Psychosis Paranoid Schizophrenia

[Scenicmind]

I need dopamine in my brain
It’s the only thing that will keep me sane
However its administered there I will grow tolerance
So one day I may find my own garden
And smell the roses not in the boutique
Some way this will help with my mystic
I’m going to tell my story.
It’s Monday and I’m beginning to worry
The things that I do won’t be cut up in the rules
The law and crime will make me look like a fool
And my daily use is getting pretty grim
I won’t say it again but it is not to distant
Pause my mind so I calibrate my iconic movie reel
Well that’s what I think from a mind without real
I don’t mean to be whack with my rhymes
As they only make it look like a verse line
But It’s my way of thinking
I’m thinking I’m functional but I’m schizzing
I feel it in my body as a whole becoming dysfunctional
Mind body soul emotion feeling visional
Affected by my past and a mental paralysis
It’s difficult for anyone to cope when you can’t even mention it
It’s not a norm in society but someway I’ll carry this proudly
As a damn being working and having this company
I will break through break out and run for miles
This tiresome bind will not glitch me I call it a liar
I need to tell you I’m afraid of the spectrum of being ill
I suffer from this fear so hard I’m forced to knell
Nothing reflects back just more problems
Or is that just what the medication blends
There is no real diagnostics for this just a script of substances
Whether you choose to abuse or rot your brain it’s all there in abundance
We need functioning stability for us to get a mediocre fix
If you don’t hustle for your life you're going to be a floating fish
Don’t run away from the noise and chatter
If you find them assume it’s your mind over matter
I’ve had enough to say as my mental dooms on
I’ll try to keep you occupied as my hallucinations are gone
Keep these thoughts in your mind
And I hope we with this problem will all do fine
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[qwe]

may i ask what you're prescribed (and what medicine you purchase without doctor's authority) and what you're diagnosed with? that's personal but i'm assuming it's already on bluelight anyway

cool words. >>when you can’t even mention it>> i wonder if we will transcend language, and if we will allow language to really evolve? imagine the empathy and compassion that would allow.

 

[Scenicmind]

may i ask what you're prescribed (and what medicine you purchase without doctor's authority) and what you're diagnosed with? that's personal but i'm assuming it's already on bluelight anyway

cool words. >>when you can’t even mention it>> i wonder if we will transcend language, and if we will allow language to really evolve? imagine the empathy and compassion that would allow.

I take Abilify guy. and I "bathe" in bath salt at the moment. i got what the title of my poem is.. psychosis paranoid schizophrenia.

Thanks for your read
I don't know if i can begin to think about the language and how it is how it is.. but i think language is already in it's setting of evolving.