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Really scared help me

scaredgrl said:
Oh and I should mention this I did have a headache before even doing the acid but I assumed it was sinus pressure from the dry air. Could doing the acid have made something that I already had wrong with me worse?
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Yes, yes and yes. Especially if what you had wrong with you was psychological. I know that OCD is a contraindication for psychedelic use, unless you have a therpaist who is skilled in this type of therapy. Relax, talk with your counselor/therapist, eat healthy and get your body movin! Also, try NOT to dwell or ruminate (sp?) on the event as it could make your symptoms worse. Just remember you took a drug and now you need to nurse your body and mind back to health. Good luck and come here whenever you need support <3
 
I am certain now that my lsd use has triggered a panic disorder in me. As soon as I wake up in the morning I start having chest pain and obsessing over my breathing. I am sure that this has caused me to have heart palpitations which frightens me even more. My muscles tense up almost all day long. The muscles in both of my feet and my hands. The really scary thing is the head pain that I am still experiencing. It is on the right side above my temple and sometimes goes down into the right side of my face.It gets really tight and kind of numb...It causes my head to feel so so heavy and my teeth to clench up.The other day I was enjoying some time outside and actually relaxed for a bit then suddenly on the way back in the car I had the worst panic attack that I have had so far. My whole body was numb and tingly, I was totally disoriented and I tried to speak and my voice was so faint. I thought I was dying for real that time. I have never had an attack where it affected my speech, it was terrifying.I did not go to the ER though --so I made some progress there. I have been to the ER 3x since all of this started and I am not going there again. The doctors are understandably pissed when I do. So I calmed myself to my normal state of anxiety when i got back home. I have been trying to relax by different breathing techniques and such and it does seem to help temporarily.Panic and anxiety aside is there anyone else that has experienced head pain and muscle spasms for this long after taking lsd? I am relating it to the lsd because the pain is in the exact same place as it was that night. As it was taking over my mind it seemed to move from the left side of my brain and then it stopped right on this spot. I had intense pain here when that happened and I grabbed my head in total agony. It hasn't gotten as bad as that since but it is in the exact same spot.It also feels like my ear on the right side is filled with water and will not drain...Sometimes I swear that I can still taste the lsd. Is it just my anxiety?
 
My boyfriend was there and he heard that my voice sounded weird also. I don't think that alcohol is the solution, due to the fact that I am currently taking benzodiazepines. I realize that I am over analyzing these things, but they truly did happen and continue to happen.I do try to take my mind off of things, but the headache symptoms still persist, even when I am 'relaxed'. I know that I do not have control over my anxiety at this point, I just wanted to know if anyone else has had pain/pressure that lasted over a month after using lsd. And it feels like i have swimmers ear. I have been trying to get my ear to pop and it just wont. There is still that pressure there and that is bothersome to me. It is definitely real, it may be exaggerated due to my anxiety but it is real.
 
I get the feeling, it's usually caused by anxiety and stress, considering the experience you went through I wouldn't worry, just wait it out. Anxiety can cause alot of symptoms, including pressure, "swimmers ear" like you mentioned and sometimes even mild visual distortions. Those are completely normal and can't hurt you. You're system is just a little confused from it all. Try to take some time off and avoid stress.
 
I find kava more effective for panic attacks and anxiety then benzo's. PGN kava is imo the most potent, and can be purchased on the net for about 50 a pound...a pound is alot of kava, and will last a long time.

Worth checking out.
 
It does kind of sound like a DOx with the long duration. I hope you feel better soon. Time heals all wounds.
 
It is not LSD bro that is a DOx compound for sure...unless... Anyways, Similar story, similar problems, different drugs.
One time I took 5 bunk "ecstasy" pills (more like piperazine) and freaked the hell out for days. Sure, the drug was supposed to wear out a long time ago, but for the next month I kept getting very, very scary panic attacks and I always had that weird electric pain in my head... I know what you are talking about. It is fear and turmoil taking over you... It is an endless mind cycle and it really makes you think that there is something wrong with you but here I am 2 years later and I feel better than I ever have in my life...(credits to MXE)

I assure you that if you can just ride through it and be healthy for a while, it will go away and in the end you will have learned and benefited from it all, as long as you listen to what this experience is trying to tell you!
 
scaredgrl, it is not good idea in general to prescribe some solutions over Internet. but sometimes our problem get exaggerated exactly because of us did not getting adequate help. that said, I believe that some milder doses of buspirone may be exactly what you need at the moment. but ask your doc first.
 
