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Random MSN Gibberings LXIX: Open your mouth, here's your money

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Sounds like everyone's having a bit of a wobbly Sunday :\ Love to you all <3

It turned out not being too sad today actually, infact I was reminded of many happy memories :)
Plus...... wait for it.....



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I found and got to keep my old NES that I used to play at my great Aunt's!!!!! :D
With games like Super Mario Bros. 3, Double Dragon 2 and The Advertures of Link, I'm well chuffed ^_^
Mannnnn all the kids at skool are gunna be sooooo jealous =D

It's been a good day so far, considering :) It is now time for a cuppa, some meds and a bit of a lie down to recover.
 
What up Monsta ?
Thats some proper sunday entertainment u got their ! I was in the states when street fighter 2 came out , can u imagine8o It was crazy every machine everywhere in Cali was always occupied .
I don't think their will ever be agame like it EVER=D
 
Brimz - Yea indeed ;) Me and my mates used to sit around, get really stoned and play Street Fighter Alpha 3 for hours... Like the right sad bastards we were / still are =D

Chinup - It did yea :) I was expecting it to further depress me and sadden me but there were just loads of things to trigger happy memories that it never really occurred.
Sorry to hear about the argument and yer Mr's predicament <3 Are things a bit more chilled now?
 
Just been down the pub for a few pints, at home now, had a few lines of mxe feeling proper messy!
 
joe90 said:
Sam Im never sure how to say your user name.By the way "samhain" pronounced sowen is the word for a week in the Irish gaelic language.Hello also :-)
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I pronounce it 'sowen' too, and even though it was the band Samhain that inspired it I was aware of the Irish origins.

I'm quite happy to have it shortened to Sam, Sammy G, SG or whatever though. 'Sow' would be a bit controversial.;)

Hello to you too. :)

Monsta - really glad you found more happiness than sadness. Like I said, it can go either way or indeed both but you sound upbeat, which is good.
 
monstanoodle said:
Brimz - Yea indeed ;) Me and my mates used to sit around, get really stoned and play Street Fighter Alpha 3 for hours... Like the right sad bastards we were / still are =D

Chinup - It did yea :) I was expecting it to further depress me and sadden me but there were just loads of things to trigger happy memories that it never really occurred.
Sorry to hear about the argument and yer Mr's predicament <3 Are things a bit more chilled now?
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my boyf still sits around playing some sort of street fighter alpha for hours on end.

sounds like your brain was able to process it v positively, well done.

not really. i feel like a total bitch but i'm just fucking fed up. i've told him he can look for a job the way most people without a computer have to, from the local library. that was 2 hours ago and he's still not left, it shuts at 5. its self defeating cos i know i'll end up bailing him out and miss out on stuff cos i wont be able to afford it if he doesn't find some sort of income. he makes me feel taken for granted ridiculously, wont even give me my computer when he's just been sat on shuryken for hours sometimes. so now i just want him to regret all his fucking about and realise that what's mine is not fucking his.
 
SamhainGrim said:
Well make sure you're in a happy mood for the Swans. ;)

Oh dont worry I'll be careful on that one, last year I sat in the car on the sode of the road for the best part of an hour listening to Creep by Radio Head and crying...not going back to that back hole.

I've listened to a few of the Swans tracks you posted up they sounded quite melodic compared to TG or PTV but then they scare the feck outs me at times:D

I really stopped listening to music enough so making a bit of an effort, enjoying a bit of TackHead at the moment, saw the drummer Keith Leblanc live way back and he blew my mind playing part normal drums and part drums linked to samplers in about '89.

I listen to this now and you can see how far ahead of his time he was (recorded in '86!)

Keith LeBlanc - Major Malfunction
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Gahhh that's rubbish :\ I'm sorry hun <3
You've a right to be angry, and it does sound like he's having a bit of a sulk, though it's possible that he'll be worrying like fuck about what he's going to do.
Sudden change like losing a job can knock some people for 6.
Hopefully you'll both sort things out soon.
 
