PocketLady
Bluelighter
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So I'm really not sure whether I'm having some kind if break from reality when I take MDMA or psychedelics at festivals. It started a few years back when I'd taken quite a lot of MDMA followed by some mushrooms. As I was coming up on the shrooms I got the sense that everyone around me was telepathic in some way - that it was this secret which you kind of had to figure out yourself.
I continued to have experienced like this at festivals for the last few years. I felt like there was some kind of energy or vibe that we were all sensitive to when high on drugs. Weird things started happening, like if I was giving off a negative vibe at any given point, the music would go weird, or people would start bumping in to me or acting weird around me. But on the other hand, when I was completely in the present and totally open and accepting, the music would be amazing all of a sudden.
I remember going back to my tent one time when I was wasn't feeling too good, and there was this guy literally screaming like his was in pain not too far away. I also remember thinking that a guy in a band was playing the trombone badly, and he stormed off stage like he was really pissed. I could easily write this off as coincidence, but when I say that at least 10+ of these "coincidences" would happen per night would not be in any way exaggerating. I feel when a group of people are high on drugs we can all feel exactly what the other people are feeling, almost to the extent of telepathy.
It only really occurred to me the other day that this might be some kind of psychosis. I looked up "thought broadcasting" which is a symptom of schizophrenia and psychosis which basically describes what i think is happening, except I only believe it happens when I am around other people on drugs and I don't believe it's happening to me exclusively, if that makes sense? It's not a special ability I have, but something that happens as a result of taking drugs.
So am I crazy? Would really appreciate responses from everyone, but am very interested to here from people who go to festivals/raves regularly.
I continued to have experienced like this at festivals for the last few years. I felt like there was some kind of energy or vibe that we were all sensitive to when high on drugs. Weird things started happening, like if I was giving off a negative vibe at any given point, the music would go weird, or people would start bumping in to me or acting weird around me. But on the other hand, when I was completely in the present and totally open and accepting, the music would be amazing all of a sudden.
I remember going back to my tent one time when I was wasn't feeling too good, and there was this guy literally screaming like his was in pain not too far away. I also remember thinking that a guy in a band was playing the trombone badly, and he stormed off stage like he was really pissed. I could easily write this off as coincidence, but when I say that at least 10+ of these "coincidences" would happen per night would not be in any way exaggerating. I feel when a group of people are high on drugs we can all feel exactly what the other people are feeling, almost to the extent of telepathy.
It only really occurred to me the other day that this might be some kind of psychosis. I looked up "thought broadcasting" which is a symptom of schizophrenia and psychosis which basically describes what i think is happening, except I only believe it happens when I am around other people on drugs and I don't believe it's happening to me exclusively, if that makes sense? It's not a special ability I have, but something that happens as a result of taking drugs.
So am I crazy? Would really appreciate responses from everyone, but am very interested to here from people who go to festivals/raves regularly.