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I know I should sleep mate but bluelight is just so addictive, and I've been sniffing mxe tonight so I'm finding it difficult to drop off!
 
th3 s1aught3r said:
^ wrong thread ?
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Nope. There's never a wrong thread for the Big O. ;)

Good morning EADD.

Woke up to Ver Shakez and a feeling of mild regret. The regret has passed so hopefully the shakes will too. Also awoke to drunken text messages from a girl whom I had a crush on for aaaages but never did anything with, despite the fact you could power a small republic with the electricity we fire at each other. She looks a bit like like Joan Jett, so needless to say I smiled. Doesn't stop me missing other people but does the ego good.

Aside from that, it's mango and passionfruit smoothie and try my best to get in shape for work.

Onwards. Have a good 'un!
 
Good morning eadd, well morning at least, looked at my last post and I was on here at 2 o'clock this morning! Now I'm sat outside work waiting to go in feeling fuckered can not be bothered to work today!
 
bah awful morning, got some sleep but still recovering from heavy 24 hour amphet/mdma binge, my mum comes in asking to borrow a pound, then she sees a blister pack of valium on the floor (must of dropped it or fell out of pocket when fucked), barged out the room and probably went to work crying (benzo addiction last year, made her life a misery which i feel terrible about).

i have one blister pack left, and seeing as 40mg is my usual dose, thats nothing. I need to get a script for lyrica or something, benzos are the only thing that keep me motivated and anxiety free, i dont think ive taken enough recently to require a taper or anything. When ive tried lyrica in just 250-300mg doses, it helps just as much as benzos, is less abuseable and addictive.

fuck, sorry for moaning as im sure none of you want to hear it.
 
A totally random thought popped into my head a minute ago - where the hell's discopupils? Did he make any statements about leaving BL or has he just disappeared?
 
DP last logged in on Valentine's Day... I suppose that could point to a decision to stop posting and eventually stop visiting. Codshit, hmmm, strange. Hope they're OK.
 
chinup said:
and that jungo guy hasn't posted since asking about a methadone/booze/benzo combo if i remember correctly.

its all a bit worrying.
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yeah i thought that the other day cos he seems to have the kind of personality i have which is once u start just keep going till you either run out of cash or fall asleep , but i knew not to do the combo he did
 
bignbrown said:
bah awful morning, got some sleep but still recovering from heavy 24 hour amphet/mdma binge, my mum comes in asking to borrow a pound, then she sees a blister pack of valium on the floor (must of dropped it or fell out of pocket when fucked), barged out the room and probably went to work crying (benzo addiction last year, made her life a misery which i feel terrible about).

i have one blister pack left, and seeing as 40mg is my usual dose, thats nothing. I need to get a script for lyrica or something, benzos are the only thing that keep me motivated and anxiety free, i dont think ive taken enough recently to require a taper or anything. When ive tried lyrica in just 250-300mg doses, it helps just as much as benzos, is less abuseable and addictive.

fuck, sorry for moaning as im sure none of you want to hear it.
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god i know that feeling , usually with me it would be foil or needles or if a lighter wasnt working and im trying o light a fag " why are you needing use a lighetr so much !!! ? " in other words thinking i was chasing or cooking the gear

but the worst find wasnt for them , it was for me when i once found a syringe in a drawr in the house and i aksed my mum why is this here ? she said i had asked her to get some from where she works in case i ran out .. fuck i felt guilt ridden straight away , imagining her having to slyly take these needles for me to hit up with ... i never did use them ones though ...
 
That was always so bad, I remeber my mum always used to walk in on me banging up in my foot, can't image how she felt! So glad those days ar behind me!
 
Thing is now, she wont talk to me for days now, i hate the thought of her being upset, and my dad will probably come round saying right your going to rehab (for one blister pack of valium lol).

Guess its just my history of heavy abuse last year thats getting them worried again.
 
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