Reflections and questions after first time LSD trip

[piku_playground]

I tripped on acid for the first time a few nights ago. I had been wanting to do it for about a year and finally someone had it in my town. I did it with five other close friends in my studio. I typed up a trip report, but I'm not sure how accurate it is as I can't remember the specifics too clearly. But my main concern in this post is to offer some reflections on LSD and questions on whether it is worth taking in the future.

Trip report:
http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?p=8348759#post8348759

Some facts about me:
I'm a 20 year old male. I've done mescaline once, 2c-i three times, mushrooms once (was 18 and had a horrific experience), DXM twice, LSA twice, MDMA around a dozen times.

I've always had anxiety issues. I constantly worry about things and rarely do I ever feel like I'm actually at ease when I'm sober. Bad trips have always been a big concern for me since I had a terrible mushroom trip when I was with some friends in Colorado. But I believe that bad experience was due to inexperience and that we were in a bad public environment. Every psychedelic trip I have had since then has been fantastic. I don't think I've come close to a bad trip since then but I haven't tripped that much.

I had wanted to do LSD for a while but was scared about its supposed "edginess." People seemed to say that I would enjoy it as I'm already a very analytical individual and it would enhance that perspective.

Reflections on first LSD trip:

I feel like the experience was cut into two very polar sides. The come up was beautiful, euphoric, charismatic, intelligent, analytical, sexual, feminine... Interestingly these seem to be some of the values that I want to incorporate into my personality in sobriety. I'm curious whether or not the acid brought out these desires into my tripping state.

The second half, or comedown, was very edgy. I had extreme difficulty interacting with my external world. I was nervous about the drug not going away and that I would never leave the state (I was able to convince myself against that point by remembering that it's just a drug.) But at the same time I was more concerned with LSD creating some negative personality change such as inability to communicate with others or relate. All of this anxiety was building on itself, especially when I knew I had to go to work in a few hours and that I would be on no sleep after taking lsd, smoking a lot of weed, and drinking alcohol.

I guess my concern is whether or not it is a good idea for me to take this drug again in the future. The come up seemed so fantastic, but I don't know if it was partly due to the drunken state I was in or just the overall enthusiasm to be tripping. I can't tell whether or not the experience benefited me or not. I do believe I was able to explore my subconscious mind in a deeper level, but I'm not sure if that is even a positive thing. Maybe it is better to remain at your constant state of self and not risk destroying foundations your personality is built on.

Yet I believe the negative comedown state could easily have been caused because I was on little sleep and was stressed out about having to work and not being able to just chill out during the last few hours. I also had experienced one of the most pessimistic and depressing days relating to my personality in the past few months. I was not in a good state of mind to be tripping and I normally know better.

Does anyone have opinions on whether or not it is a good idea for an introverted analytical person, who suffers from a lot of anxiety, to be doing LSD? Maybe it would be better for me to stick to more euphoric and natural substances such as mescaline and mushrooms.

I definitely underestimated the power of LSD. If I do it again I am going to be in a better state of mind and not have to do anything for the next 24 hours.

Regardless of whether I get some constructive opinions on my experience with lsd, I just needed to write some of this stuff out. I still feel very confused about the experience.

Thanks!

 

[EntheoDjinn]

.......... If I do it again I am going to be in a better state of mind and not have to do anything for the next 24 hours.

There's some really good advice right there

 

[yucatanboy2]

^ definitely good advice

Does anyone have opinions on whether or not it is a good idea for an introverted analytical person, who suffers from a lot of anxiety, to be doing LSD? Maybe it would be better for me to stick to more euphoric and natural substances such as mescaline and mushrooms.

I'm a pretty introverted analytical person too, but LSD is one of my faves. You have to give it respect, and have plenty of time to recover and re-integrate your experience with your reality, and think about the issues etc.

Set and setting are very important for acid, especially considering the long time of the experience.

I find you can't control it as much as Shrooms or MDMA, and you can't drown it away with alcohol and weed. If anything they seem to increase its power. LSD is always the stronger drug.

 

[stirfry]

Yet I believe the negative comedown state could easily have been caused because I was on little sleep and was stressed out about having to work and not being able to just chill out during the last few hours. I also had experienced one of the most pessimistic and depressing days relating to my personality in the past few months. I was not in a good state of mind to be tripping and I normally know better.

Having read your trip report, I would have to say that yes, all of these factors probably did contribute to the unpleasantness you experienced. I should note, I do enjoy having some alcohol during the trip (especially towards the end), It's just not a good idea to dose impulsively while already drunk. Having the after effects of being drunk while tripping is bound to be unpleasant, and decision making while under the influence of alcohol is likely very different than what you would consider while sober.

Does anyone have opinions on whether or not it is a good idea for an introverted analytical person, who suffers from a lot of anxiety, to be doing LSD? Maybe it would be better for me to stick to more euphoric and natural substances such as mescaline and mushrooms.

I don't think those traits make you incompatible with LSD. I would consider myself to be an analytical and introverted person, and LSD is one of my favorite substances. I have never tried mescaline, but I always found mushrooms to be an inherently more difficult and anxious trip when compared to lysergamides or phenylethylamines.

For your next trip, keep set and setting in mind. Be fully rested and free of obligations, do not dose while drunk or in emotional upheaval, and be in an environment and with company that you feel safe enough to expose your innermost thoughts and feelings without fear of judgment. Trips always are less enjoyable when you feel you must maintain composure so as not to embarrass yourself, and it's usually a loosing battle anyway. It's also nice to have a space avaiable to be alone for a while if you feel you need to.

be safe and have fun.

 

[piku_playground]

^ definitely good advice



I'm a pretty introverted analytical person too, but LSD is one of my faves. You have to give it respect, and have plenty of time to recover and re-integrate your experience with your reality, and think about the issues etc.

Set and setting are very important for acid, especially considering the long time of the experience.

I find you can't control it as much as Shrooms or MDMA, and you can't drown it away with alcohol and weed. If anything they seem to increase its power. LSD is always the stronger drug.

We were using weed I think more for expanding the trip or just combining the experience. I didn't smoke during the come down as I figured it would have given me more anxiety. The alcohol in the last couple hours of the trip was definitely to try and reduce the effects and attempt to sleep. I'm not sure if it had any noticeable effect though.

I'd really like to take acid outdoors I think. Most of my tripping experience has been the best when I'm outside, and I think it could be that way with acid.

I don't really see how people can trip by themselves on this drug. I've tripped on a 2c-i, dxm and lsa alone and had a lot of fun, but those drugs aren't as strong as lsd. It seems like having people around you would be beneficial for keeping some sense of reality. I know that's my own opinion, as many people specifically want to drop down the rabbit hole with psychedelics. Maybe I do as well, but in a way that is beneficial to my individual growth.