Regional Heroin Discussion v12 aka. Get yer junk out - Still no pricing please.

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This is not an impulsive decision but something I have been investigating and contemplating for several years
I fist thought of opting out (suicide) several years ago whilst on another attempted rattle
I think this is something that most users will find familiar
However,recently things have come to the position where I really don't want to go on-gear or not.
I have spent years investigating and assembling methods
I even played a big part in the apprehension of a an who was going online and persuading young people to kill themselves so that he could watch
I set up a 'sting' which outed him for who he was and what he was doing,which led to his conviction(this case is a precedent as there is no comparable case).If you google 'William Melchert Dinkel and Kat Lowe',you will see what I mean.It has been suggested that this may be something that could help my case in court.
Most of my suicidal thoughts were during times of abstinence-I think many get these thoughts in such a situation.
But with everything that has happened,at last,I feel ready,even when I have gear.
My kids are both at college/uni and I see them very rarely.
I don't think I have anything to lose.the one thing that has held me back is the idea that if i do it in jail my family should get a decent settlement.
I'm sure many of you will understand and not condemn

Hi Katt, i googled William Dinkel, he sounds like a real nasty piece of work! It was very brave of you to help stop him. Yes i'm sure stuff like that could indeed help your case.

I hope your ok, suicide comes hand in hand with depression. Is what your saying that when every time you stop using heroin you feel suicidal? Most people get very depressed when they stop using heroin & it seems that can last for a long time. What is the longest time that you have ever gone without heroin for? Maybe you have never given yourself long enough to recover?

Depression is a complexed thing, i too have suffered from bouts of depression, i'm sure you have seen a doctor for your depression but did the doctor give you the right advice? Different things work for different people, its a lot of trial & error before you get it right, you gotta find what works for you! But if & when you do stop using heroin you will have to expect to give it time before you start feeling in anyway normal again, it could be months or it could be a couple of years, but in time you will feel better.

I know that you have a lot on your mind with the court case hanging over you at the moment, but i have a really good feeling that things will work out ok for you with the court case. Hang in there.

You have two gorgeous kids who need you, life can be so hard at times, but remember thats just life, its a battle most of the time. But one thing thats for sure is we only get one chance at life, so its onwards & upwards!!! I hope your ok, i know you have a lot on your mind, if you ever need a chat then P.M. me. XXX

 

[Ghostface]

Has anyone heard from kkattastic ?

 

[kkattastic]

/\ Yeah, I had the 5mg physeptone pills while I was abroad (was afraid of breaking meth bottles in transit), just swallow them, no idea how long they take to kick in though, just been using them like normal script so felt nothing.

Kat - I can't say that killing yourself over lack of gear is ludicrous 'cos honestly since this drought's started up again my mind's been going there too, and honestly I always see it as a viable option if everything really goes to shit, but I think it's always worth trying your best to keep it as a LAST resort just because ANY other thing you try, you can change your mind in some way. Suicide is very final and none of us know for sure where we end up...and mums are very, very important things, I'm sure your kids would be heartbroken....
Also posting a message of intent of suicide on a message board kinda makes me wonder whether you genuinely want to die. You say you have BLers on FB, they could track you down in real life fairly easily I imagine and get paramedics to your house. I tend to think that those that want to die, not just need some change in their life, go off and do it quietly where no one can stop them... Think hard about your motivations, are you really ready to say goodbye to everything on earth forever?

Tbh,I always seem to get like that when I am rattling
I think a lotta people do
when I say rattling,I mean a proper detox attempt-after a few days with nothing but good intentions
also-i have been using suicide groups for several years and am aware of being traced as I have been before
so you just never give times/dates or too much personal info
and of course,I don't want to die-I just don't want to live this shitty life-sure you know what I mean

 

[kkattastic]

It wasn't that one mate , ! i won't send u it as i 'm sure that is the whole idea .
Its the old YOu can make ££££ working from home ,
the one that was once usually seen in the paper or advertised at the Post Office with a Phone NO. Its gone digital like .

In my gmail account,I often get spam mails from people that I know-except usually the names are slightly different to the ones I have in my contacts list
definitely some kinda spyware/malware shit-i would say,don't click on them-just mark as spam and delete

 

[charlie clean]

I know that you have a lot on your mind with the court case hanging over you at the moment, but i have a really good feeling that things will work out ok for you with the court case. Hang in there.

So do I, as it happens.

You hang on in there, Kat, if only to write from behind bars to tell us we're the most unpsychic pair you ever did meet.

