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Quitting kratom, fighting through withdrawals

Monday, 8:19

- I caved and asked the office for a sub for the rest of the day. Feeling weak for that. Maybe I should've just tried to tough it out.

- I think I'm already feeling a little better than I did this morning. Maybe the early mornings are just rough.

Anyways, I'm looking forward to a hot bath and some couch time. Maybe tomorrow will be better.
 
Gidget
You are doing amazing !! I'm surprised you even tried to get to work this morning especially how your were feeling getting ready. True it could be pregnancy related I always get very sick during the first 2 trimesters. Each day you will feel a little better. Vitamin b6 helps with morning sickness but maybe just talk to a doctor or pharmacist first. Hang in there girl you got this !!
 
Ur improving little by little , that's great! Just try to keep ur mind off it if possible( I know). Ur almost there though. Don't feel weak for asking for a sub, I'm surprised u went in at all, ur much tougher than me that's for sure. Anyway one hr at a time. Hopefully tonight u can sleep a little better and tomorrow will be better than today. Great job! Be proud of yourself..
 
Monday, 5:25 pm

Mostly just feeling really tired, lethargic, and weepy.

Weak and a bit feverish, like I'm getting over a bad flu or something.

I'm definitely going to push myself to make it through the work day tomorrow, I think it might be good for me.

I can't thank y'all enough for your cheerleading during the last couple days. I might've broken without you!
 
Great job Gidget !!
Sounds like you are just about through the worst. Tomorrow should be a much better day. You should be proud of your accomplishment I know it's no easy task to kick. Let us know how tomorrow goes for you. :)
Cliffy , me and many others that are reading your thread but not posting are cheering for you !!
 
Tuesday, 7:35 am
- feeling just slightly better than yesterday morning, I think. But that's okay, I guess. A teeny bit better everyday is all I can ask for.

Still got that weak, feverish feeling. I think that might linger for awhile. And soooo tired, no energy at all.

I think I'll try some coffee today. I've been completely avoiding caffeine lately but the March of Dimes says that one cup of coffe a day, or 200 milligrams of caffeine, is okay. Maybe that'll help me feel a little bit less zombie-ish.

Sosick and cliffy--y'all are the best!
 
I know it seems like it's gonna longer forever but trust me it's not. One of these mornings your gonna wake up and it'll be gone, that's how it was for me anyways and I was on some heavy shit. It's all positive thoughts and good vibes. Ur steady improving and u can actually feel it so that means ur very close to the end IMO. I hope work goes well and your able to make it through the full day but if u have to get a sub in there again don't feel bad. Your a goddamned soldier!! Lol. Ttyl gidget!!!
 
Hey Gidget
Slow but steady improvement that's how it was for me too. The fatigue was something that I struggled with for awhile but I was on oxy for just over 10 years. I kinda expected a long haul to recovery. As one amazing supporter on here once said to me you will feel like you are driving a moped for awhile then one morning you will wake up and feel like a finely tuned sports car. So true.
Awesome job Gidget !!
 
Tuesday, 5:45 pm

Barely perceptible improvement from yesterday but, again, that's all I can ask for. Little by little.

I definitely feel more emotionally stable today--less weepy, less anxious, less random and sudden dissolving into tears, etc.

Still feel feverish and fatigued. All day I felt cold and goosebumpy, but clammy and sweaty at the same time.

I made it through the whole work day though, which I was proud of. Didn't have to do much active teaching though since kids were testing today. I tried to force myself to do little tasks throughout the day--reshelve books in my classroom library, check email, type up some notes, etc.

Tomorrow I'll actually have to be teaching throughout most of the day though. But maybe it'll be good. Keep my mind occupied.

Now that I feel like I'm getting through this, I've finally been able to start feeling excited about being pregnant.
 
Tuesday, 5:45 pm

Barely perceptible improvement from yesterday but, again, that's all I can ask for. Little by little.

I definitely feel more emotionally stable today--less weepy, less anxious, less random and sudden dissolving into tears, etc.

Still feel feverish and fatigued. All day I felt cold and goosebumpy, but clammy and sweaty at the same time.

