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Post here if you need a bit of love

Of course not buddy. We all need some love. I'm going through a rough spot in my life. I was an IV pill user. Went to rehab, got on Subs. Stayed clean for a month after rehab, Subs weren't helping, started using Heroin. Lost my job, family, girlfriend. Got on Methadone this time, started therapy and doing much better.

My life has been pretty wild and I'm only 24, I've been writing a story about my life and was considering posting it for people who would be interested in kicking back and reading a pretty interesting story.
 
I can send some love to you both <3 I am on my late twenties and had a tough life too. Happy holidays <3
 
I am 26 years old. I am on Day 11 of my recovery from opiate addiction: Oxy, Roxi, Lortab, Percs, etc... (no H).

I have been a pill addict for just over 4 years. I went to rehab, completed with flying colors, but relapsed when I got out... didn't take very long either. I never took the sub route, as I believe all I personally need is a strong mindset, a solid support group, and to spoil my body with healthy foods and vitamins. I've relapsed 3 times, this is my 4th time quitting. Not everyone can get it done the first, second, third, or even fourth time.

Stay strong. Remember that the only way you can beat this is by wanting it for yourself. If you're forced into quitting because you ran out of money, feel bad because your family found out, etc., etc... the chance for relapse early in PAWS or even in acute withdrawal skyrocket.

With much love and support, you can do this if you want to do this. Lean on us, we know what you're going through.
TTGB - Day 11
 
^ Been there too Trying, took me several tries cold turkey and a few rehabs before I finally got it right. I had to remind myself of all the shit I'd gone through and never wanted to go back to that. It's like you said, you have to really want it for yourself because a hard habit doesn't leave easily. @Gado, glad you got on methadone. I had alienated my parents and they died before I could make amends, lost my job too. My story's not really wild, just fucked. If you want to share yours, go ahead and blog it up. I'd love to read it!

I really like the title of this because we all need some love and to remind our most important people how much they mean to us. <3
 
Yeah, trying to shake off a few rattles here, nothing serious though.

I just don't seem to be able to hold on to anything that makes me happy and end up resorting back to drugs. Luckily whilst my family situation is a bit fucked at the moment, it's pretty loving.
 
absolutely need some love. I just joined today, although have read threads on this site for ages. Xmas is just a day away, I've relapsed for the first time since being clean about 4 months from a very long habit. Its been 3 months now and Im desperately trying to quit as my life is being ruined again. Family that Im supposed to be with is disappointed and resentful. Im new to my surroundings and have no real friends here. My roommates don't understand. Ive never been at a point in my life to where I have absolutely nobody to talk to. The "friends" I've made are just drug friends and dont give a s%*& about me. My life right now sucks so every word is a complaint which nobody wants to hear. Sorry, Im venting. Its hard to not be in a "feeling sorry for myself" state when there's not much to be happy about. In my 2nd day of withdrawals from opiates and the future isnt looking bright. Someone save my pathetic ass!
 
I'm new here too. I too have been reading here for a while. Sometimes, I'm afraid to write anything for fear of sounding like an idiot. I am so messed up. I am withdrawing off benzos, and I feel like I will never be myself again. I'm in a new city (for school); I have no friends (because I had to drop out after a suicide attempt--irony, I'm counselor and was getting a phd in psych); and pot doesn't help anymore. I crave my old habits so I don't have to "feel feelings anymore" (family guy quote). I got love for you all.
 
T. Calderone said:
@Gado, glad you got on methadone. I had alienated my parents and they died before I could make amends, lost my job too. My story's not really wild, just fucked. If you want to share yours, go ahead and blog it up. I'd love to read it!

I really like the title of this because we all need some love and to remind our most important people how much they mean to us. <3
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I think I'm going to post it when I finish it. It basically starts when I'm 14 and was diagnosed with Crohn's diesease which is how this whole mess of opiate addiction started. I think everyone needs love especially this time of year. I ten to start thinking about all the shitty things I've done and all the hard times I've been through. It's tough, but it's nice being able to come on here and talk to others who know exactly what everyone is going through.
 
Damn Captain, I'm sorry. It's been the shittiest year of all my shitty years combined. As much as I whine and complain I'm glad to still be here. What else can we do besides try to make the best of it? To the newbies, keep on posting because we are all here for the same purpose which is helping each other!
 
Yeh I'm going through struggles aswell. Not to the extent of some other people, but I still have issues that get me in very dark places.

I hope everyone has a decent Xmas. It's Xmas here in Australia, 4 pm to be exact. I got Xmas money, tbph all I can think about is going to get on something.
 
Captain.Heroin said:
I am struggling ^

This is the hardest year of my life -.-
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Me too. Not alone but painfully lonely. Worst thing is me being like this is impacting on other members of the household. I had to be dragged out of my isolation by my mum's partner to come down for lunch, she was upset because the rest of the family just didn't show up. I'm too miserable to be in anyway supportive, was all I could do to not burst into tears at the table.

This shit fucking sucks.
 
I'm sorry for those of you going through a rough patch. Here's hoping things get better soon! Anyone wanting to PM with someone, you're looking at her!
 
I could do for some love as well. Not just receiving, but giving love.

I love all of you. And you should all remember that those of us who have been through it and are still going are some of the strongest people around. <3
 
i'm thankful for all the support and love i get from you people my son did me a solid when telling me to set up an account here
 
^^ Fantastic dwamn! Glad you feel that way. When all else in my life has failed, Bluelight has always been here to help me pick up the pieces. And for that, I am grateful. :)
 
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