I've known people who found their purpose in life in gaol; it's really not that bad. Clinical depression - when you can't laugh - is the worst head in the world, please don't go close.

 

[kkattastic]

It wasn't that one mate , ! i won't send u it as i 'm sure that is the whole idea .
Its the old YOu can make ££££ working from home ,
the one that was once usually seen in the paper or advertised at the Post Office with a Phone NO. Its gone digital like .

In my gmail account,I often get spam mails from people that I know-except usually the names are slightly different to the ones I have in my contacts list
definitely some kinda spyware/malware shit-i would say,don't click on them-just mark as spam and delete

 

[blondin]

Sorry very OT - but as I kinda 'know' you lot and dont know any other BL'ers in other forums I wanted to ask if anyone here has tried n,n,dmt. I have a good friend who has given me some I know all about it, read straussmans book etc but never actually smoked any. Any other ex physconauts out there that have and could feed back?

 

[pinkpapaver]

good luck dont let the bastards drag you down has they say, i can still get good but still expensive but bigger deals than last week
kat have you hard from pinky she is 12 mile from you last thing i heard it was all good in tha hood 4 her

hi ya im still here, think the strenghts going out of it all again yep, nearly a year since i noticed this drought thing, but it did go back alright for a while, its gone a bit weaker again, and think thats how its going to be.. i really hope it doesnt dry up like last year completely coz id rather have the choice to score or not to score

 

[pinkpapaver]

whoa good job i slowed down on the posting, i spent loads of time on here


really must get a new charger, now the clocks are going back at the weekend, and ive had a lil read thru all here, i miss you all terribly!!! i need you lot to help me thru the winter with or with out the gear!!! i have a warm old glow in my heart.....bless, ill be back asap love to u all

pinky xxxxx

 

[charlie clean]

Good to hear you're well and thriving - unlike yer Villa under their ginger turncoat manager.

At first look, thought your reason for editing read 'addiction'; well, sometimes you see what you see. Stay chipper.

 

[endlessnameless]

I hope you didn't take what i said yesterday to heart , i wasa bit nasty to you you seem like a good person, it was just i 've lost so much oveer the years that sometimes it can get to me , if you continue using for another 12/14 years whgich i hope you don't btw you 'd feel like it too sometimes.

Not at all Brimz, in fact I figured as much - you're not usually one to go off on a tirade like that. Its fine man, I'm used to people having a bit of a go at me in the Heroin Threads anyway. Thanks for "you seem like a good person" - I've been trying my best to be nice to people for the last 2/3 years as admittedly I didnt care about anyone but myself before that - being enveloped in my own misery - and so its nice that someone has noticed.

I hope I wont need to take opiates in any of my years following 30 - but if I do -then I'll stick to smoking the least amount necessary, as I've had a friend of mine pass away from an overdose in 2009 and that was a right kick in the fucking bollox. I'm sorry to hear of your losses friend; indeed I can empathise with you to an extent. I hope alls well with you today man, take care bro.

 

[brimz]

you do seem like a good sort, i meant it.

 

[5StarSquatHotel]

Proper fire in Bath for all of 2 days. Actually worked and gave a gouge after smoking a bag. Alas back to substandard shit now with feck all gear in it.

 

[brimz]

Proper fire in Bath for all of 2 days. Actually worked and gave a gouge after smoking a bag. Alas back to substandard shit now with feck all gear in it.

dif man i suspect than yer usual ,

 

[blondin]

Sorry OT again but OMFG N,N,DMT smoked some last night fucking unreal imagine peaking on three of the styrongest tabs youve ever had it lasts 15 mins then 10m later its as if nothing has happened - spice of the gods cant even to begin to explain what i saw but if u ever get the opportunity.....

 

[brimz]

theirs plenty of folk in EADD that luv it Coltdan n Mail monkey spring to mind havea natter with them blondin yo'll get more response out of the Hthreads mate

 

[xmitch00ukx]

had a good month managed to get weight of proper heroin for least 2-3 weeks of the month, nice gear to(ALTOUGH STOPPED AS FROM 5 DAYS BACK). prob not as it sud be but more then enough to get a nod from .3 on the foil, but it wasnt much of it, and not avaible to anyone else from my town. in fact for 1 year now im only 1 from my town who's managed to get proper heroin, tnks to my mate, to the best of my knowledge theres been no proper heroin landed in the south in a whoile yr, im lucky to know my mate, as i wud be in same boat as everyone else from my town. has anyone worked oiut yet what the fake heroin is? obv it has codine in it as get postive piss tests, also benzo;s always coming up to, even when get proper heroin, but again in 12months reckon I had 2-3 months worth of proper heroin , been 1 yr now and nothing really changing. every other dealer still coming up with the same shite. whats ur areaS LIKE?