That is pretty innovative stuff, atm. Reminds me of Ministry without the screaming and more syncopation. I'm impressed!

As for Swans - they had their 'scary' period and then their croony period. Which was still scary, but with more melody and fewer chains being banged on steel tables.
 
^^^

Sounds right up my street, have an empty house at the mo, but going to put a bit of Asian Dub Foundation on, they always give me a bit of lift....I'd play them in the car but I dont tink I got da Rims for it blood
 
he will be worrying like fuck what to do. and my stupid brain can't sympathise with him. i was worrying about this a month ago and fucking begging him to get on it and my brain just gets stuck on 'well if he'd have just done what i told him to he wouldn't be in this mess.' i feel like such an absolute dick, why can't i just get past anger and resentment and do what i can to support him now? because i feel totally taken the piss out of, but thats not really a good excuse. i don't need to forgive him for fucking about in order to support him now but somehow thats not computing in my brain. i've done everything i can, found jobs for him to apply for, taken affirmative action to get his computer fixed, for free, and now, when it really matters, i'm getting in his way.

truth is i'm petrified and i don't know what to do. i have never ever faced real poverty before and i can't cope with the prospect. i think i can get us to november before i literally can't support us both and by that time i'll have missed out on going to visit a friend in cairo, which will build massive resentment, and i'll have probably absolutely fucked my phd because i'm clearly already breaking down from this stress.

i know part of me losing it is just lack of sugar too, i've had one piece of toast in the last 24 hours and had one sandwich in the 24 hours before that, but i feel too sick even after my nausea meds.
 
Get some Luco, chinny. Or at least a beer. Don't tread that road, nausea or nay.

I don't know - how's your boyfriend's self-esteem? As Monsta says, it can crush people when they lose their job.

I'm guessing he's a young 'un too? So he has to deal wih his mid-twenties and that special brand of disillusionment and angst that accompany those years.

Still, you don't need extra stress just now, so...

Relationships? Fuck 'em.
 
Don't start beating yourself up Chinny. I know all too well how that can be "rather difficult" sometimes though.
You've done a lot for him and if he can't see that then... I dunno, he should get a butler.


Gotta take the bad with the good though ay Sam? :)
 
Oh, very true. I'd just rather bury myself in a steel box deep below the earth than ever get emotionally inolved again. So don't take much of my advice on board. As if. :)
 
his self esteem is absolutely fucked. his ma sorted that one out by blaming all her problems on him, in spite of the fact she's been an alcoholic since before he was born.

and yeah, the dissolusionment is difficult. we're all promised if you just get a degree you'll do fine. he's got a degree and his mates who don't and just worked from 18 are in much better jobs with higher pay than he can even applied for.

went for the beer calories. good old beer. kinda want the fucking awesome drug that is starvation right now, i figure even with drinking beer i can probably get to the nice fuzzy numbness within the week. which of course is a really productive thing to do....

turns out me forcing him to go to the library was a really good thing- firstly they have a job opening there, and secondly he's well chuffed with all their free facilities, which will come in handy now he's got some time on his hands.
 
Hey chinup, kinda puts my Little problems into perspective.

Truth is IMO you can't do much to help him, I didn't loose my job but totally lost contact with my wife and kids during a period of depression barely spoke to them for months.

He is responsible for his life and if its getting to the point where you think you've given it a good shot and told him how you feel and he's still putting himself before you then you need to think about if he deserves your support right now.

Tell him to get a job and start living and contributing within the next month or get yourself down the social and find yourself a bedsit.

I know that sounds harsh but the simple fact is he is taking the fekin piss and maybe an ultimatum is what he needs :\
 
atm, all problems are equally problematic. however small you feel they are!

but thanks, you're right, i did need to be firmer. i'm not going to be that firm with him, but the fact is that yeah, by december i wont be able to pay his rent and mine so he'll have to do that. i hope it wont come to that though. but clearly softly softly hasn't worked, and it is now a real problem, so being a bit harsher is justified. tough love so to speak. because the long and short of it is that i do love him and would do anything i possibly could to help him, even if its harsh in the meantime.
 
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