical symptons.
Fuck, I'm physically terryifying to look at, i stare in the mirror and just fucking want this curse to end today, this isn't some fucking sob story, I was picked on in my last year of highschool for it and nearly flunked all my classes and began self-medicating heavily. I don't want this to happen in college.
So with access to "safer," or rather less neurotoxic drugs, is it wise to become addicted or dependent on something else, I need benzos for hand tremors and body shakes any case, but I don't want to end up as a daily 4mg Xanax addict, I've tried herbs with little results as well as working out. When I do cardio my hand tremors worsen for about 30 mins and my body shakes.
I think I'm physically dependent on DXM, when I use my tremors lessen and the next few days they're not as severe but return gradually and worsen..It's fucking bullshit. Doctors in VA won't prescribe benzos to people my age without a very very very severe/good reason. I'm on gapapentin and ambien for sleep and thinking of taking it throughout the day instead ontop of my vyvanse to lessen the shakes. I'm thinking about trying to obtain suboxone as I've heard wonder stories about it for quitting DXM, and in VA it seems rather easy to obtain Suboxone as long as you have opiates in your urine/blood test and present physical symptons.
Fuck, I'm physically terryifying to look at, i stare in the mirror and just fucking want this curse to end today, this isn't some fucking sob story, I was picked on in my last year of highschool for it and nearly flunked all my classes and began self-medicating heavily. I don't want this to happen in college.