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Recovering from Ketamine Addiction

How does withdrawal from K look like? I personally never met anyone addicted to this stuff, which I personally dislike and consider it utter shit!
 
I was always against k i seen what it did to friends then i tried it and everything changes.This time last year i started hanging around with new group people 'serious k users' i became very close with 1 perticular girl i started hang out with her frequently her parents would go away often. We would buy a gram each i could make gram last while my addiction was low. After month i went from doing tiny lines to big lines . I enjoyed k holing i would sniff and sniff to feel that warm and fuzzy feeling. I would go to work doing 24 hr shifts would kill me all i could think about was going home getting gram or 2 and getting ketted up. I begun to hang around with group people 'k heads' i begun to disconnect myself from family my boyf at the time and what i call normal non addict friends. My family got suspicious i told them i had a weed problem they believe i broke up with my boyf i was free to snort k as much as i want. I would sniff ketamine everyday i lived for it my tolerance got high i begun to sniff more and more. I constantly had water infections n kidney infections it hurt to pass urine but i didnt care. My apparence was awful i didnt care about myself i use to weight 9st 4 im 5ft 10 i dropped down to 8st 4 i lost a stone my ribs were visble i had sunken eyes dark circles i would only manage small bowl cereal and pasta a day. I would buy grams and sniff them alone survive on 3hours sleep a day. I met some1 non k head he smoked weed heavy i saw nothing wrong with sniffing grams infront him that lasted month he couldnthack my k relationship. I then met my boyf of 6 months now he changed my life he was 1st person 2 understand me and my addiction. I stopped in november 2012 its been hardest 5months of my life i had to ditch my friends to get away from k i live with 2 friends 1 is a k addict im finding it hard to fight with my mind i think about k everyday but i remeber what i willoose,family,friends&my saviour my boyf. K destroys the mind body n soul its highly addictive . U can give up ditch ur k crew. X x
 
Congratulations Keti!

12-step programs saved a lot of people. It is a good program, overall, and it did help me in my teen years combating my poly-drug abuse. It is a good way to learn about yourself and your shortcomings. It's a wonderful opportunity to meet cool peeps. Still, it's not the ONLY method imho for all drug abusers to attain sobriety or to better control his/her use.

I've gradually came to the realization that drug abuse is induced by an immature and egotistical personality AND by the spellbinding power of the drugs of abuse themselves - i.e., when you do too much of an abusable psychotropic drug, your brain is literally modified by the drug in such a way that your thought processes become obsessively concerned with the acquisition and consumption of the drug; in other words, repeated exposure to a drug of abuse creates obsession. 12-step programs sure are helpful for people who never really admitted or recognized their psychological shortcomings, and the forced sobriety, one day at a time, gradually dissipates the drug's spell on the brain, so the person's will becomes more independent simply with the passing of sober time (i.e., no Higher Power is involved).

I also believe that many psychological disorders are corrected or somehow better controlled as a person gets older, acquires experience and survives traumas. For example, shrinks observed that schizophrenia or autism are sometimes almost cured when the person ages. And we all know that serial killers usually retire when they reach their forties or fifties... I think that the ''drug abuse'' psychological disorder can be compared to other pathologies of the mind involving emotional immaturity, egotism, social phobias, etc.

Total abstinence and belief in a Higher Power is a proven method, maybe the only method for many drug abusers, yet it ain't the only way to solve a drug problem. True, some drug abusers only get worse with time, others kind of ''grow out of it'' with emotional maturity. Some of us, totally on their own, without the help of God or the belief in a mysterious ''allergy'' to drugs, do learn to control their use or completely stop using certain substances.

Just wanted to add my 2 cents... Again, I respect 12-step programs and recognize their value. But if you have an overwhelming ''allergy'' to that method, don't think you are screwed and doomed. It's not only the hospital, a prison cell or death outside of NA meetings... Time heals a lot of things, and maturity may simply be a better knowledge of oneself and a more rational belief in one's own powers and limitations.

PS Well, I don't know if Keti is still active... Anyway, I felt a need to talk about 12-step programs... Sorry if I'm a bit off topic.
 
Thanks guys!
I had to come to the realisation and concede to my inner most self that there would never be enough for me and that i would die in the persuit.
´1 is too many and 1000 never enough.´ I had to accept this in order to surrender and ask for help to work the 12 steps.
It has been a battle but i only have to not use drugs one day at a time and have a good network of support.
I have now got what i was searching for in drugs from recovery, peace with self, confidence, freedom and happiness.

Some drugs are more addictive that others ie. heroin is very easy to become addicted to but once you have got off them if you are not an addict you probably won´t do it again.
An addict has no choice they are pre-disposed to do drugs whether they want to or not and thus have to find a solution.. mine was 12 steps.
:) Rock on!

you are so right, if you have an addictive personality you will always take it to the extreme, it was always something for me, starting a stephen king book and not putting it down toill 700 pages later, playing a stupid game all my frineds played called runescape lol good times, and playing for literaly 10 12 hours a day with a full time job, opi,s / now i make music wellllll rap so some people might not believe it as music, but i am hoping i can throw myself into this if rather be addicted to rap, then opis, its been about 6 days so far, with only maybe 4 tramadol and 3 zanax to get me through, plus lope, and only like 6 mg a day at that, today i have a chance to score, and i went for it , luckily the connect never showed up, i was pissed at the time cause just thinking about it put me into some withdrawal feelings, but now im feeling a little better, and didnt use,
 
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