it gives me a '3rd person' point of view on things. i can be in the middle of a real life crisis, or on my way to catatonia, drooling, sluring, eyes rolling back in my head, and POT helps me rationalize the situation. take a deep breath and realize that the current situation is temporary, and i will get by.
benzo's make me not care, or too debilitated to be able to worry. even though the anxiety/terror is still there theres just not much my mind can do about it, good or bad.
it also motivates me when otherwise i might just feel like hiding out inside, when i smoke i come up with all sorts of odds and ends to do; water yard, pick through garden, go fish!, clean up, do dishes, pay attention to my cats, make a phone call ive been needing to etc...
it gives my soul spirit.
but i was just about to twist 1, so id better stop talking about and start smokin.
i, i love you maryjane.