Spent all afternoon in the hospital, doing what I've been putting off. I didn't respond to the anti-biotics they gave me, and i've been putting off going back as I knew they'd need to operate.
I go back in the morning to be operated on to remove a pretty bad and very infected abscess. Incision and drain they called it. I've been drawn on with black marker, had to have an X-ray, been poked and prodded, heard myself been talked about as if I wasn't there. It took 15 minutes to find a vein on me they could take blood from,i'm that ruined.
You know what hurts, I've not had one text or contact from friends in Bristol offering me support, I could have really done with it. I'm terrified of being put to sleep.
So, my bag is packed, i'm off to lie down. get cosy and watch films as I just can't take the pain anymore. Being in constant pain is actually so draining. I can't wait until it's gone.
Wish me luck. I really am scared and it's worse doing it on my own.