bah awful morning, got some sleep but still recovering from heavy 24 hour amphet/mdma binge, my mum comes in asking to borrow a pound, then she sees a blister pack of valium on the floor (must of dropped it or fell out of pocket when fucked), barged out the room and probably went to work crying (benzo addiction last year, made her life a misery which i feel terrible about).
i have one blister pack left, and seeing as 40mg is my usual dose, thats nothing. I need to get a script for lyrica or something, benzos are the only thing that keep me motivated and anxiety free, i dont think ive taken enough recently to require a taper or anything. When ive tried lyrica in just 250-300mg doses, it helps just as much as benzos, is less abuseable and addictive.
fuck, sorry for moaning as im sure none of you want to hear it.