Harambulus
Greenlighter
Skip the preamble if you like.
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So in the past I have had a 4 months cycle where Id get really depressed and down at my slavish lifestyle and take stimulants for a high and end up feeling worse for the comedown, swearing myself off drugs and being t-total for 4 months then once again Id feel so low I felt I had to escape somehow and so the cycle continued.
Now Im thinking taking stims to alleviate depression was prob a stupid idea as they would aggravate the situation manyfold- so Ive been thinking about what alternatives there are.
Im very happy with my overall life situation in that im where i want to be going its just that everything i do from day to day doesnt produce results in the shortterm ie it isnt providing a positive feedback loop. Ie i work for myself but its taking a long time to see anything substantial from it so I wonder why what the point is after many hurdles. Likewise playing violin- a positive thing for sure but its alot of work before i get to a decent level of playing and that too is often a grind. As such I consistently find myself in a rut wondering why im doing anything as everything becomes like a drudge.
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Considering my options in the past taking antidepressants seems ridiculous to me due to the side effects and the long term nature of you having to take some kind of foreign thing in your body. I want something to just 'reset' my mind and so i can appreciate my day to day and my place in the world and that. I dont want anything mind blowing either as I shit myself at powerful experiences these days. I just want something mild and gentle to 'get me back on track'.
So I was thinking rather than stims maybe some kind of dissociative or MILD psychedelic. Emphasis here on mild.
Also I want something which is forgiving dose wise- I am terrified by the idea of <10 mg doses due to possible slips.
So a couple of things spring to mind now after thinking and doing some research. Ketamine or one of it's relatives flashed in my mind but I have tried that a cpl times and really don't like its sterile and barren nature. DXM was a thought for an easy to get dissociative but again don't really fancy that due to the dirty feeling it gave if I recall correctly. Magic mushrooms since its mushroom season has crossed my mind though due to stupid law I dont really like the idea of trapsing to the country and back with a class A substance
so thats kind of salted that idea.
Ive been looking up 2-cc and it seems it might be just what the doctor ordered (shrooms lite from what Ive read) in that I could attain it discreetly and it seems quite lenient dose wise and also the effects seems very mild and gentle and a shortish duration which is just up my st. I just want a quick excursion to see some nice sights and back in time for dinner
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Any other suggestions? 2-cc really seems to take the cake as far as I can see.
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So in the past I have had a 4 months cycle where Id get really depressed and down at my slavish lifestyle and take stimulants for a high and end up feeling worse for the comedown, swearing myself off drugs and being t-total for 4 months then once again Id feel so low I felt I had to escape somehow and so the cycle continued.
Now Im thinking taking stims to alleviate depression was prob a stupid idea as they would aggravate the situation manyfold- so Ive been thinking about what alternatives there are.
Im very happy with my overall life situation in that im where i want to be going its just that everything i do from day to day doesnt produce results in the shortterm ie it isnt providing a positive feedback loop. Ie i work for myself but its taking a long time to see anything substantial from it so I wonder why what the point is after many hurdles. Likewise playing violin- a positive thing for sure but its alot of work before i get to a decent level of playing and that too is often a grind. As such I consistently find myself in a rut wondering why im doing anything as everything becomes like a drudge.
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Considering my options in the past taking antidepressants seems ridiculous to me due to the side effects and the long term nature of you having to take some kind of foreign thing in your body. I want something to just 'reset' my mind and so i can appreciate my day to day and my place in the world and that. I dont want anything mind blowing either as I shit myself at powerful experiences these days. I just want something mild and gentle to 'get me back on track'.
So I was thinking rather than stims maybe some kind of dissociative or MILD psychedelic. Emphasis here on mild.
Also I want something which is forgiving dose wise- I am terrified by the idea of <10 mg doses due to possible slips.
So a couple of things spring to mind now after thinking and doing some research. Ketamine or one of it's relatives flashed in my mind but I have tried that a cpl times and really don't like its sterile and barren nature. DXM was a thought for an easy to get dissociative but again don't really fancy that due to the dirty feeling it gave if I recall correctly. Magic mushrooms since its mushroom season has crossed my mind though due to stupid law I dont really like the idea of trapsing to the country and back with a class A substance
so thats kind of salted that idea. Ive been looking up 2-cc and it seems it might be just what the doctor ordered (shrooms lite from what Ive read) in that I could attain it discreetly and it seems quite lenient dose wise and also the effects seems very mild and gentle and a shortish duration which is just up my st. I just want a quick excursion to see some nice sights and back in time for dinner
.Any other suggestions? 2-cc really seems to take the cake as far as I can see.
