relapse

one day shy of 60 days. i'm sof ucked up. and to make matters worse i'm gonna hve to 2live with this lie for atelast another month til i can get sttled bcuz if i dont my dad wount help me ant with an apartment thisis gonna weigh heavuyl on my consicense fuck fuck fucccccck. i made the decision i'm not regeretting it but just the fact that i did it i feel guilty.

 

Relapse is a part of recovery there is no need to feel guilty. Its not ho3w many times you fall down its how many times you get back up.

 

^ Wise words. Take it in stride, and keep on going. Don't even reset the 'timer'. Accept that you relapsed, get sober again, and try to figure out what caused the relapse. Mistakes are a vital part of learning.

Best of luck to you mmigoo!

 

Beating yourself up only sets yourself up for another 'failure' more easily Goo. Take the Guilt as a sign that your aware that this situation isnt advantageous for you and leave it at that. The more you indulge in it, the more your going to use it as an Excuse to feel like shit about yourself and thats going to get you nowhere only Spiralling down again and you dont need that for yourself.
Personally, its good to talk as much as you can about your Guilt and the relapse, that way you become more powerfull than it(Unwaranted Guilt fuels Addiction), Excess guilt is a pressure you dont need so be kind to yourself and be honest-you owe that to yourself!
Keep moving forward pet!