ONE POINT THOUGH most peeps from my way had 1 yr of fake heroin now, that they think its proper stuff. only a handful understand that it isnt. its beggers belief that most peeps swear by the fake crap. i guess it does give u a buzz but its not a heroin buzz a weird buzz more of a fuzzy head buzz. not the warm glow that heroin gives ya

 

[griffin79]

But you know, its been so easy to get lately (and on lay for a week) that after I'm not bothering as much as I used to throughout the year. Last week I spent the least I have in months, and usually by this time in the week I'd owe out 60 but I just didn't bother today. I hope this keeps up. I'm going to try my best to abstain from scoring tomorrow too, but its difficult as even though I wont be sick, I'm bored out of my brain.

how long you smoking (you say over a year in this post)
it has to be the worst gear your getting or your the only person the does not get sick
don't get me wrong but im not having a go at you BUT I would love it to be able to smoke get stoned and not get sick. B4 my rx i would have to smoke the good stuff b4 the drought just so i wouldn't be sick every day! (would almost do anything to get that bag that was going to take that sickness away .... Im sure everyone here knows what i mean)
Would love to be able to do it like you smoke it for over a year and not be sick if you don't smoke it ..
Please answer me one question endless what's the longest you've gone whit out a smoke

 

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I would love it to be able to smoke get stoned and not get sick. B4 my rx i would have to smoke the good stuff b4 the drought just so i wouldn't be sick every day! (would almost do anything to get that bag that was going to take that sickness away .... Im sure everyone here knows what i mean)

Hi Griffin Yeah, it got like that for me as well over the last few years, i would have to smoke a €20 bag in the morning then one in the afternoon & one at night just to feel well, that was just enough to be able to function, it had gone past getting stoned, thats when you realize that the gear has a real hold on you, it cost me €60 a day just to feel well, & then more cash on top of that if i wanted to get good & stoned! Thank god for the methadone script, no amount of codeine would enable me to have any sort of a normal life!

The gear that is around now is strange stuff, it will hold me for a few hours without methadone, but i'd need to smoke a lot of it if i wanted it to hold me for the whole day, but the gear thats around is just too weak! I'm starting to just rely on my methadone now again!

Hows things your end Griffin? Any improvements? That new batch was a disappointment, it was better then what we had been getting, but its still no where good enough! Its not what i was getting before the drought. Its the same everywhere, i had been scoring a lot the last few weeks, i tried loads of different sources but they all had the very same gear! I can't see things getting back to normal this side of xmas, i can't understand it, so many good reports in the UK & things still fairly bad here! There is no shortage of gear over here, every Tom Dick & Harry is selling it, but its just not a good enough quality!!! I'm just sick of it at this stage, i'm sick of listening to myself going on about it, i think its just time to except that the gear in Ireland ain't gonna improve anytime soon, well not the way we remember it anyway!!!

 

[endlessnameless]

how long you smoking (you say over a year in this post)
it has to be the worst gear your getting or your the only person the does not get sick
don't get me wrong but im not having a go at you BUT I would love it to be able to smoke get stoned and not get sick. B4 my rx i would have to smoke the good stuff b4 the drought just so i wouldn't be sick every day! (would almost do anything to get that bag that was going to take that sickness away .... Im sure everyone here knows what i mean)
Would love to be able to do it like you smoke it for over a year and not be sick if you don't smoke it ..
Please answer me one question endless what's the longest you've gone whit out a smoke

Hello pal

what's the longest you've gone whit out a smoke

I'll answer any questions you have mate, I love writing on forums (especially about myself). If you mean apart from the 8/9 months I suffered through the drought (and I didnt get 'well' in that time, I just went back to exactly (no better but no worse, thank jaysis indeed) how I felt before I began self-medicating with opiates: suicidally depressed), then I would say no more than 1 week. You must remember though, that I was never one to smoke every day - my limit was set at three bags a week, which is what I think many people on here who cant seem to understand how I manage to sometimes avoid the sickness neglect to consider (even though anyone would think they've gone over my posts with surgical detail).

I didnt avoid the sickness today though, mind you. Oh no; I almost crawled up to my dealers car there just under 20mins ago. He even noticed himself, "first time I've ever seen you like this endless, mind yourself mate dont want to see you going under" or something like that. Is that not an unusual thing for a dealer of gear to say? Nice guy though, not what you'd expect from a so called 'dealer of death'.