Ok well here it goes first time posting in SLR.
So basically my girl of over 4 years left me a couple months ago and i am broken.
I know it is all my fault as i was never able to kick dope while i was with her but i still somehow thought she would stay with me (stupid me)
I was never bad to her while we were together but i guess i did irpariable damage while we were together.
She actually broke up with me right when i got clean which really fucked me up cuz i couldnt understand y she would break up with me right when i was about to get out of a court ordered 1 year inpatient rehab.
We wound up getting back together after i got out but the relationship just never felt the same to me something always just felt off eventho i think im a idiot and it was just me not her.
So a few months after that one day i was really high and she just had enough and broke up with me and that was it.
Since that day we have bin broken up and she has now found a new bf that she has bin with for a few months which makes me feel like she left me for him cuz of the timing.
If that is what she did i do not blame her i mean she is a yound beautiful amazing woman and i never could understand how she can be with a junkie like me it kinda made me feel like she nuts.,
Point os this post is i am so broken i duno what to do with myself. At first i just did alot of dope and tried not to think about it but eventually the dope just started making me feel more depressed about the whole situation since that was the cause of all my hardships.
So i have no clue how to get over someone since this is my first relationship where someone has broken up with me and i am 27 now soon to be 28.
Any advice would be really helpful and not the simple things like go out and find a new girl cuz that is not what i am interested in right now i was banging a porn star 2 weeks after we broke up and she just didnt do it for me i kept thinking bout how my ex is so much hotter and evreything but i dont even think that is the truth in real life my ex was not that hot.
To me tho i would pick her over any victoria secret model fuck man im so broken it hurts and im trying to stay clean which makes it so much harder.
I even did ibogaine but i feel like my head was so fucked up stuck on my ex that she is all i thought about thru the process and couldnt really focus on anything else.
So basically my girl of over 4 years left me a couple months ago and i am broken.
I know it is all my fault as i was never able to kick dope while i was with her but i still somehow thought she would stay with me (stupid me)
I was never bad to her while we were together but i guess i did irpariable damage while we were together.
She actually broke up with me right when i got clean which really fucked me up cuz i couldnt understand y she would break up with me right when i was about to get out of a court ordered 1 year inpatient rehab.
We wound up getting back together after i got out but the relationship just never felt the same to me something always just felt off eventho i think im a idiot and it was just me not her.
So a few months after that one day i was really high and she just had enough and broke up with me and that was it.
Since that day we have bin broken up and she has now found a new bf that she has bin with for a few months which makes me feel like she left me for him cuz of the timing.
If that is what she did i do not blame her i mean she is a yound beautiful amazing woman and i never could understand how she can be with a junkie like me it kinda made me feel like she nuts.,
Point os this post is i am so broken i duno what to do with myself. At first i just did alot of dope and tried not to think about it but eventually the dope just started making me feel more depressed about the whole situation since that was the cause of all my hardships.
So i have no clue how to get over someone since this is my first relationship where someone has broken up with me and i am 27 now soon to be 28.
Any advice would be really helpful and not the simple things like go out and find a new girl cuz that is not what i am interested in right now i was banging a porn star 2 weeks after we broke up and she just didnt do it for me i kept thinking bout how my ex is so much hotter and evreything but i dont even think that is the truth in real life my ex was not that hot.
To me tho i would pick her over any victoria secret model fuck man im so broken it hurts and im trying to stay clean which makes it so much harder.
I even did ibogaine but i feel like my head was so fucked up stuck on my ex that she is all i thought about thru the process and couldnt really focus on anything else.