Tried phoning one big Brum city centre dealer the other day. Was a different guy and he even asked me who I was, so I suspect the main guy's loaned out his number to a bash dealer like he did last year when the drought started up - apparently the new guy basically abused the trust of all the regular customers, saying 'this stuff's amazing' and it was total bash. The real guy came back on in about February/March time with decent stuff again, but it must've knocked his customer base as he's been spamming his offers via text once a week most of the year.
Anyway, guy I spoke to, when I asked how good it was, said 'its definitely not the best but you aren't gonna get better'. Fuck me...if even a DEALER, and not even one who's my mate by any means, is basically saying his gear's pure bash, it's NOT a good state of affairs...FFS >_<
Really trying to learn to get through life like a sane sober person, but my counsellor's just texted me to say she's ill and can't see me this week. Could REALLY fucking do without that right now, the drug centre are bloody useless, I told my worker all the disasterous shit I've been up to this past week (basically a lot of mixed downers and memory loss, amazed I didn't OD), she just gave me my script and booked me in for a fortnight, didn't say anything useful at all. Guess if it comes to it I could talk to my counsellor over the phone...