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NCSH420

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so i just relapsed for the second time in 9 months. it h appened when i came on this site asking for ways to get drugs. i kno it probably sounds stupid but i feel horrible.

its crazy cause i read some of the responces in my otherand it made me think. i was so far into addiction i robbed a fucking pharmacy. i mean ive been sober anad doing drug councelling every day for the past 9 months. and i got one thought of trying to get drugs and reacted on it. it sucks so bad cause i dont know if i can trust myself.

that's a horrible feeling i mean i let my guard down. i mean im in prison now. and i got good news thatt i get out october 200th and will just have to do probation until january. like i said it sounds stupid, but ive only relapsed once when i took extacy for the first time a couple months ago in here that didnt suck as bad because it was so horrible that i never did ex again even when i had the chance. so is there anyone out there that can relate to what im saying...or am i making no sense
 
edit: i am referring to yesterday when i came on posting threads on how to get drugs
 
Hey man at least you didnt score right? You have nothing to be ashamed about. Just get off bluelight though if reading about drugs sets of your triggers.. i know it does for me
 
Hey if it helps maybe writing or posting in this thread whenever you get cravings will keep you off the drugs and help you? Whenever a craving to get high comes you have to remmeber the bad times it brought as well, is getting high worth wasting your life away in prison?
 
no. not all. tbh, i cant wait to get back in high school. ill b a senior. plus i get to graduate with my class :)
 
Thats good just keep thinking about your goals when the thought of getting high pops up. it gets easier over time.
 
wait your in prison now? did I read that right? how are you on the internet like what country are you from? Thinking about getting high is not a relapse I think about getting high everyday as long as you dont do it it doesnt count.
 
He said in another thread he does school work for like 2 hours a day and this site isnt blocked, he's in some kind of youth prison.
 
im in the united states. i got locked up in january and got sent to what they call "high rise". but i got released to a "training school" which is pretty much like a college campus where you get prison food, sleep in cells but you get a huge campus to walk around on. they have jobs and school and off campus visits with your parents after youve been here for 6 months. i take 8 hours every sunday and then ill b taking 3 days in a couple weeks
 
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