Poly drug user + wanting talk to ppl that completed heroin then done addiction

[ceds82]

I'm new here and this is my first ever post. So if its the wrong forum i apologise in advance

Quick background:

30 year old Aussie here.

My teenage years through to say 15 - 20 were spent taking weed, JD and eccies ( you americans call molly? lol)
Over the next 5 years you can add xanax, GHB, shooms, k etc to the mix but i was a functioning addict. I mean i did well enough in school to go to university and land a good job. I love getting fucked up as often as possible but always knew that when i had to handle my business i'd fix up, look sharp and get that shit done.

Anyway then came 2009 with these synthetic drugs. Without getting into too much details me and my girl had access to huge of methadrone (meow meow )and i cant imagine how much the both of us consumed (along with xanax) over those next 2 years. It would be in the killo's for sure and along with those 2c's type it had gotten out of control.

2011 i still have my job which i cannot believe but at this stage the synthetic drugs are not available to me .
A lawyer recommends me going to rehab should any charges be forthcoming and it was in this rehab i was introduced to heroin. I still remember the girl in the room saying " It just this warm blanket of love"....well shit..within a few days a iasked for that blanket.

At this point a 2 year IV heroin habbit begins and even though i still think about the peace it brings on the regular that drug very quickly took every important thing that mattered to me away. Some great people have stayed through all of this and eventually persuaded me to start a methadone program approx one year ago.

I was at about 60 Mills for 6 months and then started dropped 5mill every 10 days or so. At first it didn't seem so bad. Monica my pharmaco gives me some valium for the shitty days and i still do smoke weed. But now im down to my final 10 mills....AND ...after nearly 12 months of being clean i picked up a 1.7 last w/e and used for the next 2 days. Ive had to stay in my house for the week just to get used to the 15 mill done again n be normal.

The shittest part is everyone in my life believes im just about to finally get over this shit and i just Fucked up ...

Im not looking for sympathy...just anyone with a similar experience of relapse during the final stage of methadone.

Is this shit possible to do in one year or am i kidding myself?

 

[RTrain]

Simple statistics will tell you that once you drop to 20 mg and are still dropping in 5 mg increments that it is setting you up for failure. When you cut 15 to 10 mg that is 33% of the dose, a huge drop that is surely going to suck. Apparently you managed to get that low on a 5 mg every 10 days drop, but I would ask to get back on the 'done at a stabilizing dose and drop 1 or 2 mg a week until you get down to a very low amount and then stop.

If they won't agree to do that for you I'd find another clinic that knows how to taper someone off a longstanding maintenance drug without setting them up to likely fail.