I made it through the whole work day though, which I was proud of. Didn't have to do much active teaching though since kids were testing today. I tried to force myself to do little tasks throughout the day--reshelve books in my classroom library, check email, type up some notes, etc.

Tomorrow I'll actually have to be teaching throughout most of the day though. But maybe it'll be good. Keep my mind occupied.

Now that I feel like I'm getting through this, I've finally been able to start feeling excited about being pregnant.
Hopefully u can get some quality sleep tonight and wake up feeling a bit better. When I went through this that's how it happened for me, I went to bed still sick and woke on the 5th day feeling 70% which almost made me feel hi lol. I'm hoping something like that happens for u soon. Stay strong, your doing great! U made it the full day, amazing!!!
 
Great job Gidget !!
Keeping busy and not focusing on how crappy you feel is the best thing to do. Even if you don't feel like it try and keep yourself busy. Exercise is also a big part of recovery it helps to speed up the process to feeling well again. If you can do some aerobic type exercise that's the best to start producing some natural endorphins. You are doing amazing !! Sleep well
 
I hope you stay strong. I'll share

KRATOM IS NO JOKE!!! Let this be a reminder to all who are considering giving kratom a try. In my opinion kratom can be a MUCH Healthier and Safer alternative to the other crap we put in our bodies. It has many benefits and much good can come from it. Only when used RESPONSIBLY .
About 5 years ago I had about a years worth of sobriety, this was back before the media caught on and really put it in the spotlight. Hell other than folks online Nobody and I mean nobody knew what it was. I specifically remember asking my psychiatrist about it and he had to get on his computer to even get an idea. After I received my first order which was an ounce, I tossed and washed a few spoon-fulls and was hooked right there. From this day until I quit I would consume 1Kilo of powdered leaf about every 11days. Due to the leaf being freakishly cheap through wholesale I refused to spend the extra bucks on the extracts and ect.
I had this illusion that since it was legal, cheap, and fairly unknown. I believed I had finally found a substance which I could indulge in and live normally. Fast forward about 1 and a half years: I am miserable on kratom the constipation was far worse than any opiate I had encountered, I could only shit twice a week (When I was lucky) and boy I dreaded it every time. The pain Oh God the pain, Having to swallow 5-6 spoon fulls of powder 3-4 times a day was becoming a chore, it's not that easy to hide anymore, I became sick from the thought of it and eventually the act of it. I am miserable without kratom the mental anguish is unbelievable. I cried for no reason, I would constantly sweat, I could not go out with friends because I was unable to control the leaking from my bowels, Anxiety through the roof everything is going wrong "Why can't I stop worrying about some random shit that doesn't make sense?!?!", I was incapable of any type of relaxation as if my body could not register what a recliner or bed is supposed to feel like........... And so on goes the Endless cycle insanity and un-manageability.

I ended up going cold turkey and I have not used kratom since that. Although Fascinated by it's properties I have a almost 3 foot tall tree(rifat strain). Anyways after day 4 things began to get better. I have detoxed off of all kinds of things however in regards to opiates/opiods the withdrawal from kratom is Definitely unique.

I hope you continue on seeing the light at the end, nothing in my post was meant to judge you or be negative in anyway. I just wanted to briefly share my experience so that you know you are not in this alone.
 
