If you would like the title of this thread changed, or the whole thing closed, you need only say the word EWO.
EWO said:
I haven't had any drugs for a few days now..
and that's not because I don't have them. That's to prove I can handle being off them.
Sorry, but given your dissociative habit, months of abstinence are in order to give your chance to break free of delusions they have caused/reinforced. At least based off of my personal experience with them, even now, using them at all can easily send be back to them especially if I have more than one dose's worth. You can't see it while it's still happening. Abstaining from psych use in general for at least a month may also be wise.
The drugs will still be there when after that, and you may or may not learn something useful during your break.
ewo said:
while I try to explain my version of the message to no end
No you don't! Your posts are like marshmallows, a bunch of fluff lacking any substantiation. Let me summarize what you have said.
"I am awakened, psychedelic drugs opened my third eye. Most people are blind, therefore they are controlled by religion, government, and materialistic culture. Culture is corrupt/morally wrong, and you must awake, free yourself from its delusions, and actively reject it. I speak truth because I know it is true, I am not crazy, look McKenna agrees with me."
So basically you've engaged in some of the lengthiest, post-heavy talking around to convey 4 sentences worth of information. None of it is even radical or beyond a typical Counter-cultural or luddite rhetoric, aside from the messiah complex vibe you're putting off. What was the point of invoking McKenna, I mean they're nice talks and vids you linked to, but you didn't say any of that stuff at best you implied some of the things he dealt with in a lucid and in-depth manner, hardly a confirmation of your vast received knowledge!
So my Rx for you is aside from the recommended period of sobriety above, is to take the revelations you have received, think deeply about them, expound upon them in a logical manner, attack them with what skepticism you can muster, repeat. After you've done this to your heart's content please explain as clearly and concisely as possible the Truths to which you have become aware. (I realize that beliefs and thoughts are all mangled up in tangled up knots and it can be very difficult to approach them systematically, but surely progress can be made if you try)