endlessnameless
Bluelighter
Hi Endless!Yeah wouldn't it be a great feeling to have no methadone or anything in your system!!! I'm such a long way away from that that i can't even imagine what it would be like!
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Best of luck with your new sober life, you can do it mate! All the gear is rubbish anyway! Even the new improved batch of expensive gear is nothing as good as pre-drought, so you won't be missing much. But i do understand how hard it is to brake the habit. Maybe this girl can give you advice on how to get through this difficult time? Be honest with her, it sounds as if she's been through it all her self. She could probably give you good help & support! I know its hard, but you will feel better in time! At least you have something to look forward to! Once you stop using you'll be able to save the cash to go visit this girl!!!
Be-careful of the valum, i have a few mates who are totally strung out on valum & they say that the W.D' s are nasty! I know that they are probably helping you sleep, but try use them sparingly! Try and take a break from them every few days. Look after yourself mate, you'll get there! Your a young man with a bright future ahead of you!! Take Care & you know were i am if you need me! I'm always up late, so if you ever need a chat i'm there for you!![]()
Thanks a lot darls, thats a real help
Yeah day three now, in the mires of misery. 20mgs of valium a day and 64mgs of codeine just to make it tolerable, so its more of a taper rather than a straight cold turkey. A chap called me up today - said look I know you're kicking and in fairly bad form, falling out with friends and that, but I have two small q's here I can offer you for 30euros, just to get you through the hump if you want to taper with that...I deliberated, then said fuck it, go on. I would have had to have met him anyway to pay off a 20quid debt from a week ago, but he still hasnt answered my texts. He cant read though...so he usually just calls straight back. No call, however. Probably just as well I reckon.
Just dreading the major-depression I'm going to be faced with here on in really; the very illness that urged me towards opiates in the first place.
Ructions you say a batch landed? A certain source of mine is having severe difficulty getting weight at the moment - was supposed to come through on monday but still no word. Maybe its just because its all crap, really. I know one person holding nice enough stuff, but the bags just arent worth it. Are you scoring north or south? D...?