KRATOM IS NO JOKE!!! Let this be a reminder to all who are considering giving kratom a try. In my opinion kratom can be a MUCH Healthier and Safer alternative to the other crap we put in our bodies. It has many benefits and much good can come from it. Only when used RESPONSIBLY .
About 5 years ago I had about a years worth of sobriety, this was back before the media caught on and really put it in the spotlight. Hell other than folks online Nobody and I mean nobody knew what it was. I specifically remember asking my psychiatrist about it and he had to get on his computer to even get an idea. After I received my first order which was an ounce, I tossed and washed a few spoon-fulls and was hooked right there. From this day until I quit I would consume 1Kilo of powdered leaf about every 11days. Due to the leaf being freakishly cheap through wholesale I refused to spend the extra bucks on the extracts and ect.
I had this illusion that since it was legal, cheap, and fairly unknown. I believed I had finally found a substance which I could indulge in and live normally. Fast forward about 1 and a half years: I am miserable on kratom the constipation was far worse than any opiate I had encountered, I could only shit twice a week (When I was lucky) and boy I dreaded it every time. The pain Oh God the pain, Having to swallow 5-6 spoon fulls of powder 3-4 times a day was becoming a chore, it's not that easy to hide anymore, I became sick from the thought of it and eventually the act of it. I am miserable without kratom the mental anguish is unbelievable. I cried for no reason, I would constantly sweat, I could not go out with friends because I was unable to control the leaking from my bowels, Anxiety through the roof everything is going wrong "Why can't I stop worrying about some random shit that doesn't make sense?!?!", I was incapable of any type of relaxation as if my body could not register what a recliner or bed is supposed to feel like........... And so on goes the Endless cycle insanity and un-manageability.

I ended up going cold turkey and I have not used kratom since that. Although Fascinated by it's properties I have a almost 3 foot tall tree(rifat strain). Anyways after day 4 things began to get better. I have detoxed off of all kinds of things however in regards to opiates/opiods the withdrawal from kratom is Definitely unique.

I hope you continue on seeing the light at the end, nothing in my post was meant to judge you or be negative in anyway. I just wanted to briefly share my experience so that you know you are not in this alone.
great post !!! More people need to read your story. It seems like a lot of people are switching to kratom as some kinda miricle drug and miricle cure for wd without really understanding that it's just another opiod. In the end your just trading one doc for another. I'd imagine the wd is just as serious if not more so because that shit seem to hit every receptor because of all the alkaloids and whatnot. People need to be warned that it's just as dangerous and needs to be treated with the same respect as other opioids...
Maybe the mods can move this to it's own thread so more will see it !
 
Wednesday, 8:30 am

Dang, the mornings are the WORST! I always feel sooo terrible in the morning that I think there's absolutely no way I can make it through the day. I will usually perk up a touch within a couple hours (like right about now). I guess it doesn't help that I have to get up at 5 am for work.

But I still feel like I have a damn fever! It's driving me crazy! Cold, clammy, goosebumpy, hot skin, etc. I have a feeling that will be the last thing to leave.

My restless legs are a lot better. Still annoying, can't lay still in one position for more than a few minutes and can hardly keep from constantly rubbing my feet together, but still significantly better than just a few days ago.

I'm trying to keep my eye on Saturday, which will make 7 days. I've got high hopes for one week plus.

I'm hoping next week I'll feel like less shitty of a teacher too.
 
Hey Gidget
Yes I remember that feeling of cold clammy hot skin oh so well. I took Tylenol for it but I know that's not really an option for you. Honestly it shouldn't last too much longer just keep tough in it out. Keep your eye on the prize. Fatigue will probably be the last symptom to leave and you may have it for awhile. You are doing amazing !!! You are so strong to keep with it !! You got this and soon it will be a memory of a unbelievable fight you battled yourself. Be proud of yourself !!
 
Almost there gidget! Day 5 tomorrow, that's awesome! That restlessness is brutal, I'm glad it's Improving a little, baby steps. This too shall pass and you'll be a better person and maybe a better teacher for it! Keep up the good work ur almost there!!
 
Hey gidget how are you this morning? I'm anxious for update I'm waiting for that ever important corner to be turned in your wds. You just remember you've got this shit and this pain and discomfort will soon pass. I'm pulling for you and your baby!
 
Thursday, 8:25 am

More minor improvement today. Verrrryyy tired and fatigued (but this is also an early pregnancy symptom).

My body temperature stuff is slowly evening out I think. Still having goosebumps on and off and still feel clammy (especially hands and feet) but it's very slowly getting better.

Still sneezing a good bit.

Right now I'm just really lacking motivation. There is so much I need to do--papers to grade, lessons to plan, etc--and I just cannot find the energy or motivation to do anything!
 
This low-grade fever is killing me though (been hovering around 99.3-99.5, drops down some during the day). Is that normal?
 
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