Ok so I know what is causing me this extreme anxiety now. I am trying to grasp onto my ego. I feel totally detached from my body and everything is very intense. The person I was before was constantly overcome with compulsive thoughts. I was overcome by my past thoughts and fears of the future. Now there is nothing there. It is terrifying. I feel like I am a newborn and I am now just experiencing everything. I feel like I want that old person back, that that is who I was and that I have lost myself forever. It is almost too intense to be awake,I cannot look into the mirror because I don't think that person is the real me. Why do other people go back into their ego so quickly after a trip and I cannot get a grip on reality?I need some help...I feel like a zombie, detached from this world and just an observer. It has been a month exactly since I took that extreme dose of lsd, and I still cannot get a grip. I am seriously considering checking myself into a mental hospital, but I wonder what they could even do for me.If anyone feels like they can help me please help me.
 
I feel like I am dealing with loss of ego, post traumatic stress disorder, extreme anxiety and panic. I also had been self medicating myself with marijuana and other substances for about 4 years, all day everyday.I am now completely sober as I have stopped taking the benzos because they did not help me. I know that is a major part of what is going on here and not the lsd trip. Please message me if you think you can help me I would greatly appreciate any advice on how to snap back into reality and not have to fight going into a dream world constantly.
 
I know that are true selves are not our ego but do we not need our ego to get us through daily life? I want my ego back desperately..I am very scared that I will never come back to reality :'(
 
Well I went into the hospital Saturday and the doctor and social worker both thought that I should be admitted...but there was no room! No beds there or at their affiliate hospital the next town over. So basically after 5 hours of waiting they sent me home with some xanax. Pretty much you don't have to go home, but you can't stay here type of deal happened. The xanax has calmed me down a lot..I was actually able to get some housework done that day. I was still feeling very detached and just so miserable still though. I decided to take some celexa that I have had for a couple years but never took it because I didnt want to be on a pill everyday..It has helped tremendously already.I was really scared to take anything at all after this whole ordeal but i feel that ssri's are pretty safe.It still doesn't stop me from worrying about side effects and things like that. I guess that I am just severely depressed and have a bad case of panic and fear. So I am now on celexa and xanax and feeling much better. The xanax has calmed me down so so much better than the ativan. I am kind of pissed that my doc didn't give me it from the start!!And I am going to continue taking an ssri...it has made me feel like myself again. I hope that it will continue to work for me..I never want to feel that depressed again in my life. There are still times when my heart starts beating out of my chest and i get twitchy and jerky. It is crazy that my thoughts alone are causing these physical symptoms...makes you feel like you are your own worst enemy...I am going to be seeing a therapist two times a week starting tuesday. I really hope I can stop these physical things from happening to me, it is very bothersome for a thought to cause sharp pains in your head or cramps, and muscle spasms.
 
I think that my ego did come back shortly after the trip but since I didn't have the pot there I was forced to deal with things that I have ignored for a long time. I was thinking the lsd caused some kind of permanent damage but it was just so intense being sober and not really knowing who I was.It is still very hard and through medication and therapy I am hoping to get myself back...
 
You might look into depersonalization.....I don't know if you're detached/dissociated from your sense of self in a physical sense or just in the way you think but it sounds like depersonalization.
 
I felt your situation so interesting that I created this account to share my thoughts on your experience.

I have had a very seasoned experience with many different psychedelics in their countless shapes and sizes.. and I've helped a few close friends through a similar situation to what you are describing.. which was induced by what could be considered an extremely irresponsible dose of the synthetic cannabinoid, JWH-018.

I would suggest, if you can get a hold of it, 1 - 1.5 mg doses of APO-LORAZEPAM (as needed) to counteract your anxieties. What I have described this post-trip psychosis in the following manner;

Your brain, mind, consciousness, state of being.. what ever you would choose to label it, Is a muscle much like the ones we use everyday in our bodies. Our brain has existing psychoactive receptors, that are working to receive the psychedelic metabolite.. Much like the processes carried out within us when we work out physically..

What your describing.. seems like you put to much stress on that particular muscle.. and like other muscles put in relative situations, the muscle will tear or rip and require rest and rehabilitation.

I would suggest NOT engaging in ANY sort of mind challenging drug use, use only Lorazepam which will remove feelings of anxiety, and allow you to sleep. Also i recommend the natural extract "Ginko Biloba" to regulate your mood and cognition.
These are the only chemicals you should be ingesting for at least 2 months.

