Hey everybody,
I'm kind of interested in everyone's take on drug treatment centers.
I myself have been to about 7 Treatment Center's (including outpatient program's) over the last five years, and have offten felt very skeptical as to there effectiveness. With most of my experiences in inpatient program's, halfway houses and outpatient's, I found that I usually left a worse (or better you could argue) addict than I had been when I was enrolled.
I've never been in treatment, but have been going to NA meetings for 6 months, 73 days clean - woop woop! I've only used 6 times in the last 6 months. I can understand your cynicism from your personal experience. I've seen a few times already where a guy in a recovery house decides to up and use and more or less takes the whole house down with him. I'm strongly suspicious that some of the kids who come to my home group are doing blasts of crack in the bathroom.
But i wanted to kind of pick on what you said about being "Skeptical to their effectiveness". This sounds like a normal comment/critique of programs in general, but to the addict who does not have an honest desire to stay clean, there IS no effective treatment. Reading between the lines that comment seems to be saying "I don't believe that detoxes/programs/sober houses are effective, because they did not provide me with a magic pill of insight and wisdom into the nature of addiction that would prevent me from ever using again" The way you phrase that makes it sound like a treatment program exists independent from the addict, and that it's a 1 way street from the program to the addict and if the program is 'effective' then the addict will not use.
Maybe i'm being too hard but...for me it's easy to break it down on paper. When you are in the grips of active addiction, your whole life and thinking centered on drugs, you need the next one to avoid feeling like shit etc. etc. Drug use is to the point that it is not really a choice. The consequences of NOT using are too dire, let alone the fact that you don't know another way. This is essentially out of your control, you must perpetuate the cycle.
Once you break the cycle, the decision to put a drug in your body or not IS a choice. It's your decision. If you want to put a drug in your body, and go back to the cycle of absolute misery that you just left, then do that. If you want a shot a better way of life, then don't. For me what works is that I need to be able to manage my life, and i don't believe i have a shot at doing that if i put a drug in my body.
Total abstinence...i could manage my life and drink 3 beers a night, sure. But as soon as i start leaving work early, half assing other things in my life because i'm looking forward to those 3 beers then i'm in line to start being depressed that my life isn't going as well as i want (boss/girlfriend upset, whatever), i'm not fulfilled like i would have been if i had been controlling the things that are in my control instead of looking forward to the 3 beers. So now i have 4 beers because i deserve 4 beers because woe is me everything sucks (lying to myself instead of realizing that i'm neglecting things that are in my control, that i chose not to control, that are now making me feel like shit).
So that cycle goes and i have 6 beers 1 night...maybe this is 3 years after i decided that it was ok to have 3 beers a night or even just now and again. So i have 6 beers, i wake up, i have a hangover, i use opiates. I didn't turn into a zombie, i did most of the things i had to do today, success...i can use opiates and booze and manage my life, it's not like it used to be - i got this. So i carry on like this until it becomes apparent that i was lying to myself from the first day that i told myself it was ok to leave work early or not clean my place or blow off a friend or whatever it was that i neglected in order to go have those first 3 beers.
That's the way i see me having 1 drink going.
Like i say it's a choice, however it will not feel like it if i am doing one of the following 2 things.
1.) Not handling things that are within my power to handle that are making me miserable.
2.) I'm letting myself feel miserable because of things that are not within my power to change.