iROLL22
Bluelighter
Over the past summer on many occasions lsd walked into my life and nothing but positive results transpired. The big one was a change in thinking about how i operated my day to day life and looking at that life from a completely different angle.
My life the past few years has consisted of this sense of control, to control my emotions through chemistry you could say. Opiates and uppers like coke and amphetamines and molly at parties were a big part of it. I would freak out when i couldnt find something and was noticing how taxing the chemicals were becoming on my body. i was developing an addiction and was trying to quit but then that voice in the back of my head would pressure me to do more so i could get the amazing feeling i used to get of the drugs.
On acid i kept thinking about these things over and over and over and over. But then it hit me, its like an itch. i scratch the itch to make it go away but it only goes away for a minute before coming back stronger than before. i had been depressed, was taking this or that, but then coming down from that made me more depressed than before so now i needed more and thus the cycle of addiction began. But the main idea that slowly started to break the chain of addiction for me was realizing that that sense of control i thought i had, needing to take drugs to evoke a feeling or have fun at a party, was unnecessary. Looking at life on acid, all i see are "meant to be's". Scenarios would just come together as if they were "meant to be". Like if im really meant to have this job than this will happen to cause me to get the job or whatever, i dont need to meddle with it to get the job or worry about it constantly. at the same time if im meant to be happy and live a happy life than it will happen, i dont need to take these drugs for this happy life to happen, in fact if i do it will always end in failure. I needed to let go of my life in order to get it back. I needed to let go of control in order to gain control. That is exactly was acid taught me and it was the only thing besided God's grace that broke the addiction to drugs i was convinced i couldnt do, that my family hoped in vain would happen. So my question is who all of you have used the psychedelic realm to break a bad habit or lifestyle?
As for me i dont use anymore, but i do have a special place reserved for a psychedelic session every once in awhile to refresh these ideals i have discovered, and i believe that is what these compounds are truly meant for, not to shallowly trip out to have a fun time outside of yourself, but to discover who you are supposed to be and let yourself be that individual. Letting go of the control in your life so that your destiny can flourish, to let your purpose become reality.
-i
My life the past few years has consisted of this sense of control, to control my emotions through chemistry you could say. Opiates and uppers like coke and amphetamines and molly at parties were a big part of it. I would freak out when i couldnt find something and was noticing how taxing the chemicals were becoming on my body. i was developing an addiction and was trying to quit but then that voice in the back of my head would pressure me to do more so i could get the amazing feeling i used to get of the drugs.
On acid i kept thinking about these things over and over and over and over. But then it hit me, its like an itch. i scratch the itch to make it go away but it only goes away for a minute before coming back stronger than before. i had been depressed, was taking this or that, but then coming down from that made me more depressed than before so now i needed more and thus the cycle of addiction began. But the main idea that slowly started to break the chain of addiction for me was realizing that that sense of control i thought i had, needing to take drugs to evoke a feeling or have fun at a party, was unnecessary. Looking at life on acid, all i see are "meant to be's". Scenarios would just come together as if they were "meant to be". Like if im really meant to have this job than this will happen to cause me to get the job or whatever, i dont need to meddle with it to get the job or worry about it constantly. at the same time if im meant to be happy and live a happy life than it will happen, i dont need to take these drugs for this happy life to happen, in fact if i do it will always end in failure. I needed to let go of my life in order to get it back. I needed to let go of control in order to gain control. That is exactly was acid taught me and it was the only thing besided God's grace that broke the addiction to drugs i was convinced i couldnt do, that my family hoped in vain would happen. So my question is who all of you have used the psychedelic realm to break a bad habit or lifestyle?
As for me i dont use anymore, but i do have a special place reserved for a psychedelic session every once in awhile to refresh these ideals i have discovered, and i believe that is what these compounds are truly meant for, not to shallowly trip out to have a fun time outside of yourself, but to discover who you are supposed to be and let yourself be that individual. Letting go of the control in your life so that your destiny can flourish, to let your purpose become reality.
-i