Stay away from mental health clinics, they do not understand spirituality, and will not permit you to remain in society if they believe you will relapse on any form of psyche.
Drug culture is frowned upon and criticized wrongfully. Do not seek help from these types of establishment.. seek help from those who have actually EXPERIENCED what you are right now.

Hope this helps.

-"Mostasteless"
 
Well your symptoms sound *exactly* like mine - pressure sensation, ear blockage feeling, panic attacks, everything. Had them for a year now following one particularly drug heavy summer.

Good news is, nothing is physically wrong with you. Its just anxiety. Tripping again has helped - facing the sources of the fear. Address the root issues head on and the resulting symptoms will go away.

EDIT: re-read some of your posts. Would not recommend tripping again until you have a firm grip again on reality. It will come with time; just keep yourself distracted, get on with things, make progress in external activities.
 
Yes Kah8, I am aware that it was an extremely high dose, thanks bro...............I am starting to feel better...I played a video game for the first time since this all started today and did not freak out. I could actually get into the game without the fear of losing my mind. I saw a counselor for the first time last week but didn't really feel comfortable with her. You are very right that as soon as you mention drug use they change there attitude with you. I told her about my past drug use and she said 'how did you manage to take care of your daughter; like I was some terrible person with my kid being neglected or something. The people at the hospital acted like I am was junkie too. No more hospital visits for me, they are pretty clueless and condescending about this kind of thing. When this all started I was prescribed ativan by the doctor, was on that for about two weeks, it did sedate me but did not stop my fear and panic. Well after going to the hospital 4 times this past month, having an MRI, numerous EKG's and almost being admitted(they didn't have any room that night)l i think i have found a combination that will work for me- for now.So I have been taking xanax as needed(needed a lot) throughout the day for my anxiety which has helped me get a grip.TRUST me I had been afraid to take ANYTHING at all,do not like the idea of being medicated, and even freaked out from taking a melotonin, but i need these medications right now-I cannot do it on my own! At this point becoming dependent is a non issue for me. I will just have to deal with the withdrawals if and when I am ready to stop..Also I had started celexa on my own that i just had laying around which seemed to help. The celexa really increased my energy and I felt interested in things again, felt 'with it' and not in some other world. The doctor said that he wanted me to try zoloft because he could have more range on increasing the dosage over time;I started that yesterday and am feeling like crap again. It has helped with my anxiety in a way(muscles calmed down) but made me extremely zonked, disassociated again, and very depressed.I now know through my own research that zoloft has been known to cause panic attacks and other nasty SE when first starting out for the first months THANKS DOC! So I have been on zoloft yesterday and today -25mg-..the only reason I took it again today was because my boyfriend insisted that i just follow what the doctor said.Tomorrow I am taking the celexa!!I guess I just have to take this in my own hands and do what makes me feel the best not the doctor.As for trying natural supplements(Mostasteless) I have been researching that also. I was wondering about 5-htp and if it would help me better than an ssri..I will look into the Ginko Biloba also and I have been taking vitamins all along.Thank you for your responses, this has been one of the hardest times of my life, I thought that I had anxiety before...It was never like this.Now I truly know what it is like to be out of your mind. I wonder if this is something that I will have to deal with forever...idk...I do know this LSD is not to be messed with if you have serious mental conditions already, those things need to be worked out beforehand...I always wanted more...more drugs, never high enough, boy have i learned my lesson. I am mad at the person that gave me the lsd and suggested that we do more when we thought it wasn't working.....they had a fine time.Never trust anyone when it comes to things like that.
 
scaredgrl said:
I do know this LSD is not to be messed with if you have serious mental conditions already, those things need to be worked out beforehand...I always wanted more...more drugs, never high enough, boy have i learned my lesson. I am mad at the person that gave me the lsd and suggested that we do more when we thought it wasn't working.....they had a fine time.Never trust anyone when it comes to things like that.
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This right here is the beauty of LSD in my opinion, even a highly traumatic experience can, and often will lead to highly positive revelations.
Try and remember that at the end of the day you got something good out of what must have been a terrifying experience, the ability to take something positive from something negative is a good one :)

And yeah fuck that person who said take another one. If it was the person who sold it to you I hope they get theirs, honestly if you're going to sell potent tabs you have a responsibility to inform people and at the very least encourage them to be safe. I've had those tabs, they're big time creepers.

Hope everything works out for you. Keep your head up.
 
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